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Hurt	By : Kagenoshi Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 973 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Hurt by Kami

Disclaimer: I don't own
Naruto or the other characters from the manga. Nor the song Forgive
Me

A/N: I'm really
depressed, and so I decided to write my feelings down using the
Characters of Naruto as a medium. This is set in an AU/AR and Naruto
is 18 and Kankurou 19. The characters may seem a little OOC but I
don't care, this is an AU/AR. This is written for a friend whom I love dearly.

Pairings: One-sided
KankNaru, KankKiba

Warnings: Attempted
Suicide

Italics-thoughts

Lyrics- //Bold//

Flash back- Bold
Italics

*********************************************

Uzumaki Naruto lay
there on his bed in his run down studio apartment mulling over the
events that had previously happened a day ago. Minutes, hours, days,
how long had he been laying there crying? He felt so stupid...so
angry at himself for letting his actions hurt the one he had come to
love. A few years ago he would have never seen it coming.

Kankurou...never in a
million years would he have thought he would have fallen for his
ex-boyfriends brother. But Kankurou was already taken...so Naruto
just settled for being friends. And they had become good friends, so
close that sometimes it was like they read each other's mind. Often
they would chat on Kage Messenger and sometimes on Shinobi Live
Messenger. Naruto often enjoyed staying on until the early hours of
the morning talking to Kankurou, exchanging jokes, ideas, and talking
about life in general...sometimes they would even role play. Naruto
felt this was the closest they would ever get to being lovers...just
a game...just pretend...

The blond teen turned
on his side staring at his computer screen...He had been disappointed
that Kankurou couldn't chat the night before, Kankurou telling Naruto
that he wasn't feeling all that well. Naruto didn't know why, but he
felt abandoned and empty when the older teen had sent him this
message through Kage. And he did something that he would forever
regret...

Naruto turned on
his Kage messenger after getting home from work, his usual routine,
sitting down and waiting for Kankurou to get online. He browsed his
YaoiGalleria profile for new messages and new art that had been
posted as he waited. After 30 minutes of waiting a message box
appeared on the screen:

PuppetMaster:
Hey

BluEyedKitsune:
Hey, sexy

PuppetMaster:
LOL you need to stop...Kiba might see and come over there to kick
your ass

BluEyedKitsune:
XD yeah rite! Liek he could!

PuppetMaster:
I'm sorry Naruto, I only came on to tell you Im not gonna be able to
chat tonite

BluEyedKitsune:
What? Y? Did I do something wrong? T_T

PuppetMaster: no
no no

PuppetMaster: im
just not feeling very well tonite

PuppetMaster:
you there?

BluEyedKitsune:
yeah...I'm here

PuppetMaster:
did i upset you?

PuppetMaster:
Naruto???

BluEyedKitsune:
y don't you just come out and say it Kank

PuppetMaster:
what do you mean? say what?

BluEyedKitsune:
just tell me your sick of talking to me and just leave me alone

PuppetMaster:
Naruto...no...im not sick of talking to you

PuppetMaster:
and y would i want to leave you alone ur my best friend

BluEyedKitsune:
yeah rite...i know i take up all ur time

BluEyedKitsune:
time you'd rather be spending with Kiba

PuppetMaster:
Naruto the only reason i can't chat is because im sick

PuppetMaster:
dont be mad at me

BluEyedKitsune:
i'll just go...save you the trouble

{BluEyedKitsune
is Offline}

Oh
he could blame the mental condition he was diagnosed with, borderline
personality disorder for his actions...but they wouldn't take away
the hurtful words he said to Kankurou. After laying on his bed and
fuming, his thoughts cleared and he realized what he had done...he
hadn't many friends and he just hurt the only best friend he had. He
had called in to work that morning saying he was sick, and now, in
the evening when he should have been getting off of work, he was just
laying there across from his computer...staring at it as if willing
something to happen. Crystalline tears continued to pour from his
eyes...I'm so sorry, Kankurou...

//Can
you forgive me again?

I
don't know what I said

But
I didn't mean to hurt you//

Naruto glanced at the empty bottle of prescription sleeping pills on
his nightstand, next to the lamp. He had just taken them...all of
them...the guilt of hurting the person he loved more than anything
too much for him to bare. He was alone, he knew no help would come
in time. He let out a sigh, wiping the fresh tears from his eyes,
only the tears to replace themselves with new ones.

//I
heard the words come out

I
felt that I would die

It
hurt so much to hurt you//

The screen on his computer flashed and a message box had appeared:

PuppetMaster: Hey you there?

Naruto could barely make out the type through his tears, he stumbled
over to his computer, the pills he took finally starting to kick in
as he flopped down into his computer chair.

BluEyedKitsune: yeah imher

PuppetMaster: are u still upset with me?

PuppetMaster: Naruto??//

BluEyedKitsune: i sorry

PuppetMaster: for what?

//Then
you look at me

You're
not shouting anymore

You're
silently broken//

BluEyedKitsune: what said

PuppetMaster: huh? ur not makin any sense

BluEyedKitsune: hurt you

//I'd
give anything now

To
kill those words for you//

PuppetMaster: what? no u didn't hurt me

PuppetMaster: i understand y you got so upset

PuppetMaster: ur my best friend and id never leave u

PuppetMaster: LOL sorry but ur stuck with me

//Each
time I say something I regret I cry “I don't want to lose you”

But
somehow I know you will never leave me, yeah//

BluEyedKitsune: too late

PuppetMaster: huh? what do u mean too late?

PuppetMaster: Naruto??? are you there??

PuppetMaster: come on Naruto! say something?

BluEyedKitsune: sorrrry doxzd offf

PuppetMaster: Naruto are u alright? Hang on

PuppetMaster: im going to sign out and give u a call on ur cell

{PuppetMaster is Offline}

Naruto's
head was softly nodding, but he was jerked awake by the chorus of
“You Can't Make a Heart Love Somebody” from his cell
phone. Kankurou... He
clumsily picked up his phone and opened it while staggering to the
bed and falling onto it, “mmm?”

“Naruto?
Are you okay? You're typing was a little off and it worried me,”
Kankurou worried? That was something new.

“Am
fine...” Naruto spoke groggily into the receiver.

“You
don't sound fine. Are you drunk?” Kankurou's deep voice
sounded gruff and annoyed.

“No...sleeping
pills...” Naruto managed to get out.

“S-sleeping
pills???” He heard the older teen stutter, then clear his
throat, “When the hell have you ever needed sleeping pills?”

“Tonight...”
The blond teenager groaned out, “Never...hurt you...again...”

“Naruto!”
Kankurou growled out, sounding a bit frustrated with the blond's
antics, “I told you, you didn't hurt me...Now, snap the hell
out of it!”

The younger teen opened his mouth slightly, in a daze to speak, the
reason of his course of action only made a sob escape from his
throat.

“Naruto?”
He sounds worried...I didn't mean to make him worry...I
hurt him again...

“Sssorry...”
Naruto groggily sobbed out, his eyelids becoming heavier, as he
fought to stay awake a little bit longer, if only to say goodbye to
an unrequited love, “I...l-love you...Kank...”

“Naruto...tell
me you didn't do something stupid...” Kankurou's deep voice
went up a pitch higher, sounding if he was fighting the urge to cry.

“I'm...sorry...”
Naruto no longer able to fight the deathly sleep that threatened him,
succumbed to the peaceful oblivion, letting the phone fall from his
hand to the mattress he was lying on.

“Naruto???
Naruto!! Shit!!” On the other end, Kankurou's voice was
panicked. Please, Kami, let him be alright...
“Naruto, you sit tight. Kiba's calling the emergency help
service, and I'm on my way over...You better be okay when I get
there!”

//Cause
you were meant for me

Somehow
I'll make you see

How
happy you make me//

It was only ten minutes and the older teen, who had finally arrived,
was pounding on Naruto's apartment door, “Naruto! Open up!
It's Kank!” When there was no answer, Kankurou, knowing where
Naruto kept a spare key, let himself into the apartment. The
brunette glanced over at the bed that was merely feet away to see
Naruto sprawled face down on the bed.

“Fuck!”
Kankurou was at Naruto's side in a moment, checking his best friend
for a pulse, his hands shaking, his eyes brimming with unshed tears,
seeing an empty bottle on the nightstand, “Christ, Naruto...you
took them all??? Don't you fucking leave me!!” the brunette
teen, rolled the blond onto his back and began to try to rouse his
dying friend, tears already beginning to fall from his dark brown
eyes, “Don't leave me...I need you...”

//I
can't live this life

Without
you by my side

I
need you to survive//

“Fuck,
Kiba!! Where is that ambulance??” The older teen looked around
the room, feeling totally helpless and lost, sobs kept erupting from
his throat, his worst fear coming true...Please...Please
don't leave me alone...you're the only real friend I have, Naruto...

Kankurou sat down on the bed pulling his blond friend into his arms,
every now and again, wiping away his tears, praying that the
ambulance would hurry...He looked down at Naruto, pushing blond
tresses out of the younger teens face, leaning forward to kiss him on
the forehead. Once he pulled back, he saw that hooded groggy blue
eyes opened looking at him, pain and anguish emitting from the azure
orbs.

//So
stay with me

You
look into my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry//

“Stay
with me, Naruto,” Kankurou held the younger teen close, rubbing
his large hands along lithe tanned arms to keep them warmed, “I
need you here with me...so stay...”

A tanned hand gripped the large pale hand, as the younger teen's
hooded eyes blinked slightly, letting crystalline tears fall,
“Kank...I'm...sorry...”

The older teen kissed the tanned forehead, letting out a sigh of
relief when he heard sirens outside the apartment, “Don't be
sorry...I'm not gonna leave you...ever...”

//And
you forgive me again

You're
my one true friend

And
I didn't mean to hurt you//

Owari
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