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The Blessed Realm	By : susanna Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male > Naruto/Sasuke Views: 1746 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 3
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Chapter
Sixty-Nine: Still burning

Including
anal sex into their repertoire of sexual techniques had had an
unforeseen consequence: Sasuke had grown more confident about
initiating sex. Before he had always felt insecure whether Naruto did
not just have sex with him in order to do him a favour, now he was
certain that he could give Naruto what a girl could give and that
Naruto enjoyed it (except that he still had to keep the kyuubi in
check when he lost control during orgasm). He was not aware that if
Naruto had really been straight allowing him to penetrate him would
not have been enough: if Naruto had really been straight he would
have longed for full female breasts, for wide, round hips, and for a
vagina that produced its own moisture.

There
were some signs now that Naruto was beginning to consider himself
gay. He had stopped trying to protect Sasuke from the other men,
accepting that even though they were gay they did not prey on Sasuke
but respected that he was now with him, Naruto. Actually they just
respected his wishes, Sasuke thought, more than any girl ever had. He
was glad that with Naruto no longer trying to protect him the number
of embarrassing situations had considerably gone down, but mostly
Sasuke was glad that Naruto now regarded their fellow gay men as
ordinary people and hoped that he was no longer ashamed of being one
of them.

At
least he had now begun to take an interest in other men's looks:
Mostly those of football players, discussing not only their technical
skills or their understanding of the game, but also their hair styles
or whether wearing a beard suited them or not. From there it was only
a small step to calling a player “cute”, and to his
surprise Sasuke discovered that Naruto could get into discussions
about the good looks of this or that player that were as fierce as
any discussion about the quality of his play.

“He
may be cute” the other men would say in answer to Naruto. “But
you want a real man in your bed, don't you?”

Naruto
was irritated. He was not yet able to answer to such a joke with a
funny remark of his own. Fortunately Sasuke happened to be standing
next to him, so he took his hand and said: “I want Sasuke in my
bed.”

Yet
even though he had begun to discuss the looks of football players
Naruto still would protest vehemently if the regulars at the
restaurant where they worked claimed that gay men did not care about
football in itself but were only interested in watching some
good-looking men running around in short trousers. He would get very
angry on these occasions, and elaborate for minutes why this was not
true, but Sasuke, who listened carefully, noticed that Naruto avoided
having to choose between saying “we” or “they”
when he spoke of gay men.

Probably
Naruto simply knew that being in love with Sasuke, and very open
about it in the bargain, he could not claim that he was not gay. Yet
for Sasuke this was not enough: He had to know that Naruto really was
sexually interested in him and not just with him because he was his
friend. He was aware of the absurdity of the situation: He needed to
know that Naruto took an interest in other men, too, to feel certain
that Naruto was gay.

For
this reason he felt relaxed when Naruto started to dance with other
men: Not during dance classes or training, but at dance teas and
parties. Actually it had been him, Sasuke, who had first been asked
to dance by someone who was not Naruto, namely by the husband of the
guy from Earth Country. Naruto had been discussing football at the
time, with Sasuke listening to him and his fellow disputants, but
when Naruto had heard the man asking Sasuke if he wanted to dance he
had answered before Sasuke had even opened his mouth: “If
Sasuke wants to dance I will dance with him.”

“You
go on talking football”, the man had said. “I want to
dance with Sasuke, not to sleep with him.”

Sasuke
had enjoyed dancing with the man. He was not as good as Naruto, there
were a lot of figures he did not know or messed up by being too slow
or confusing the steps, and there were a lot of misunderstandings as
the man did not notice Sasuke's signs as Naruto did. Often they had
to interrupt their dancing and sort out what had gone wrong, but they
always did this in a polite and rational manner while with Naruto
these discussions regularly deteriorated into a dispute whose fault
it had been that they had messed up. (He, Sasuke, was not entirely
innocent of this.) Also, the man made him feel that he was a
competent dancer and that it was a pleasure to be led by him, while
with Naruto Sasuke often felt inadequate.

From
then on both of them were asked to dance on a regular basis, Naruto
even more often than Sasuke. Not only his qualities as a dancer but
also his extroversion and his skill at making small talk made him a
popular partner. Sasuke loved to watch him dance, seeing Naruto from
a few meters distance in his full beauty, he enjoyed the grace and
the vitality of Naruto's movements, he enjoyed being waved and smiled
at when Naruto followed his partner and did some solo turns that
allowed him to take a look at onlookers, he enjoyed watching how
Naruto led in a considerate, caring manner when he was leading, but
also he was jealous and sad that he was not outgoing and popular in
the same way.

“Naruto
is friends with everyone”, he told the husband of the guy from
Earth Country.

“You
have friends too”, the man replied.

“It's
not the same”, Sasuke answered. “When Naruto enters the
room it's as if the clouds had given way so that the sun can shine
again.”

The
man looked irritated. “You say this because you are in love
with him. Others don't perceive him that way.”

“But
they all look when he enters the room.”

“Well,
yes, they do like him. They like you too.”

“It's
still not the same”, Sasuke said again.

This
time the man thought a bit before he answered. “Well, he's less
complicated than you are. People know what to make of him. With you,
it takes some time. You prefer to remain mysterious.”

Sasuke
thought about it. “I haven't always been like this”, he
finally said. “I used to be very cute. Everyone liked me.”

The
man took some time again before he answered. “How old were you
then?”

“Five.
Six. Seven.”

“Before
your family was murdered?”

“Yes.”

“You
cannot go back in time. You cannot change the past. And it does not
suit an almost grown-up boy if he behaves like a five-year-old.”

Sasuke
was silenced. The man laid his arm around him to show him that he
liked him even though he occasionally behaved like a five-year-old.
Soon Naruto saw this and came to ask Sasuke to dance with him.

Naruto
fully enjoyed his popularity and was of no use at all when it came to
helping Sasuke overcome his self-doubts. He hardly noticed these
doubts, but he noticed that people asked him to dance more often and
that finding someone to talk to was easier for him than for Sasuke,
and that people smiled at him wherever he went. In Konoha Sasuke had
been the more popular of the two of them, even though he nad not
cared about his popularity at the time – here it was him,
Naruto who was liked by everyone. In Konoha, the girls had swooned
for Sasuke and admired him because of his good looks and his fighting
skills, and for the latter the boys, including Naruto, had admired
him too. Here it was Naruto who got all the admiration, while Sasuke,
if he was lucky, only got some acknowledgement. Sasuke might still
be a better fighter – Naruto did not know, and he did not
intend to find out – but he was the better dancer, and this was
what counted in Music Town. Also, the men here seemed to think him
better-looking than Sasuke: Sasuke's fine features, his cuteness and
his air of mystery weren't of any value to them. They preferred
Naruto's open smile and his more manly looks.

He,
too, wondered whether he was really gay now. The other men considered
him as one of them, and he knew that as long as he was with Sasuke it
was ridiculous to claim the opposite and he definitely intended to
stay with Sasuke. He wondered whether this was enough to turn him
gay, however.

As
a child he had liked Sakura, who had been pretty and nice and
generally popular. Most boys had had a crush on her, Sasuke being one
of the few exceptions. Naruto had been the lucky one who got into a
team with her, but then watching her making a fuss about Sasuke all
the time had turned out not so lucky after all. Slowly Naruto had
realized the seriousness of her affection for Sasuke. He had given up
hope that he might ever win her heart, and had settled for a warm,
reliable friendship. By the time when he had left Konoha to train
with Jiraiya he had ceased to think of her as an object of his
desire, and instead thought of her as a dear friend.

Later
Hinata had declared her love to him. He had always thought her nice,
but also a bit weird, and she was ridiculously timid and insecure. He
was content with himself that he had been able to inspire her so that
she would work harder and gain some confidence and not give up so
easily, but he had never particularly longed for her company, nor did
the thought of her make his heart beat faster.

Sasuke
had made his heart beat faster from the moment he had seen him
sitting at the side of the lake, mourning for his family, giving hope
to Naruto that there might be someone to share and alleviate his
loneliness. Later when this hope had not come true, Sasuke at least
had inspired him to become as strong and fearless as him. Sasuke's
acknowledgement had shown him that he had succeeded, but Sasuke's
recognition when he had offered him his food during Kakashi's bell
test had opened his heart for Sasuke in a way he had not thought
possible before, and the bond that had been created during these days
had grown stronger and stronger even though he had still been too
young to understand its nature. Instead he chose to continue his
rivalry with Sasuke. He had felt the bond, however, during his years
with Jiraiya: tugging at his heart and making it ache.

It
had been for Sasuke who his heart had burnt for during all these
years, Sasuke, who his soul had longed for and reached out to, and
neither Sakura nor Hinata. Finding him here in Music Town, being able
to make him stay, finally moving his heart: it had been pure bliss to
him, and when they became lovers, the flame that had been burning
within him for so long had lit up as if someone had poured alcohol
into it, it had consumed him and blown open the boundaries of his
body and his soul. He had never spoken to Sasuke about it because he
feared that Sasuke would ridicule him, but this was how he still felt
when they were having sex.

The
flame still burnt, he thought, just as during his years of training
with Jiraiya. It did not burn always, for example it did not burn
when Sasuke reminded him that he still had not found a plan to get
rid of Danzou, but it burnt now, as he was looking at Sasuke, who was
lying next to him on the bed, still sleeping.

He
had grown soft since his arrival in Music Town, Naruto thought, and
even softer since they had become lovers, and it suited him, making
him look even more feminine. He seemed very vulnerable in his sleep,
and Naruto felt protective of him.

He
liked it that Sasuke had changed, he liked the smile that more and
more often now illuminated Sasuke's features from within, turning him
breathtakingly beautiful. On the other hand his coolness and
aloofness had mostly gone, and with it the fascination Sasuke had
held for Naruto. Sasuke's talents weren't of any value in this place
that had no use for fighters, Naruto thought. No one would admire him
here. He pitied him a bit.

But
Sasuke loved the place, Naruto's thoughts continued. He would not
exchange it for the admiration he had received in Konoha. Maybe there
was no need to pity him. Carefully and very tenderly Naruto removed a
strand of black hair from Sasuke's forehead and then caressed his
cheek.

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