I am the one you hate?

This chapter is done by me

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One night, it all happened in one night and it was so quick I hardly had time to breathe as I watched all I ever loved being ripped away from me.

So cold, I felt my blood practically freeze in my veins as I sat with my daughter shivering in my lap, both my arms wrapped around her as I hid my face in her hair. Her little fingers clung with a deathlike grip to my shirt. I felt something warm ram into my leg and caused my balance to shift.

Without looking I knew exactly what it was. My left arm flung out then quickly wrapped around my son's back as I pulled him closer. "Momma!" his voice was small and weak as his body shuddered and his arms pulled tight around my waist.

I pulled up running my finger's through my daughter's hair as I attempted to smile weakly before turning to my son who finally rose his head after my fingers gently gripped his chin and forced him to look at me.

"Momma loves you both so much babies." A hiccup croaked through my parted lips as tears rained down my chin making the skin uncomfortable and almost clammy.

"We love you to mommy! Don't leave us please!!!" My daughters voice, strong and determined, yet fragile and unsure at the same time. Her fists pull at my shirt as her face buries into my stomach again. I can barely stand as I sob my apologizes and listen to them flood the small room we stand in.

I get down to my knees and pull them both into my embrace. We stand there for what feels like hours before the door opens and a deep voice vibrates through my whole being, "Kids....its time to go...say goodbye to your...mother."

They scream and cling to me tighter as my face rests on their joined shoulders. "Momma will always be with you.....I'll always be with you my precious babies. Don't forget that....I'll always be with you whether they let us be together or not...I love you both more then my heart can bare...We will be together again some day!"

I kiss their cheeks as two people rip them from my arms. My body is shaking as I watch them being dragged from the room screaming and kicking, calling my name. I fling myself toward them crying their names in return, but before I can reach the door two arms weave with mine and pull me back.

A warm cheek nuzzles my own as the grip loosens, "Sakura......there is nothing we can do. Its been decided. Neji has custody.....for now we have to let them go...but we will keep fighting to get them back."

Ino's voice is soft and sure as I whip around and bury my face in her neck as I collapse into her.

Standing on the outskirts of the school grounds I watch a head of dark brunette hair weave in and out of the play equipment, her face is glowing as a smile brightens her face and laughter rings through her lips. Tears swell in my eyes as my fingers cup my mouth to keep cries from escaping my lips.

My soul cries out my agony as I watch her steps falter and suddenly she is sprawled out over the hard pavement. Her cry reaches my ears and instinctively I surge forward with my arms reaching out toward her, but I catch myself.

I freeze, my jaw quivering as unchecked tears cascade shamelessly down my cheeks, my hands trembling at my sides. I can't even comfort her...I can't, by law, even see her.

My love for a person that happens to be the same sex as me is what lost me my custody of my precious children.

For a long time I tried to contemplate why....why I am unfit to take care of my own children just because I happen to love another woman...I'm still the same woman that raised them to be strong and healthy. None of it makes sense....someone told me to leave Ino and it would all be ok...but how can that be so?

I would still love her and leaving her wouldn't mean that anything has changed in me...so what good would it do to leave her when I love her. It isn't something that is in my control I love who I love and that shouldn't be what looses me my children.

The sound of a bell breaks my thoughts as its harsh urgency echoes in my ears. I look up and see my daughter being helped to the double doors by a few friends. When finally she disappears from my sight my head hangs as my hands cup my face, I sob relentlessly into my hands as I turn and walk back to my car.

When I finally round around to the passenger side and sit I feel an arm wrap around my shoulder as soft cooing comes from my lover. Instantly I lean forward and bury my face in her chest as I wrap my arms around her.

Her fingers rub circles over my back, "We will get them back...I promise." I nod into her flesh as continue to sob.

She is the only good thing I have left and I will cling to her with all my life...she says the same thing everyday...every time I cry and I know she means well but I know so long as I love her I can not get my children back.

I would feel empty no matter which road I choose....and its too late to turn back now. All I want is for someone to tell me why is loving someone the same sex as me the thing that deems me unfit.

--I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.--