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Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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Author's Note: Ok, I wrote this LATE last night and I don't have a BETA so please excuse any and all mistakes. Also, I'm normally not a fan of Sasuke being Seme, but for this fic to work out the way I wanted it to, the pairing had to be: SasuNaru.

There may be some OOC'ness in here as well. Sorry.

Summary: How far can the human soul fall? And what lengths have to be gone to in order to save it? A dark one-shot involving Sasuke and Naruto. SasuNaru.

Extra Disclaimer: This story was somewhat inspired by some pictures from a Doujinshi that I looked at a while back. I make no money from writing this.

Warning! This is a Dark/tragedy that contains angst, suicidal themes, profanity, yaoi and comes complete with a lemon! If any of these themes disturb you, then PLEASE do not read this story! Also, please be kind this is my first Male/Male lemon's so yeah. ^^

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Personal thoughts - refers to Sasuke only
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I don't know why I'm doing this; why I feel so alone inside...Especially since you're so close to me.

Why can't I feel you? Why can't I taste your warmth?

Flutter

Written By: Crimson2006

"Sasuke, Sasuke?" Naruto called, wandering down the long hallway of the apartment they shared. It had been two years since both of them had made ANBU and approximately eighteen months since they'd moved in together. Their home was a quiet place in the heart of Konoha, a two bedroom apartment that was roomy enough for three people and had a nice view of the Hokage monument. The walk to work was short and sweet and between the two of them, the rent amounted to a little more then chump-change. Despite the fact that both boy's secretly harbored feelings for one another, the main reason they'd become roommates was so that neither of them had to feel alone. Naruto's place was always so empty and the Uchiha district was even worse. There forth, both teens had agreed that nothing good would come of living in solitude and figured that having each other was better then having no one at all.

"Sasuke, I'm home! Where are you?" Padding out into the living room Naruto's blue eyes shimmered happily in the pale lighting.

Sasuke was perched in his usual spot along the window ceil, a half burnt cigarette hanging loosely from between his fingers. His head was cocked slightly against the frame as he looked out longingly at the sunset. "Welcome home Usuratonkachi..." the soft voice barely audible even in the silence of the room. Strangely Sasuke's did not turn around to face Naruto; but rather continued to look out at the window's scenic view. The blonde frowned slightly at the odd behavior, but brushed it aside as being nothing more then one of the Uchiha's mannerisms.

"I'm hungry. Did you eat yet teme?"

"No."

"Ok then. I'm gonna go change and I'll cook dinner I guess."

Sasuke didn't answer, but Naruto wasn't really expecting him to. Quite often the older boy would just sit there in the corner, smoking and staring out into the open skies. Naruto didn't have to be a genius to figure out that his best friend was thinking about Itachi and the constant hindrance of his revenge towards the said sibling, so the blonde would typically let the Uchiha brood peacefully.

I hated how we had become so close and yet we were still so far away. Divided by your revenge; that impenetrable hate that corrupted so much of your life and desecrated the image of what could have been "our" happiness.

Shaking his head, Naruto swiftly moved towards his bedroom; pulling off his gear and taking a quick shower before throwing on a pair of Sasuke's sweat pants and an orange, wrinkled tee shirt. Mentally, he made a note to do the wash seeing as he'd resorted the wearing the Uchiha's clothes. Not that either of them minded; they often shared such things. Once, Naruto had even caught Sasuke wearing a pair of his orange cargo pants. The heir had immediately gone into defense mode and claimed that the only reason he had them on was because there was NOTHING else to wear and that he was suffering from a temporary loss of sanity due to excessive ramen consumption. After which he'd ranted about how they needed to buy some REAL food. Naruto had thought it was a cute bluff, but he wasn't stupid enough to vocalize that information should Sasuke feel the need to get bitchy about it. And there was no doubt in the blonde's mind that such a thing would have transpired, with him being tossed headfirst out the window. Seeing as they were five stories up, pissing off the Uchiha was never a good idea.

After wandering back into the living room --pasting a still sulking Sasuke-- Naruto made his way into the kitchen and began preparing dinner. Now normally Naruto would have cooked ramen. But since he and Sasuke had both returned home from their own respectable missions, the blonde figured he'd whip up something special. It wasn't often that they were both home at the exact same time, or if they were it wasn't for more then a few hours. Naruto knew that it was best to enjoy what little time they had together and yet he felt like a hypocrite in so may ways. Secretly, he wondered if he should just tell Sasuke how he really felt, but maybe that factor would only lead to more problems.

I was afraid of rejection. That you wouldn't be able to love me, because all you knew was how to hate.

The blonde scrambled around the kitchen heedlessly; mixing the stir-fry, setting the table and struggling to open up an old bottle of Sake. He was trying to keep busy, desperate to fill that empty void that had settled upon their two bedroom apartment. He hated the lingering silence that was shared between them, because in so many ways it was just like being alone. And Naruto knew that he shouldn't feel that way, especially since he had Sasuke there with him.

After a good hour the food was ready. Finally satisfied by the table and its contents, Naruto smiled to himself, pleased that he could make everything look nice.

Always for you and only for you, because you've always deserved to have the very best...

"Come and get it!" Naruto called, tossing his apron off to the side. Iruka sensei had given him the cooking accessory for Christmas a few years back as an inside joke, but Naruto had taken the gift rather seriously and was hardly ever caught in the kitchen without it. The said garment was a solid black color, with a picture of a big bowl of ramen labeled on the front. Naruto loved to wear it and Sasuke liked to tease him about it. Giving a sigh, the blonde turned around and faced the table... "Sasuke?" Blue eyes widened first with shock and then fear. The raven haired man --his best friend and secret love-- stood in the doorway, his face stoic like always, but a square patch of gauze covered his right eye.

"Sasuke! What happened?"

"It's nothing dobe."

Naruto now understood why Sasuke hadn't looked at him when he'd first come home; why he'd just kept on staring out that window as if it was secretly his salvation. "You over used the Sharingan?" It wasn't really a question, but more like a disappointed statement. "How bad is it?"

One dark eye lingered on the blonde, trying so hard to see something more then a blur. He couldn't though, and when he moved forward the room swayed even further. Sasuke struggled desperately not to let such things show. "I don't want to talk about it. Let's just eat, ne?" Sasuke's lips curled upward slightly and he reached out to reassure his friend...

But that pale hand only touched the cold expanse of air, his fingers missing Naruto by a mile --even though Sasuke was sure he knew where the boy was standing.

"You can't even see me!"

"It'll get better Usuratonkachi, that's what the medicine is for."

I wondered about your words; mused over there significance on levels much deeper then you could ever comprehend. How many more times would you do this to yourself? Were you really trying to get stronger? Or was letting your body waste away the easy way out?

Night quickly fell upon them. The warm reds and oranges that painted the sky twisting away into the eternal darkness, making the tiny room look dim, tainting the white walls with forlorn shadows of dread and despair.

Dinner pasted by silently and soon Sasuke excused himself, leaving Naruto to clean-up the mess. "I'm going to bed now."

"You didn't eat much."

"I wasn't really hungry."

I remembered a time when you wolfed down my cooking, now days you don't eat more then a few bites.

"I'm worried about you teme."

"Don't waste your energy on me dobe... I can take care of myself." A thick silence seemed to hang on afterwards; leaving unspoken words that could never be heard.

I need you Naruto...don't give up on me.

Dishes rattled, water ran, and Naruto went through the mechanical actions that he did every time he cooked and was left to clean up. Sasuke never bothered to stay to help, never stuck around to make small talk or dry the wet plates. Naruto didn't mind though, he was use to being alone; use to the pain and suffering that had confiscated so many years of his life. But tonight that weight felt different; persistent if not overly vivid in his mind. The confliction stirred restlessly and suddenly he no longer wanted to tolerate the burden. He wanted to pull his mask off and let Sasuke see the truth.

I wanted to show you the real Uzumaki Naruto. I wanted to show you that I loved you. I could only pray that you would return the sentiment.

Twisting the knob on the kitchen sink the water slowed until all but the sound of a single ---splat-- could be heard in a timed rhythm. In many ways it reminded the blonde of a clock; each drop of water a remnant of something no longer tangible. Naruto realized that there was indeed a symbolic connection between him and that drop of water, and that implication caused his brow to furrow. He had let so many things slip away in the past; he tried so hard to make people believe that he was something he wasn't. He feigned his happiness with the hopes that things would get better. But they never did. And just like each drop of water, that moment---his life, became obsolete.

Naruto quickly made a note to get the faucet looked at and taped it to the refrigerator door before sauntered off towards Sasuke's room. He would be honest with himself, he was afraid. It was so much easier to fool other people, but in that same aspect it was a double-edged theory; the stronger his front, the deeper his pain. And yet below that image, beneath his own suffering he knew that Sasuke had to be hurting a lot more then him. Sasuke's masks were not as visibly strong as Naruto's, but what they lacked in appearance they compensated for in self-persecution. And wasn't that worse? Naruto simply fooled other people, whereas Sasuke habitually tried to fool himself.

Stopping in front of the rice paper screen that divided Sasuke's room from the hall, Naruto's hands lurched out and grabbed the sliding door, opening it without warning.

You were always falling and I just wanted you to know, I was always there waiting to catch you. I wanted to save you. To take you away from the darkness of your childhood years; to free you from the revenge that clouded your mind. I wanted to diminish the mistrust that caused you to active the Sharingan on almost every mission, rather then trust in the ability of your own comrades.

Was it so wrong? That I wanted to save you...
"Dobe, what the hell," Sasuke frowned, his head lifting slightly off the bed. He was stretched out on the futon; his body draped in a black tee shirt and matching shorts that clung to his form like a second skin. "Haven't you ever heard of knocking?"

Naruto shook his head and ignored the trepidation that was racking his mind. Carefully his feet moved forward, the floorboards creaking with every step as if protesting his advance.

Perhaps it was a premonition...

"S-Sasuke?"

"Go away, I'm tired."

But it was one that I wasn't willing to hear...

Blue eyes shimmered with tears and with lighting fast reflexes the blonde had flipped Sasuke on his back; pinning the Uchiha's arms above his head while thin legs straddled his waist. "I love you Sasuke" With no hesitation, the blonde's lips crushed down onto his best friends. Three seconds later, the other boy pushed him away.

"Get off of me, what's wrong with you!" Sasuke's words were cold and calculated, not expressing his inner turmoil. Oh god Naruto, please don't let this be a joke... Kiss me again. I need you. I need you so bad I might die without you.

It was a warning that you refused to hear as well...

"I love you Sasuke, I won't watch you wither away into nothing." The blonde once again moved closer to the Uchiha, this time Sasuke did not push him away.

The elder boy watched with his single eye, desperate to see the blonde's face, his reaction. Part of him expected the act to be a joke; that maybe Naruto was trying to make him feel better, not really understanding how much his words hurt. "Don't say things you don't mean Usuratonkachi."

Naruto's face drew closer, his breath upon the other; a sweet hint of peppermint and Miso mingled in with a splash of what they'd just eaten. "I love you," he repeated in a softly whisper, ghosting a trail of warm air over the Uchiha's cold skin. "I love you, I love you, I love you..." The blonde titled his head slowly, even with Sasuke's temporarily vision problems Naruto knew that the elder could see what he was about to do. Much to his satisfaction Sasuke did not push away when their lips met again and a feeling of fire stirred deeply within Naruto. It wasn't lust, Kyuubi or any other insignificant cause or affect that drew fourth such an exulting emotion. Instead it was a sensation of being accepted, of both giving and receiving that tender sentiment of love.

Because I loved you with all my heart and soul...I rekindled my promise to keep you safe always.

Naruto let tongue graze the elder's lips, demanding entrance to which he was freely given. At first the ministrations were slow, Naruto's tongue swiping the inside of Sasuke's mouth with a few deep heated strokes. One hand drifting up as fingers weaved there way through a tress of black hair, pulling their bodies into each other, adding to the depth of their first French kiss. Sasuke's flavor was simply divine, a hint of mint swimming through something that vaguely tasted like chocolate. Naruto deemed that he enjoyed the exotic tang and allowed his body to relax slightly, slowly easing into the elder's lap, straddling the other's waist without hesitation.

Sasuke who was in near heaven; drinking the affection like a fine wine, basking under the tender touch of his crush and enjoying the essence that was all Naruto, dared to return the favor, his own tongue darting into the blonde's mouth. From there, the softness of the kiss seemed to melt away in mere seconds; no longer chaste but hungry with their need for one another. Sasuke's hands ---which had remained stilled at his side--- now ventured up, slipping under the dingy orange shirt, and over Naruto's tanned flesh. In response Naruto grinded his hips downward and both boy's broke the kiss with a moan; their semi-hard erections growing stiffer.

"Sasuke..." Naruto panted; his blue eyes slightly hazy with desire, the bright color now toned down to a shade that resembled the deepest parts of the ocean. Equally was the want in the other boy's eye, the black swirling with something that Naruto hadn't seen in the Uchiha for so long, that he almost forgot that the other could express it----happiness. A pure form; not a simple flicker that died before it could fully awaken, but the full onslaught of that delicate emotion blooming and thriving to overrun the normal sadness that usually coveted the boy orbs.

Naruto knew then and there, that Sasuke was capable of returning his love.

Leaning down the blonde drew the Uchiha into another deep, passionate kiss; first sucking on the boy's lower lip before dipping his tongue into that sweet, inviting mouth once again. This time Sasuke easily dominated the kiss, his fleshy organ mapping out Naruto's mouth, memorizing every inch as to never forget it. Hands that had been gently kneading the blonde's side, rolled up lazily, drawing circles on Naruto's back before slipping around the muscular frame and claiming the boy's perky nipples.

Locked between forefinger and thumb, Sasuke softly twisted the stubs, earning several soft mewls that encouraged him to be rougher. Pinching again, this time Naruto arched his back, his breath ridged as their lips broke once again, deprived of air.

Wanting to explore the rest of Naruto's body, Sasuke pulled off the offensive orange shirt and attached his lips to those sensitive nipples, hands now settling on the blonde's sexy hips, molding to the grove where the torso and legs joined. Thumbs dug deeply into the black sweat pants while the tips of Sasuke's fingers dipped slightly beneath the waistband, sharp nails pressing into the younger boy's back. Naruto moaned again, his hips rocking downward at the sensation as Sasuke's hips followed that rhythm, working upward to grind their erections together.

Naruto tugged on the tail of Sasuke's black shirt, silently requesting that the other shed the garment, while the other appendage fisted a crop of the raven's hair.

Ignoring his soon-to-be-lover's plea, Sasuke continued to roll Naruto's nipple between his teeth before biting down harshly and sucking the pain away. His tongue swirled and then lapped at the stub, eliciting more moans from the blonde, causing his body to tremble in pleasure. After he had deemed that the first nipple had been thoroughly molested, the Uchiha moved to give the same attention to the negated counterpart.

"S-Sasuke..." Naruto moaned. His voice completely broken as it threaded through the air in a heavy pant. The friction from their grinding had picked up considerately, but Sasuke's firm hands kept it from becoming too erratic. "D-damn it Sasuke... s-stop teasing me," it was tortuous and thrilling at the same time. His body felt like it was on fire, but the burn was unbelievably satisfying.

Sasuke, who's mouth had now abandoned the nipple in favor for Naruto's soft lips; snaked his arms fully around the other, bringing their bodies as close as possible. "Naruto..." Titling away the elder swollen lips trailed over the boy's neck before sucking slightly on the pulse, sending Naruto into another wave of moans and spasms.

"S-Sasuke... m-more... Please!" A particularly hard grind accompanied the sensation of Sasuke's teeth sinking into Naruto's flesh and the blonde bit his lower lip. "Nn..." The pain felt so good, but Naruto wanted more then kisses and bites, he wanted his long time crush to thrust inside of him, to bond them forever in the most intimate of ways. "Sasuke...fuck me."

The words caused a trail of pleasure to crawl down the other's spine making the heat already prominent in his belly, pool further. Pulling back Sasuke's dark eye looked back into the clouded blue. "Are you sure?" he rasped, knowing that if they did go any further he wouldn't be able to stop himself. For so long he had wanted the blonde, even before they had moved in together, even before Naruto had saved him from Orochimaru; his desire to make Naruto his had lingered.

Naruto smiled one of foxy smiles, quite confident that he knew what the Uchiha was thinking. "I was sure the moment that I kissed you," he replied, his voice dripping with desire.

The husky notes made the raven-haired teen shiver in delight.

Wasting no time, he pushed the blonde onto the futon, removing his own shirt before Naruto's back had a chance to hit the bed. Just as swiftly, pale hands clasped the rim of Naruto's sweatpants, pulling them down and discarding the article with a random flick of the wrist. Before Naruto could even muster his embarrassment, Sasuke had taken the blonde's member into his mouth, the thick erection that was leaking pre-cum, completely devoured by the other boy's foreign heat.

"Fuck!" he hissed, arching back as Sasuke sucked eagerly, the elder's tongue running up the underside, making sure to rub against a particularly sensitive vein. Naruto seemed to melt into a spineless heap of putty as incoherent ramblings left his lips. He had never felt such a pleasure. The feeling of his hand did not compare to the hot, slick sensation of a mouth, and the way that Sasuke was sucking him off, Naruto knew he wasn't going to last much longer.

Feeling the tanned body tense in reflex, Sasuke's hands gripped Naruto's hip with bruising force. Knowing that his fox was on the brink of an orgasm; he deep throated Naruto, humming slightly so that the vibrations were jolted through the erect member.

For Naruto it was the final straw and he came fast and hard, his whole body twitching in the mind-blowing ecstasy of his first partner-induced orgasm. The name of his lover piercing the air sharply as it passed through gritted teeth.

Sasuke smirked around Naruto's rod, eagerly swallowed the load before releasing the flaccid member with a plop. The tanned god before him looked completely spent; lost in some enlightening level that surpassed even those of the gods. "Dobe," the elder's voice expelling from his cum slicked vocals, before leaning down to mesh his lips against his lovers, drawing out a deep brutal kiss. Naruto could taste himself as Sasuke's tongue molested his mouth, and he found himself easily becoming aroused once again.

"Are you ready for the real thing?" Sasuke smirked when their lungs deemed it was time to intake more air. By now the elder's erection was painfully hard, the tip leaking with a thick drop of creamy, pre-cum, staining his still clothed arousal. Naruto flashed him as smile and pulled him in for another kiss, the blonde's hands slowly working the button and zipper to Sasuke's shorts.. Slipping the said garment off along with a pair of silk boxers, Sasuke pulled away and started to get off the bed.

Suddenly, Naruto's hands were wrapped tightly around his thighs and he looked to the blonde with confusion.

"Where are you going?"

Sasuke sighed, "I need something to prep you with dobe."

Much to the elder's amusement Naruto shook his head in the negative. "I have Kyuubi, don't worry about it."

A shiver of delight assaulted Sasuke's body and he quickly returned to his position between Naruto's legs. Knowing that penetrating his lover dry was ruthless, Sasuke spit on his hand, rubbing it against his hardened cock, mixing it with the pre-cum that had gathered there. Positioning himself at his lovers puckered entrance; he looked directly into Naruto's eyes, pushing his way past that clamped ring of muscle inch by inch.

"Fuck Naruto..."he hissed, the blonde's inner walls wrapping around him in a vise like grip. Never in his life had he felt something so intense, not even a life and death battle during his missions could give his this sort of satisfaction or thrill.

Naruto on the other hand, tensed slightly at the painful intrusion. He had expected to hurt, but not so much. It felt as if Sasuke had just torn him in two and he bit down hard on his lower lip, waiting for Kyuubi's chakra to kick in a nurse the sting away.

"Regret it?" Sasuke breathlessly asked, trying his best to wait for Naruto to adjust.

"Hell no," Naruto replied, his voice husky as he wrapped his legs around Sasuke, pulling the other boy deeper into him. "Move."

Sasuke didn't need to be told twice as he withdrew himself to the tip, before sliding back in. At first the motions were delicate, but a very agitated Naruto quickly informed Sasuke that he wasn't going to break ---his hips meeting the elder's in violent thrusts, challenging Sasuke pick up the pace. It was a proposition that the Uchiha happily accepted. In a matter of minutes both boys were panting heavily, the sheets soaking up their sweat as Sasuke pounded Naruto into the mattress. Switching the position of Naruto's legs, the elder hooked them over his shoulders and nearly bent Naruto in two; penetrating the boy as deeply as humanly possible.

Naruto grunted and moaned every time Sasuke pit his prostate; electing jolts of pleasure to course though his body. Every nerve was sensitized, every motion exulting waves of endless passion. Sasuke leaned down even further to press his lips against Naruto's in a quick kiss, the blonde's hardened member pressed between their to bodies, bring the younger boy to the edge of his second orgasm.

"You're so damn good..."Naruto moaned, his prostate prodded by the deepest thrust yet. The sensation was too overwhelming and he came just as hard as he had before. His back arching off the bed as Sasuke name slipped through his blistered lips. Feeling Naruto's walls clamp down on him like a snake squeezing its prey, the Uchiha heir followed suit, filling his lover with his seed.

Exhausted, Sasuke's weight fell onto Naruto's sweat stricken skin. For several minutes the only sound that could be heard was the heavy pants of the two lovers. Reluctantly, Sasuke forced his body to move, his flaccid member pulling out of Naruto, before rolling off to the side.

Blue eyes watched the dark haired man carefully before taking his lovers hand and interlocking their fingers. "I love you Sasuke." Naruto desperately needed to hear that confession returned.

Sasuke head slid to look at his precious person, taking in the disheveled form while mentally noting that he probably looked just as spent. His pale fingers gave Naruto's hand a squeeze."I know Dobe," he softly replied before closing his eye and drifting off to sleep.

If I knew of all the changes my actions would provoke, then I would have weighted my decisions differently. I wouldn't have been so honest. But then again, my honest let me see the truth. You wouldn't let yourself be happy... not until Itachi was dead. Even though I should have known better, it stung; your hateful need for revenge was so potent that placed us right next to each other and yet you kept me out of arms reach.

Three months later

Tsunade frowned as she flipped through Sasuke's medical chart, her head shaking back and fourth with confusion. "Your eye sight hasn't improved at all." She couldn't understand it. Sasuke had overused his Sharingan before and the medications had always rectified the damage. Of course, this time it was a little more detrimental. His right eye was severally damaged and the left wasn't much better. Still, she knew that with proper care, the iris would correct itself.

"Have you been taking your medicine?"

Sasuke frowned, agitated by her stupidity. "Yes, Naruto he..." his voice wavering, recalling how Naruto would place the little pill between his teeth and then use his tongue to push it into Sasuke's mouth via a deep, passionate kiss.

"Naruto what?"

Shaking the memory away, the stoic boy finished his reply. "He makes sure that I take my medicine three times a day, right before we eat. He's adamant about it..."

The Hokage nodded, knowing how deeply Naruto cared for his loved ones. Carrying on, Tsunade sadly mumbled something about prescribing a heavier dose, but gave mention that his eyes sight was probably permanently damaged by now.

Sasuke, however, wasn't listening. His mind still wrapped in a thick blanket of shock brought on by his previous words. Inside he was deeply troubled, though no signs of it carried over to his face. Dobe, please tell me you didn't.

Without waiting for the rest of his check-up, Sasuke ran out the door desperate to get home. His poor eyesight be damned. Rushing past Sakura who was waiting out in the hall, he gave no explanation to his heedless departure, but rather increased his tempo.

Through the streets he ran, his heart burning with a strong sense of forlorn as he prayed that what he'd just been thinking was wrong. That Naruto wouldn't possibility do--that--to him.

Rushing through the front door, his burry vision was splotched with black rings. But he struggled down the hallway, accidentally knocking a picture of him and Naruto off the wall. The frame hit the floor with a hard smack, the sound of glass cracking as the surface broke. The knot in the elder's stomach twisted deeper and he called out for the blonde. "Uzumaki!" Gaining no answer he stumbled into the living room, banging his knee of the coffee table that he'd misjudged was there, his one eye catching a thread of blonde hair near the open window.

Naruto sat there, much like Sasuke had on that fateful day, his body leaning against the frame, head titled back and a cigarette placed neatly between his fingers. The window was swung open so that a light breeze entered the otherwise stuffy apartment, making Naruto's locks dance softly with every putter. Sasuke moved closer to the godly slight, his body shaking heavily, his voice coming out just as weary. "Tell me why you did it!" He snapped, the anger outweighing the pain in his heart.

The blonde didn't turn to look at the other boy, but simply took a long drag off the cigarette. "Why what?" he finally answered.

"Don't play dumb with me! Why did you do it! Tell me goddamn it!"

Blue eyes turned to look at his lover, the essence of tears lingering along the rims.

I've always been a monster; my loneliness was meant to be everlasting. But then you gave me taste of something more. But a taste was all you were planning to give me, wasn't it?

"Oh..." he replied; Naruto's voice almost lost if not for the streak of cattiness to it. "You mean why did I throw out all your medication and give you sugar pills instead?"

Sasuke felt his world tip. It had been one thing to speculate, but Naruto's words were a clear confirmation. The raven-haired man felt tears sting his visible eye, inside him a violent storm churning uncontrollably. "How could you do that Naruto! How could you betray me like that! I'm probably going to be permanently blind. How am supposed to kill Itachi now!"

Your words were so hateful that day, so cold and unforgiving. But I was only trying to save you...save you the only way I knew how.

"Please don't be mad Sasuke. I love..."

"DON'T YOU DARE! DON'T YOU DARE SAY THOSE WORDS TO ME EVER AGAIN!"

I'll never forget that look of hatred in your eyes. I wondered in that moment if you hated me as much as you hated HIM. The man that you'd lived everyday of your life for. Itachi was your torment and your happiness wrapped into one. He was the only reason that you were still alive and eventually ---whether you fought him to the death or your heart just got too tired of trying--- he'd be the reason that you'd die...

Somewhere in that equation I realized that I didn't fit in. And I was ok with that; but then who would save you? I couldn't help but wonder... maybe there was another way.

Naruto tossed the cigarette out the open window, his eyes looking down with shame. "I was tired of you watching you kill yourself. Don't deny it Sasuke, in a couple more years ---assuming you'd last that long--- you'd be slitting your own wrists with the last of your sanity. Itachi's too strong, and yet you hold on to your revenge like it's your salvation." There was a pause, a chuckle of irony following suit." You know for a genius you're awfully dumb sometimes, but I guess I'm a dobe all the same. You'll never live here with me in the present will you Sasuke; not when Itachi is haunting your past."

You didn't answer with words, but for once you let your tears flow freely. For me it was enough... I knew then what I needed to do.

"I only wanted to save you teme."

Tear stained cheeks watched the other with silence. Knowing the truth, but still not wanting to admit it because of pride. I understand why you did it dobe... I don't hate you, but I don't know that I can give you the love that you deserve.

Naruto stood up, his feet sinking into the bench that was built into the wall. Slowly he turned around; his finger's coiling around the top of the window frame as his eyes looked out longingly into the distant blue skies. "I'm sorry Sasuke..."

"Don't be dobe."

You stood there and understood me for once---I was genuinely surprised.

Sasuke gingerly wiped his eye with the back of his hand, moving closer to Naruto, his hand stretched out for the other to take. "Come on. I still have to finish my appointment with Tsunade. I want you there with me Naruto. I'm not sure that I can just brush my revenge aside, but I'm willing to try... if only for you."

Why did you have to sound so sincere? I wasn't worthy of you... yet you wanted me to believe that I was. I was really touched, but I knew that I couldn't save you by a few simple words. And I refused to let you trick me into thinking that I could.

"I love you Sasuke."

"I know Naruto... I... I care about you too."

I had waited so long just to hear those words, to know for sure that you really did care. It made my choice so much easier.

Naruto turned around and smiled one of his best smiles ever. One so big and bright that even Sasuke's failing eyes could see it. "You forgive me then teme?"

"Of course, dobe. It'll be just that more humiliating when I kill my brother, blind."

You made it sound like a joke but I knew better then to believe that. In that moment I wanted to cry. But I didn't. There were no regrets by now.

Turning back to look out the window, Naruto let a single tear roll down his cheek. "I'm glad." And then without a second of hesitation, the blonde let his body slip through the open window; falling the five stories to the concrete flooring below.

Sasuke just stood there for a moment, his mind not really registering what Naruto had done. Then trembling legs finally let gravity take over and the elder fell to his knees, his last thread of sanity wavering dangerously near the edge.

Naruto had just killed himself.

NO!

I couldn't save you while I was living, but maybe my death would give you strength.

Six Months Later

"Sasuke."

"Go away."

"Sasuke, please just listen to me."

"I said go away damn it!" The raven haired teen did not remove his eyes from the blonde as he spoke, but continued to slowly rake his fingers through the boy's soft hair. The hospital room was dark, save for a lamp that was wedged in the corner, the dark shadows twisting around the two figures. Both boys were broken in so many ways, both of them needing the other to be saved.

"Sasuke please, this isn't healthy." The pink haired girl in the doorway persisted. "It's been six months, he's not going to wake up...."

"Shut the fuck up; you don't know that!" The pale hand tending to the boy's hair unconsciously hastened its pace. "Naruto's a fighter... he has Kyuubi..."

Sakura shook her head, not willing to recall how many times she'd had this conversation with the Uchiha. "If Kyuubi was going to heal Naruto, he would have done so by now. Keeping him..." The kunoichi paused, trying to gather the right words together. "Keeping him hooked up to all these machines is wrong Sasuke! You have to think about what Naruto would have wanted."

The raven-haired teen turned to face his former teammate, his left eyes spinning wildly with the Sharingan. His right eye had been too far damaged to regain his sight, but the other iris had healed quite nicely and he nearly had twenty/twenty vision with it. "Naruto wanted me to be happy! And I won't be happy until he wakes up!" Turning back to his beloved, he stroked his fingers through those golden locks once more.

"I don't care about Itachi anymore dobe, you can wake up now. I promise it'll be just the two of us. I even quit my job as an ANBU, so no more mission's ne. I can stay home and take care of you. And...and you can eat all the ramen you want, even for breakfast and I promise not to scold you. And I don't care if you track mud in the house or if you leave your dirty clothes all over the floor...I don't care stay up late watching scary movies and then wake me up in the middle of the night because you've had a bad dream..."

Sasuke voice wavered terribly and Sakura walked out of the room. Standing outside she could still her friend carrying on, and worried even more for his health. Sasuke didn't eat, he hardly slept, and he never left Naruto's room. He'd closed himself off from the world, quit his job and sold all the Uchiha property to buy the apartment that he and Naruto had shared. He chained smoked constantly, and on more then one occasion she'd caught him with the window wide open, his body sitting on the ledge mumbling incoherent nonsense. Even now he was babbling on about pointless things. Sakura could feel tears sting her eyes at his words.

"I don't care if you hog the bathroom and use all the hair gel. Or if you always forget to take out the trash and start the dishwasher without adding the soap. I'll even forgive you for using my toothbrush to clean the toilet, even though you didn't tell me about it until after I brushed my teeth..." The raven-haired teen was standing up now, his arms wrapped around Naruto's shoulder's shaking the unconscious boy. "Please Naruto, I need you! Wake up dobe...wake up so that I can see those beautiful blue eyes of yours. Wake up so that I can kiss you and have that kissed returned. Wake up so that I can show you how much you mean to me...Naruto...Naruto... please...wake up!"

From out in the hallway Sakura's body trembled, she had heard Sasuke apologize for just about everything imaginable since Naruto had been hospitalized. She'd heard his words of endearment, and those of sorrow. She'd heard him promise to forget about Itachi, to give up his dream of revenge...She'd even heard Sasuke tell Naruto that he loved him; words that she never thought were capable of coming from the cold hearted man. Yet despite all this ---all his words and honestly--- Naruto didn't wake up. He didn't move, or speak... hell; he couldn't even breathe on his own. It was true that Kyuubi healed all the external injuries, but the blonde's mind and perhaps his psyche were damaged beyond repair. Sakura had a good mind to think that Naruto would never wake up, just as she had the feeling that Sasuke wouldn't let them pull the plug.

The raven haired teen was sobbing now. He knew that Sakura was worried about him, Kakashi-sensei and Tsunade as well, but he just didn't care. He wasn't going to let them take Naruto away from him, even he had to spend a lifetime waiting in that room, he'd do so.

Placing his head on the tanned boy's chest Sasuke closed his eyes and listened to Naruto's heart.

"I won't ever give up. I love you."

Naruto's heartbeat fluttered softly and Sasuke looked up.

Dobe...

000~FIN

Author's Note: OK, so I pretty much suck at writing one-shots, please forgive me. Plus, I'm not sure if I liked how this one turned out. I feel 50/50 on it. Oh, and for the sake of typing this out, I do know that normally one stretches and lubes the Uke before fully penetrating, but since Naruto has Kyuubi, I wanted to do something slightly different.

Anyway, if you guys have an opinion to express, please feel free to. Reviews are always appreciated and loved. Thank you for reading and/or reviewing. I am going to bed now lol! (Passes out)
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