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Before The Dawn	By : ArcaneDesires Category: Naruto > Het - Male/Female > Kakashi/Sakura Views: 1274 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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- 1-Before The Dawn
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A/N: A KakaSaku sonfic
to the song Before The Dawn by Evanescence. Another of my random ideas that just kinda
came about one day when I was listening to this wonderful song.

This is dedicated to my wonderful friend Trinnerti over on Fanfic.net as a thank you for the
stunningly moving piece she wrote for me Missing,
based upon the song of the same name again by Evanescence.

I was in the mood for Angst what can I say?
lol

xXx

Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you

�Sakura.� A soft voice whispered in her ear, as warm breath washed over her
neck.

She awoke from the deep void that had over
taken her, her tear filled eyes red and sore, it had been to
hard for to fall asleep last night, she had finally worn herself out and cried
herself to sleep, tears slipping down her peachy coloured skin even as she
slept. She started, she knew that voice! She knew it far to well� but it wasn�t
possible� He couldn�t be here with her, he couldn�t be
so close, so real� he was dead. He�d left her alone again and taken her heart
and soul with him even though he hadn�t ever known it and she�d be whole again.
The pitch black darkness was pushed away by a faintly glowing light and she
could see� she could see him!

She sat up her tear stained face looking so
young and so utterly broken as she turned to face him.
She tried to speak but her voice cracked into choked out sobs once more. That
shock of silver hair, the crinkle in his eye, the lips curved up into that all
knowing smirk, he was exactly as she remembered, the way she�d seen him that
one last time before he�d been sent on the mission that killed him.

I am nothing more than to see you there

�Kakashi?� She breathed, fresh tears tracking down her face as she gazed up
into the face of the man she�d loved so dear and yet dared not tell.

�Sakura. I�m sorry, I never got the chance to say
to all the things I should have said to you. I thought I�d have a chance to you
tell you one day but that was not be. I should have
told you how proud of you I was, how special you were� and how much I� loved
you.�

Her breath died in her throat as she felt
her heart skip a beat before it cracked all over again. Even if that were all
true, it couldn�t be anymore, they could never be. They belonged to two
different worlds now, hers a world of pain, darkness and despair without anyone
to light it and his a world of peace serenity and the friends and ones he�d
held to him so dear and she wrapped her arms around herself as she hugged her
own body, unable to look at him right now.

And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away

�Sakura, look at me. I�m here,
I have this one chance to tell you these things. This night is ours and no one
can take it from us.� He bent kneeled before her, his hand upon her chin as he
drew her face to his, jade green eyes that used to be so full of love and
passion now filled with the shadows of pain and regret, eyes that were dead�

�Kakashi�� she
whispered as she finally threw her arms his neck and buried her face in his
strong chest. �Why did you leave me again? Why couldn�t you stay with me? I� I
wanted to be with you. I wanted to love� Why did they take you away from me
again?�

�It was my time. I loved you so much
blossom but I never told you because��

�We could never be.� She finished raising
pain filled eyes to his onyx one and he nodded briefly.

�I was never any good for you Sakura.
People would have never accepted us, it would have been wrong to them.�

�I know.� She replied smiling sadly, as the
tears still tracked down her cheeks.

We'll be lost before the dawn

�It doesn�t mean I didn�t love you in my
own way. I loved you with everything I had but it was never in the way you
deserved. I couldn�t give you everything that you should have had.� His dark
eye remained the same as ever but, the torment was clear in his voice, he had
tried so hard to do right by her and forsaken his own feelings.

�All I would have ever needed was to know
that you cared in some way.� She told him, a delicate hand brushing the masked
skin of his cheek as she gazed at him with such love and a calm serenity now.

The inner strength he knew she had, the
thing he admired most about her. The fact that no matter what life threw at her
she fought back to claw her way to the surface, she never gave up on anyone no
matter what they did to her she offered them love and understanding. She was so
precious to him, so special but he knew he was right,
he could have never given her everything she deserved. He was to far gone, to jaded to ever truly give her the life she should have had.

�Then know that I did and I will until the
end of time.� He replied, his voice with the same sadness as hers.

If only night can hold you where I can see you, my
love

She nodded and buried her face in his neck
once more, clinging to him and holding him so close to her he could feel the
heart beating within her breast. The heart that he knew was now scarred and
broken because of him but it was for the best. She deserved someone better than
him, and she�d find him someday but Kakashi was never
meant to be that man and he�d known it since the day he�d fallen for her,

His mind drifted back to the night of her
18^th birthday as he held close, sobs shaking her small body and he
smiled. The sight of her in that black dress had been heaven and he�d sunk so
deep it felt like he was drowning in his desire and love for her. He had no
choice but to keep it to himself though and so he�d remained ever her teacher
and more importantly� her friend.

�Yo.�

She�d looked up as he entered the bar where
her party was being held and she smiled that sweet smile that had every man in
the room wishing he could be with her but she only looked at him, dashing
forward she�d flung her arms around him with a squeal of �Kakashi-sensei!�
and though he�d wanted so bad to correct her, to say �No Sakura, just Kakashi.� He knew he couldn�t because if she kept calling
him sensei somehow it was easier to deal with, the crushing weight of his heart
as it expanded in his chest to the point where he thought it would burst from
his chest but he�d merely held her for the briefest of seconds and then ruffled
her hair.

She�d pulled away with a squeak and batted
his hand away as she yelped �Sensei!� and he gave her another eye crinkle,
whilst inwardly he frowned, this was wrong, it hurt so bad, he couldn�t be with
her but he wanted to so bad�.

Then let me never ever wake again

�How long can you stay?� She asked, her voice but a mere whisper on the wind and he
sighed.

�I have this one night, one chance to show
you what you meant to me. I�ll be gone before the dawn. You�ll wake in the
morning and this will all seem like a cruel dream.� He whispered back his voice
filled with the pain he felt as his heart sank like a lead balloon.

�Then let me never wake again.� She sobbed
out and he smiled, a true smile one that lit up his eye and she traced the line
of his lips beneath the mask with one finger as she frowned.

Leaning forward she pressed her lips to his
and he sighed. This was what he�d come for, why he�d been given this one chance
to let her know how much he�d cared. Holding her close, their lips pressed
against each others, this was his dream, his reality come true and yet he knew
it couldn�t last but for just one night he could be free and he knew they would
both treasure this till the ends of time and beyond.

And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

�Will you stay with me tonight?� I can�t
bear to be alone. I need you so much.�

�Yes, I�ll be here. You need to rest
blossom.� �I need you to� He added
silently in his head.

He couldn�t say it to her it would be
wrong, no matter how much this one night meant to him, how much he�d always
needed her even though he hadn�t realized it till it was to late, there was
nothing he could do about it for in the morning he would be gone, a mere memory
locked in the heart of a teenage girl he should never have loved.

Somehow I know that we can't wake again from this
dream

�Can I have one thing before I sleep?� She
asked softly, looking up into his face, her eyes soft and pleading.

�What?� He asked pulling away to take in
every last inch of her, memorizing the sight. Something to
keep him forever.

�Can I finally see you without the mask?�
Her voice was shy now as she bit her lip, wondering how he would take that
request.

A deep chuckle rumbled from him and he
nodded. �Yes.�

She smiled through her tears and slid her
hands up, hooking her fingers under the fabric and slid it down agonisingly
slow. She gasped as she took in every last feature, the tips of her fingers
running over the pale skin. She lifted his hitae-ate
and watched as the tomoe of his left eye spun in
circles as he gazed at her.

He used his sharingan
to take in every single expanse of her beauty and a sad smile lit upon his lips
knowing that this would be the last time he�d ever see, hold her, the last time
he�d ever feel the love rushing towards him from every fibre of her being.

It�s not real, but it's ours

�I know all of this isn�t real but I never
want it to end.� She told him as she slipped her hands into the mop of silver
hair, so spiky and unruly and yet as soft as a feather as she massaged his
scalp.

He captured her lips in a desperate kiss as
his arms slipped around her waist and he lay her back
upon the sheets. Leaning over her he smiled down and she returned his smile,
eyes still shinning with tears but a real happiness upon her petal pink lips.

�It�s ours, just be glad of that.� He
replied before he swooped down to press the softest kiss upon her lips, his
tongue darting out and sweeping over the velvety skin of her mouth.

She parted her lips and allowed him
entrance and the sweet taste of cherries and vanilla flooded his taste buds and
he savoured every last inch of her hot, velvet mouth.

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away

Both pulled away, slightly out of breath
and gazed upon each other adoringly. �I don�t know how to go on with out you Kakashi,
I don�t think I can, not now.�

�You do. You have to or all of this will
have been worth it. Don�t lose yourself blossom, be the woman I know you,
strong, capable and with more love in her heart than I�ve ever known from
anyone. Do it for me Sakura and I�ll have died knowing that I lost myself to
someone who truly deserved everything I wanted to give her.�

We'll be lost before the dawn

�When the morning comes you�ll be breaking
my heart all over again.�

He brushed the tears from her cheeks and
kissed them away when more just took their place, her luminous skin shining
like the stars as the moonlight glinted off them.

�You�ll find someone else one day. He�ll
make you feel so special, that you�ll wonder what you ever saw in me. And he�ll
fulfil every need and the ache will lessen I promise.�

�I think you�re full of bullshit again Kakashi. You never could tell the truth, no one will ever
replace you.� She replied as he lay beside her, pulling her so that her head
rested against his chest, her arms around his neck as she cried herself to sleep,
lost in his warmth.

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away

He ran his hands through her shoulder
length pink locks and whispered sadly to her as a single tear slipped from his
own eye. �You will blossom. Someday you�ll forget all about me and you�ll heal
or at the very least I�ll be a fond memory of a time that you once held so dear
and now only brings a wistful smile to your face.�

He watched her sleep until the dawn rose,
clear and bright and the suns rays warmed her skin as she blinked and reached
out for him only to find an empty spot next to her still warm from his body and
she picked up the navy blue hitae-ate that rested
upon her pillow. Silent tears of no longer of pain and loss but a love
fulfilled albeit briefly and the knowledge that no matter how much it hurt and
how much it seemed like a dream last night was real and it would always be
with. The love he�d held for would somehow help her move on and she was at
peace now knowing that he was to.

We'll be lost before the dawn

As she sat above the Hokage
monument, her eyes taking in the village she held so dear and she turned her
eyes to the sky as the stars glittered in the dark sky before her and she
clutched his hitae-ate to her chest as she whispered
her final goodbye.

�I don�t care what you said Kakashi, I�ll never forget you. I couldn�t.�

High above her she watched as one single
star shone brighter than all the rest for a brief second and filled her with
warmth. �I�ll be with you one day, before the dawn
comes I will hold you again��

xXx
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