Beyond Redemption | By : Ljiljana Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 979 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
Disclaimer: Characters borrowed. I definitely do not own Naruto series, nor do I earn any money writing this. |
Title: Beyond
Redemption
Rating: R or
NC-17
Pairing:
Naruto/Sasuke, Sasuke’s pov
Length: 4500
words, oneshot
Summary: As a
prison guard, it’s not Naruto’s job to save souls of the prisoners. It would
take much more than a few rules to stop him from trying, though. AU,
Naruto/Sasuke
Beta: Jellybean12
on y!gall
Disclaimer:
Characters borrowed. I definitely do not own Naruto series.
A/N: Title
totally stolen, but much better than everything else I came up with.
This story is written for tsuki_te_suiren,
for an art exchange she offered… sometime in August. She let me decide what to
write, and without a prompt or anything else to guide me, I’m afraid I ended up
thinking about it while watching a documentary on prisons. This is what came
out of it. I hope you like the story!
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Beyond Redemption
When Sasuke had walked in through the doors of the harshest penitentiary
in the country a couple of weeks earlier, all was well. He was where he was
supposed to be. He had a plan. It was much simpler than the plan that had led
him in the prison – instead of finding a way to outsmart, entrap and kill his
brilliant brother, all he had to do was survive.
It was supposed to be simple. He was supposed to learn the
rules of his new world and follow them. If he stayed calm and
out of everyone’s way, there wouldn’t be any problems.
But something went wrong. It was like he couldn’t control
what he was doing – the other prisoners were just so irritating, so pathetic
and yet full of themselves. It was stupidity that had brought them to jail,
the lack of discipline and brains. Not one, aside from Sasuke himself, was
imprisoned at his own choice, no matter how serious the crime was but they all still
acted as if they knew better.
They didn’t know better. They led their pointless inside
wars, trying to gain some imaginary power or inflict pain on others. It was
disgraceful. And Sasuke had no problems showing his disgust, none at all. He
wasn’t afraid, and they… they didn’t seem to think he was worth the effort. A
couple of insulting words did nothing to ease the restlessness that had haunted
Sasuke since he stepped foot in the penitentiary. He wanted a proper fight.
But all encounters with the other
prisoners were disappointing.
~~~
The penitentiary was so tightly packed that the former
recreational room had to be renovated as a dormitory. The bunk beds were lined
up from one wall to the other. Sasuke’s bed was somewhere in the middle, but it
wasn’t too hard to find it. Every bed, as a small personal world of a prisoner,
was unique even within the restrictions, decorated to the taste of the owner.
It was a bad idea to walk among them without clearly
pointing out the purpose, like an urgent need for the bathroom. Someone
might think that you were planning something. But that was
a rule that, like most, was somehow flawed when it
came to Sasuke. As he rose without a word, barely anyone glanced in his
direction.
In the last row next to the exit, one of the toughest
prisoners outside of the solitary cells, Ibiki, was doing push ups with his
feet hooked over the spinal cord of the bed. He had just returned The Cage,
the harshest disciplinary measure the prison was enforcing on problematic
prisoners. And here he was, already showing off, already preparing to do the
same old thing that had him locked up in the first place.
He was a pathetic excuse for a human.
As if it was nothing, though it definitely caused his
adrenalin to spike, Sasuke stepped over Ibiki when he was down. The reaction was
so quick he almost lost his footing; the huge guy was up on his feet in a
second. He grabbed Sasuke’s shoulder and spun him around until they were facing
each other.
“Watch your step, boy.”
The word choice was kinder than the tone, but Sasuke was still
disappointed. What was it with these people, why were they refusing to get
angry with him?
“I was.” He answered, his most
cocky smirk in place. “I’d just mistaken you
for the floor.”
Something darkened in Ibiki’s eyes. That’s it, Sasuke
thought, dizzy. He had said many more provocative things in the
last couple of weeks, but…
“Oh, come on, guys.” A voice interrupted. Sasuke vowed, for
what seemed like the hundredth time in the last week alone, that he would kill
that meddling little idiot the first chance he got. “We don’t really have a problem here, do we? Cause
there’s
a warm
cup of cocoa waiting for me to finish my round and I don’t want it to get
cold.”
Sasuke shot Naruto his hardest glare. There was something
seriously fucked up with that guard. His easy going attitude and smiling and
that odd, unspoken respect the prisoners had for him… It was strange. It was
disturbing. And Sasuke wished that he would stop butting in every time he was
close to pissing someone off seriously.
Besides, the reason Naruto was respected among the prisoners
was because he was willing to do small favors for them – like exchanging
letters
or buying them magazines and processed food. If Ibiki wanted his
family to find out that he was out of the Cage and well days sooner than
official process would allow, he’d better behave.
“Neh.” Ibiki answered,
hands off Sasuke entirely. “The kid’s obviously retarded, but it’s nothing some
training can’t fix.”
“Hmm,” Naruto said, smiling in Sasuke’s direction. “I doubt
‘retarded’ is the word you’re looking for.”
Sasuke kept quiet as a flicker of annoyance passed over
Ibiki’s face. He couldn’t do anything, he couldn’t even say anything. Naruto,
moron that he was, had all the power – especially with how fresh the memory of
the last punishment must have been in Ibiki’s head.
“Were you on your way to the bathroom, Sasuke?” Naruto
asked, talking to him finally. “Come on, then. I’ll walk you there. Someone
needs to warn you if there are some people lying around, so you
won’t mistake
them for the floor.”
A snicker followed the words from somewhere
behind Sasuke. Whether they had been thinking
that it was a good joke, or they just welcomed any excuse to laugh at him, he
couldn’t tell. He didn’t care.
Sasuke walked though the door to the hallway without a word.
Naruto fell into step with him, humming just under his
breath.
“Not there.” He said when Sasuke turned to the bathroom
door. “Follow me.”
He unlocked the door at the end of the hall, the one that
lead into the main hallway. Everything was empty and the sound of their
steps echoed off the walls. Naruto was offering no explanations and
Sasuke was unwilling to ask. It wasn’t likely that he was being led to execution,
for there was no such thing in their prison and his sentence was clear. Sasuke
cared little about everything else.
Naruto opened the door that lead into the guards’ private quarters
and gestured for Sasuke to come inside. Prisoners were not allowed here.
No one even knew what was behind this doors.
His curiosity sparkling a little, Sasuke followed.
In the small lobby, one of the other guards, a
fat guy with long hair whose name Sasuke had never bothered remembering, widened
his eyes at his blue uniform like he’d never seen such thing in his life.
“Naruto,” He said. “I don’t think that’s…”
“I brought Ibiki some jellybeans, man’s crazy about the
stuff.” Naruto cut right in, bright smile still firmly in place. “But he won’t
be getting them today. Do you want them?”
The other guard didn’t answer, but Naruto threw him the
little bag anyway. Why he was pissed off at Ibiki, Sasuke didn’t know. Ibiki had done nothing
wrong. If Naruto had been close enough to hear Sasuke’s
retort, he surely knew that.
The bathroom Naruto gestured for him to use was
small, private. There were only two stalls, two urinals and a sink. For the first time in a really long time,
Sasuke was feeling self-conscious. He entered a stall, even though he didn’t
really need to use the bathroom at all. He was just stretching his legs, it
always helped when his mind was starting to become too gloomy, his thoughts too
focused and barren.
Sasuke walked inside, closed the door and soaked in the
little gift of privacy. Alone, he could close his eyes for awhile. He could
wait for the pain that wouldn’t come.
…It must have lasted for many minutes, dozens of them.
Sasuke was sure he hadn’t been in the stall for fewer than
fifteen minutes, even if they were not enough. Naruto had let him sit in there,
without a word, for that long?
Sasuke opened his eyes wide to stare at the toilet seat
directly across from him. He thought he knew why Naruto was so respected by the
others
now. It wasn’t that he was doing small things for the prisoners;
it was what he chose to do for them.
Fifteen minutes alone, away from everything – wasn’t that all Sasuke had wanted
ever since he walked in and realized that he would be sleeping in a bunk bed
and shitting in a toilet in a row, stripped of all privacy like a lab rat?
How did Naruto know that? Wasn’t it the same for them
all? But from the look on the other guard’s face, it didn’t seem like it was a
practice to bring the prisoners in.
Sasuke got up and walked out of the stall. Naruto was
leaning casually on the sink, half smile playing on his
mouth. Sasuke walked over to wash his hands.
There was hot water. Sasuke let it flow over his fingers,
warming him up. He could feel the smoke raising from the stream, he could see
his hand turning red but it wasn’t important. Naruto, who had shifted a little
to let him wash his hands, was watching him carefully. It didn’t matter; the
burning was welcome.
Sasuke had already lost all
the feeling in his hands when Naruto leaned over and
turned on some cold water. As if Sasuke was small child that needed help, he
squeezed some of the green soap into his palm. Cool liquid felt good on the
burnt skin, but Naruto’s fingers were better. Sasuke hoped that it wasn’t
showing in his face just how much he was enjoying the steady rub. Human contact.
“They’re afraid of you.” Naruto murmured,
so close his breath was rushing over Sasuke’s shoulder.
“They?” Sasuke asked, watching
regretfully as Naruto removed his hand. “The bunch of scary tattooed guys with
big muscles and the urge to kill?”
Naruto took off his weapons, the high voltage taser and the
club, and put them on the sink next to Sasuke. It was such an insane, stupid
thing to do. Naruto could get fired. All Sasuke had to do was to reach out.
With silent weapons in his hand and Naruto’s keys, he could be out in less than
five minutes, without a problem. It would be easy.
But Sasuke simply stood there, not reaching. Behind him,
Naruto sighed. It almost sounded like disappointment.
“It’s because they don’t understand it.” He said. Sasuke
found his eyes in the mirror. They were blue and sad.
“They don’t understand what?”
“The regret.” Naruto answered. The
word was hideous, it was like a monster that lived and breathed – inside of the
TV screen. Sasuke couldn’t look away. “I’m not sure if they realize that’s it.
Most of them say to themselves that you must be insane to not be afraid of
them, of this place.”
“I might be.” Sasuke said. He probably was insane. Mentally
healthy people do not want to piss off killers.
And yeah, they also don’t kill their brothers.
Naruto grinned in the mirror. “Well, yeah.”
He leaned in again, until he was very close, and took
Sasuke’s hand in his. With some sort of surreal detachment, Sasuke was watching
as Naruto guided his to the holster of the stun gun.
“What are you doing?” Sasuke asked.
Naruto sighed again, like he was giving up. “Any one
of them, anyone else, would use this opportunity to regain some power. Anyone
else would have been desperately trying to get their hands on something that
could be turned into a weapon in that stall – for someone
else’s or their own destruction. But you were just sitting there.”
Naruto’s fingers slipped away from Sasuke’s hand. The touch sparkled
on his skin for
many seconds after that, and for nothing but to prolong the sensation as
much as possible, Sasuke kept his hand on the gun.
He said, “I don’t need any weapons.”
“I don’t understand you, either.” Naruto’s arm was now
around Sasuke, as if to keep him in place, fingers curled into the blue
prisoner shirt. It almost resembled a hug, but Sasuke realized its purpose when
Naruto said. “From everything I’ve heard, your brother
had deserved to die.”
With full right, Naruto expected him to react. As Sasuke
jerked violently, Naruto grabbed him firmly, his hand
warm and harsh. In the next moment, Sasuke was being twirled around
until he was looking directly into Naruto’s serious blue eyes.
“I know that.” Sasuke said. “That’s why I killed him. You
don’t have to reassure me like some child, I was sentenced lifetime for a good
reason.”
“Sasuke,” Naruto said kindly. “The remorse is oozing out
though your ears. I can practically see it.”
“If you think you can see anything, it’s because you’re
violating my personal space.”
Naruto rolled his eyes. “I’ve been violating your personal
space for the last five minutes, but you weren’t
complaining.”
“Of course I wasn’t.” Sasuke told him, trying not to show why he wasn’t complaining. “I don’t want
to end up in the Cage.”
Naruto rolled his eyes again. But as soon as that
instinctive reaction of disbelief passed, his eyes darkened and narrowed. For
no reason at all, Sasuke’s heart rate doubled.
“You don’t want to end up in the cage.” Naruto
repeated, low and silky, like he was vocalizing candy.
“It’s a small box where you have to stand
around naked for days.” Sasuke said. “Of course I don’t.”
Naruto took a little step forward. That small movement ate up the short
distance that was left between them. Sasuke could feel Naruto’s
black pants brushing against his legs and realized that he was quite hard and
that he wanted nothing more but to arch forward to gain some friction
against Naruto.
“Just how much don’t you want to end up in the cage,
Sasuke?” Naruto asked, still in that sweetened tone.
Some part of him wanted to snap that he could feel the
holster of the stun gun brushing his hand still, that Naruto was a moron and
that he should back off. Instead, Sasuke said, “Very much.”
He was rewarded with a smile. It was a harsh, predatory
smile, but it felt like a reward anyway. Sasuke’s breathing sped up to the
point of panting.
“Turn around.” Naruto ordered. Sasuke complied without
hesitation. In the mirror, Naruto’s smile looked more like ownership than
arousal. He took both of Sasuke’s hands and placed them
on either side of the sink. “Don’t move.”
Sasuke had no intention of moving, not that it mattered. His
feet felt like they were made of steel, heavy. Naruto kept their gazes locked
as he slid his right hand off Sasuke’s to reach up and unbutton the blue shirt.
His hand lingered over Sasuke’s chest though the undershirt, but he made no
effort to do anything else about it.
Naruto taking his time with the whole thing, game or not, did not settle well in Sasuke’s stomach.
He was on the edge of fidgeting with frustration. It had been too long
since he actually wanted sex, many months before Itachi was dead. He could feel
his body waking up under Naruto’s almost-touches, vibrating in
tune with Naruto’s soft tones. It was a very welcome change – even if it was
for a fucking prison guard.
Naruto finally crooked his finger under his pants button,
but he also stopped there and with the other hand pushed Sasuke swiftly back
against him. “Maybe,” Naruto murmured, his lips not quite touching the
sensitive place under Sasuke’s ear.
Through the irrepressible shudder,
Sasuke realized that Naruto was about to back up, even though that
complete retard had to be aware that he had given more than
enough chances for Sasuke to get out of it. And his
weapons were still within reach. Sasuke would feel quite compelled to use them
if Naruto showed serious intention of leaving him like that, hard and almost
alive after so much time.
“You know that soapy pile outside of the bathroom the other
way, when all those people slipped and ended up in the hospital?” He asked. “I
did that.”
He didn’t. He had no idea who had done it;
it was a childish and stupid prank, even though it pissed off a lot of people.
It didn’t matter.
Naruto snorted. “You did?”
He asked it in such a flat tone that was neither surprise
nor disbelief that Sasuke was suddenly sure that Naruto was the one who had
done it. “Yes.”
“Well, cage it is then.” Naruto said in a mock stern voice.
“Unless you would rather the alternative that is.”
“Little box,” Sasuke said. “Standing naked –
we’ve been through this.”
“Alternative, then?” Naruto asked.
He sounded amused and flipped his pants button open finally.
“Yes.” Sasuke confirmed the last time, feeling his pants hit
the floor. That was followed quickly by the plain white prison underwear.
Sasuke exhaled the breath he was holding for a little bit too long when his
cock hit the air and brushed over the smooth surface of the sink.
Naruto ran his palm over Sasuke’s hip. It was moist, and it
was too far away from where it was supposed to be. Fortunately, Naruto was not
a tease; he quickly wrapped his hand around
Sasuke’s shaft.
It has been to long,
Sasuke thought, thrusting into the warm hand
instinctively. Naruto let out a moan in response, like it was his gut that had
coiled and twisted with pleasant warmth.
“I think...” Naruto started and changed his mind. “No.”
His hand was firm and steady as it worked a couple of times
up and down Sasuke’s cock. Even that was too much, so much that if Naruto
didn’t stop very, very soon, Sasuke would come all over the sink.
The next moment, Naruto stopped. He let go of Sasuke’s
erection completely, leaving the swirls in his stomach to straighten up a
little.
“What?” Sasuke asked. Hissed. In the mirror, Naruto smirked.
He hit the inner side of Sasuke’s knee with enough force to
send him down instantly. While the pain from the thud seriously subdued
his arousal, Naruto shifted to the side.
“Well?” He asked, as Sasuke glared up at him from the floor.
“Do you need word by word instructions on blowjobs?”
Sasuke shifted his gaze from Naruto’s face down to his crotch.
He didn’t have to be asked twice and he definitely didn’t need
instructions, which he should probably show rather than claim. There was a belt
holding Naruto’s pants, so Sasuke unbuckled it quickly, his mouth slightly dry.
It was beyond importance that he was being treated like a back-alley whore –
well, that was what he was supposed to be doing, buying his way out of an
unpleasant punishment. Just because he knew it was a game didn’t mean he shouldn’t
act.
Sasuke snatched the guard’s pants down together with the
underwear – or he at least thought that he did it; maybe Naruto just wasn’t
wearing any. Even as Naruto was busy gasping, Sasuke lifted Naruto’s cock,
drooping slightly because of its weight despite being hard as a rock, and
guided it to his mouth, unkindly letting his teeth scrape at the skin. Naruto
hissed and buckled his hips, but instead of retreating he pushed forward,
almost choking
Sasuke in process.
It tasted like something from the other side of the walls, like
seawater or possibly peanuts. That
was why he swept over the skin he had hurt with his tongue, sucked
harder, wanted more. Naruto was quite literally fucking his mouth, and the
thought, detached from the action, sped up Sasuke’s breathing yet again. He was
panting aloud as he worked his tongue to accumulate to the thrusts.
Sasuke could hear small moans Naruto couldn’t suppress. They
were alluring, they made him want to hear more, he wanted them to become louder
and that craving added fuel to his actions. But Naruto grabbed his hair
and retreated, efficiently preventing him from following.
“Ai, crap, that’s
enough.” Naruto panted, red in face. He took a couple
of deep breaths and focused his amused eyes on Sasuke’s. “I still want to
actually fuck you, you know.”
To show they were both quite a bit interested, Sasuke’s cock
twitched. “I know. That’s why you brought me here.”
At any other point, that would be a wrong thing to say. Even
now, only few strokes away from coming, Naruto’s eyes flashed in anger. “No,
that is not why I brought you here. But as we’re at it already – get up.”
Again without hesitation, and ignoring his cock that
twitched again, more violently, Sasuke got up. There seemed to be something in
Naruto’s anger that spiced up his blood. “What now?”
Naruto grabbed his shoulder and turned him to
face the mirror again. “I brought you here because there are at least ten
things in this
bathroom that can be lethal. I wanted to see how far you were willing
to go to off yourself.”
Against all the odds, that retort did
noting to subdue Sasuke’s arousal. Naruto forced his legs apart with his
knees and leaned heavily over Sasuke to squeeze some of the soap in his hand.
It was going to burn.
“But all you did was sit against the door and I didn’t know
what to think.” Naruto said. His lubricated fingers found his hole easily and Naruto
stroked over it, as if giving out a warning. “I don’t know how to help you.”
I don’t want your help
dried in Sasuke’s throat as Naruto pushed a finger inside him. It burned and it
hurt and it was far away from his prostrate and any real pleasure, but Sasuke
found himself wanting to move back into it. Naruto twisted his finger around
and pulled it out.
“I do know what you want, though. You want to be punished.”
“I am being punished.” Sasuke snapped. “I am serving a life
long sentence here for first degree murder.”
“Hands on the sink.” Naruto
ordered. He might have known some of
what Sasuke wanted, because his fingers were back where Sasuke could feel them,
brushing the sensitive skin as soon as Sasuke had obeyed. “You’re serving your
sentence, but it’s just not enough. It’s not painful enough. It’s not the Hell
on Earth. It’s not what you were bracing yourself against when you were
planning the murder. It’s not even bringing your brother back.”
“I don’t want him back.” Sasuke said. He didn’t want Itachi back – but between
Naruto pushing two of his fingers back into him and the irritation of him
talking about the things he didn’t understand, there was a sparkle of sorrow.
Not numbness, not anger, but real, honest sorrow. “He killed my parents – among
others. I don’t want him back.”
Naruto, with fingers deep in Sasuke still, shifted to place
a kiss on his neck. “Yeah, you do. I can hear it in your voice.” He whispered,
kissing a bit higher, until he was whispering in Sasuke’s ear. “You miss him.
And I don’t know how to explain this to you but – you’re allowed to miss him.
You are allowed to love him, despite everything. He was your brother long
before he’d killed anyone.”
They were both still, looking at each other in the mirror.
Naruto was so serious – and so right.
“Just get on with it.” Sasuke finally said, realizing that his arousal
was still there full force. Naruto left another small kiss under his ear and complied.
He pushed in, not too carefully. It hurt so much. It made Sasuke feel physically
worse than
he was feeling emotionally, and for one blissful moment,
everything else stopped, there was just heat of Naruto’s cock pressing into him
in an unforgiving
pace.
The second time Naruto pushed in, it hurt less, then
even less. But the feeling of numbness wasn’t returning,
there were just spikes of sharp pleasure that continued building up with every
movement. Naruto had chosen a pace that was neither too slow nor sufficiently fast,
just maddening enough to make Sasuke groan aloud and try to shove himself back for more contact, faster friction.
His dick had been slamming against the sink and he hadn’t even
noticed before Naruto reached out and protected it by wrapping his hand around
it again. Naruto had to lean some more, a little to the side to reach up
properly and it was that angle that was the right one, the one that allowed
Naruto to slam into the right spot, to make him
shudder and gasp. Sasuke came with a strangled sound, looking in the mirror
Naruto watching him.
Naruto followed soon, that much was clear even through the
haze – his fingers digging into Sasuke’s hips, his cock harder than ever and
movements without the least pretense of consideration. It
was – quite good, the best sex in a horribly long time
and Sasuke used Naruto’s disorientation to try to put
himself together and wipe off his face, just in case
there were tears.
“I’m sorry.” Naruto said after a moment. “I was just
really worried about you. The others are really put off by your complete
lack of fear, but that will wear off. You’ll be in trouble for all the things
you say to piss them off.”
If he wasn’t quite so comfortable, leaning back into Naruto,
almost accepting the half hug he was offered, Sasuke would have thought of
something to say. As it was, he only hummed, which for some
reason made Naruto snicker lowly.
“Is this,” Sasuke asked when Naruto let go to wash himself.
“This private use of the bathroom one time offer only?”
“I certainly hope not.” Naruto answered. Of course, he would
get in a world of trouble if his colleagues found
out. That didn’t even have to be said. But Naruto was well-liked and
clever enough. If he wanted to see Sasuke again – like this – he would find a
way. “Better wash up now, I have to lock you back in before Chouji gets a heart
attack.”
For the first time since he walked though the walls of the
prison, Sasuke felt a pang at the words ‘lock up’. He was sure it didn’t show
on his face, though, even if it took an effort.
He washed up as Naruto packed his weapons back into his
belt. The return to the former recreation room passed in not-quite-awkward
silence. Naruto offered a small smile before departing into the darkness,
leaving Sasuke alone to face the room.
As quite a few looks landed on him, Sasuke felt an adrenalin
surge in his blood that was a reaction to fear and just a little
bit of anticipation. It was about time for him to use all those skills he had
been collecting while preparing himself to rid the world of
Itachi.
As the first shadow rose up with obvious
intention of confronting him, Sasuke wondered if the change in him was visible.
He hoped it was. He wanted to fight, and it wasn’t even about triggering
emotion any longer.
He just wanted to live.
The End
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