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The Blessed Realm	By : susanna Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male > Naruto/Sasuke Views: 1746 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 3
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Chapter Eighty-Eight: Trust
“Sexual mores may be a bit relaxed here”, Sasuke said, “but at least people don't get pregnant here in order to be allowed to get married.”
Naruto looked at him, waiting for some explanation. He had received two letters, one from Sakura, one from Hinata, but even together they had been much shorter than Sakura's letter to Sasuke.
“And they don't get pregnant in order to chicken out from their duties”, Sasuke continued.
“Which duties?” Naruto asked. “Who is chickening out?”
“Hinata. She got pregnant in order to be relieved from her duties as a shinobi.”
“She's pregnant? She writes about getting married, but not about being pregnant.”
“She is: read yourself!”
They exchanged letters, and Sasuke read what Sakura and Hinata had written to Naruto.

Dear Naruto!

Thanks for the copies of the Gutsy Ninja! Kakashi read it in a single session. He said it was a pageturner but I think he just turned the pages until he arrived at the love scene. He told me explicitly however to tell you that he liked your introduction.

I lend my copy to everyone who might enjoy it. People here long for something that does not sound like Danzou's speeches about the need for constant vigilance against the enemies of Konoha, but they don't dare to hope that a dream as peace might come true. They are glad however that you are alive and well.

Love Sakura.

P.S. I've told Hinata that you're gay and that she has to cope with it. After all, I had to cope with it too.
Hinata's letter went like this:

Dear Naruto!

I'm happy and glad that you are doing fine and that you have found true love, even though I am astonished to hear that you're gay now. I thought you were too strong and masculine for that. Sakura tells me I have to accept it, as such a thing cannot be changed, and I do my best. Be assured, however, that I will always bear you in my heart and wish you all the happiness in the world, and also I will always cherish the dreams that were dear to you.

I want to inform you that I'm going to marry Neji. I want to make sure that your promise that the state of affairs in the Hyuuga clan will be changed comes true. As my husband Neji will be at my side as my equal, there won't be a main house and a branch house any more, and no one-sided duty for members of the branch house to sacrifice themselves for the main house. I'm certain that you will approve of this.

Always with love, Hinata
Sasuke put down the letter: “And Neji goes along with it: Marrying Hinata even though she's in love with you.”
“He agrees to her motives”, Naruto answered. “He, too, wants a union between the branch house and the main house.”
“And for this he will put up with Hinata dreaming of you when they have sex.”
“She won't do this”; Naruto replied. “She's honest and gentle and has a soft heart. She'll be a great wife to Neji. She'll be a great mother to her child, too, even though she got pregnant in order to be spared from going on missions. She'll be a much better mother than fighter. If Danzou had sent her on a mission it would have been only to get her killed. She did the right thing.”
“You're a great fighter, and you'll also be a great father”, Sasuke said, touching Naruto's hand and then drawing him into an embrace. Naruto returned first the embrace and then Sasuke's kisses, and they ended up having sex and not mentioning the letters any more.
Still Sasuke was jealous of Hinata. Naruto had told him that he had never been in love with her, but now the words he had used to describe her made Sasuke feel that these were all qualities he himself lacked. Maybe Naruto again – or still – longed for female softness? He had not yet said clearly “I am gay” even though he was not embarrassed to show that he was in love with Sasuke and had no issues with people concluding from this that he must be gay. Still Sasuke longed for Naruto to tell him that he loved him as a man so that he would no longer be afraid of Naruto remembering the charms of femininity.
The real issue of course was still that Sasuke had attacked Killerbee. They did not discuss it, and Naruto did not speak of any doubts he had about their relationship, they also had sex and danced with each other and pretended that everything was fine, but they weren't as close as they had been before. Their fellow dancers also saw that something had changed, but except their closest friends they attributed the change to the normal development of their relationship: no longer courting, no longer feeling the bliss of first love when you cannot get enough of each other, but again seeing each other as separate persons and having to cope with their differences, working out a balance between closeness and distance. (Most of them thought that the boys were far too close and that some distance did them well.)
The dancers were still the group they felt most at home with, but dancing itself had lost some of its significance for them as they no longer needed it as a pretext to touch each other. They listened with interest to the long-term couples when they told them what dancing meant to them. “Doing something together we both enjoy”, they said, and some of them added: “Expressing our love for each other in a way that's more poetic and more human than just having sex.” Others enjoyed it just as a sport: These were the best couples, and often they were not lovers but friends, and sometimes just people who suited each other as dance partners.
Naruto and Sasuke joined this last group, seeing dancing as a sport and getting ambitious. There was a tournament was scheduled for the middle of October and they planned to participate. Everyone in their group did: It was considered fun, even if you started in the lowest group, even if you did not win.(Of course everyone still did their best not to lose.)
Sasuke and Naruto wanted to win. When they took a private lesson to get a sequence it took their dance teacher quite some effort to persuade them that they were not yet good enough for the highest class and that they should not waste their time practising Paso Doble which was only required from the top couples.
“You can be proud of what you achieved until now”, the dance teacher said. “Don't forget you only started this summer, and you started from zero.”
“Don't forget we're ninja”, Naruto said. “We learn quickly. And we've never been content being second.”
For a moment the dance teacher looked annoyed, then he got a grip on himself. (This happened more and more often when the boys mentioned that they were ninja, not only with the dance teacher but with anyone.) “I have actually considered this”, he said. “I've thought about some semi-acrobatic figures. Maybe you can change roles for them so that Naruto can show off his strength.”
“Sasuke's strong too”, Naruto said. “He just chooses to hide his muscles under these stupid fancy long-sleeved shirts.” (He himself was wearing a tight, sleeveless one, as he always did on warm days.)
“You'll discuss costumes later”, the dance teacher said. “I'll show you what I mean.”
There was not much to what he called acrobatics: not a single somersault, and neither did they have to lift each other, at least not over their heads. The only exception was a figure in jive where one had to hold the other bridal style, yet only for half a second, then the dancing went on.
So what was left were figures where one partner leant back so that the other had to support him, and they proved to be a real challenge: Neither boy had the courage to let go and entrust his weight to the other.
“Sasuke's strong enough to hold you”, the dance teacher said to Naruto. “You yourself told me about his strength. You need some tension so that he can hold you, but if you struggle to balance your whole weight on the tip of your toe the whole figure looks ridiculous. Now change roles so that you can see for yourself that it does not take much strength to hold your partner!”
They obeyed and now it was Sasuke who drove the dance teacher crazy.
“Just trust him to hold you. We want him to show off his strength – how is he supposed to do this if you don't let him take responsibility?”
He broke off the training and sat down to talk to them. “It's not a matter of strength. Even some of the female couples do the figure. It's a matter of trust. You're lovers, aren't you? You should trust each other by now.”
“We don't lift each other during sex”, Naruto said.
Sasuke felt annoyed that Naruto gave away details of their love life. The dance teacher, however, thought it amusing: “You should try. It allows for some interesting positions. You are ninja, aren't you?”
Neither boy answered.
“Well, it's your business how you want to have sex. But I am responsible for the quality of your dancing.”
Even without the special figures working out a sequence for the tournament turned out difficult. Sasuke had grown insecure and stiff during the recent weeks and was no longer able to let go and enjoy showing off Naruto. Naruto on the other hand overdid with his extroversion, even though he did not have any audience during this private lesson. The dance teacher told him to cut down on it. “You need to be a bit more balanced when you dance at a tournament”, he said, “and you have to consider Sasuke's limits.”
Naruto felt offended, but he was content again when the dance teacher turned to Sasuke: “And you stop hiding behind Naruto. There's some passages when you dance in parallel, and then not only your steps but also your expressions must be in harmony. At least try to smile!”
Sasuke tried.
“That's good enough. Nobody expects a dancer's smile to be natural. People know that dancing is hard work and demands concentration.”
Naruto's smile was natural, and all three of them knew it. Both boys felt frustrated.
“You still have a couples of weeks to practise”, the dance teacher said. “You don't only win points for your figures and for dancing in time with the music, but also for your expression. As it is, your figures will get you to a high class, but your expression and your lack of balance will prevent you from winning.”
When the boys went home they were silent. Only when they had almost arrived at their place Sasuke found the heart to speak the words that hurt him most:
“You may look for another partner. We'd still be lovers. A lot of people dance at tournaments without being in love.”
Naruto laid his arm around Sasuke's shoulder. “What fun would it be to dance with someone else? We did this dancing thing because we wanted to dance together, didn't we?” He thought about it a bit more, and got aware of another aspect of Sasuke's words. “What happened to you? You don't just admit that I'm better dancer and don't do anything about it.”
Sasuke thought that Naruto had been the better dancer from the beginning and that no matter how much progress he had made Naruto had remained the better dancer, as he had progressed too.
“I can train to learn the movements”, he said. “But not even the Sharingan will help me become more extrovert, or smile more.”
Naruto was silent for some seconds, not knowing what he could say to comfort Sasuke, or to cheer him up.
“At least we should learn these figures where we hold each other”, he said finally. “People think it ridiculous that we are lovers but don't trust one another well enough to hold each other.”
They decided to practice: In the dojo where they taught taijutsu to their group of children, and at home, one of them sitting on the edge of the bed and the other sitting on his lap and leaning back, supported by the other's arm. It was hard work for both of them, letting the other support their whole weight, and they progressed only in small steps, needing a lot of encouragement from the one who was doing the holding: “You are not too heavy! I have a good grip on you, my hands are just at the right place under your shoulderblades. I can hold you – just let go!”
When he finally felt Sasuke fully relax in his arms – more fully than ever during sex – entrusting to him his whole weight, Naruto felt a wave of tenderness flood him, he bowed over Sasuke and kissed him, and then Sasuke got active again and kissed him back, and they had a making-out session.
It did not work the other way around. They got both frustrated about it and they kept trying, yet Naruto was just not able to let go completely. He felt sad because he sensed that he was missing something, but he could not force himself to relax.
Sasuke felt frustrated too. He felt that he was not able to convince Naruto that he could trust him.
“I've betrayed you too often”, he said, kissing him gently on his forehead. “You'll lead these figures and show off your strength, just as we planned originally.”

A/N: I have discovered that the thread for this story at the Forum is gone. So I want to thank you for your review here, which was polite, even though it was critical.
I can assure you however that I have a plan. I know exactly how Danzou will be ousted from office. The process has already begun. I also think that wrapping up the story and ending it quickly would ruin it – I know that the story has grown too long, which is because I started with a lot of plot lines, but also with a lot of underlying themes (the experiences of Music Town are important.) I want to bring it all to an ending I am content with.
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