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Trapped	By : havenoclue Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1277 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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AN: I know… I know… I've been bad. This writer's block is killing me, and for that I beg your forgiveness. After months of forcing myself to sit in front of my laptop and actually write something, this is the best that I can come up with.

I really hope this newest chapter is not a big disappointment because your opinion means so much to me.

AN2: Thank you so much for shadowphoenix143, my beta-reader. I couldn't have done it without you. Thank you!

Chapter 7

Because I don't deserve to be loved!

"Teme, what are you saying? Everybody deserve-"

"Don't patronize me, dobe," Sasuke interrupted bitterly.

"Then at least believe me when I said that I-"

"I don't need your pity either." Once again the Uchiha stopped Naruto from finishing what he was trying to say.

"It's not pity!" the blonde denied fiercely, "I've never-"

"Really?" the chuunin snidely mocked, "Somehow I find that hard to believe."

Even for a shinobi that seemed to always have something to say, getting cut off three consecutive times was more than enough, causing silence to transpire between them. Unfortunately, it did not last for long.

"Do… do you want me to leave?" asked Naruto timidly, sad blue eyes turning to meet charcoal, but instead of gazing into the good-looking face that he adored, he was presented with a rigid back.

"No," the raven answered much to Naruto's relief. "Just don't… touch me."

The Uzumaki nodded, completely forgetting that Sasuke couldn't see him with his back turned. However, no protests were voiced and it seemed like the sharingan user knew that Naruto would submit to his request. Once again silence reigned, only this time it became almost unbearable in the tension filled room.

"Did you know that if you hear screaming and crying for a week non-stop your ears would naturally adjust themselves to block out those miserable sounds?" Sasuke's impassive voice filled the room. "That was how I spent my first week at Oto."

At that moment, no words could have described the shock that went through the orange-clad ninja upon hearing these words. Naruto had always been extremely curious to know what had happened to Sasuke during that time. Ever since the raven had returned, the blonde was constantly racking his brain to find a subtle, but effective, way to make the raven talk about the two and a half years his beloved had spent in the serpent's lair. Now finally, after all this time, he would be getting the answers he so desperately wanted.

"But not hearing them doesn't mean that they are not there. It's just that my ears and brain choose to tune out hearing those voices," Sasuke stated coldly. "But… these cursed eyes of mine are a different story. It only takes one look… just a single glance and whatever scene I am witnessing will be in my mind…forever."

The blonde shinobi's eyes watched as Sasuke's finely-muscled back became so full of strain, he knew it had to hurt. Sasuke might be able to cover up his feelings by speaking in a detached voice, but his body language betrayed him. It was so filled with emotion that Naruto needed to restrain himself from lunging forward and taking the body into his arms to soothe away all of the tension. He stopped himself because he knew better then to deny Sasuke's request to not be touched; this could be his only chance to know the truth. Hence, the blue eyes stayed at his place, not even daring to breathe so hard for he was afraid Sasuke would change his mind.

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"It's time for my training," Sasuke demanded to the lanky figure in front of him.

"Ku… ku… ku… Sasuke-kun… what's the hurry? It's still quite early in the morning," responded Orochimaru as his hand reached out to touch Sasuke's shoulder.

The slow, yet deadly move, reminded Sasuke so much of a snake's movements. All of a sudden he felt a sharp stinging pain in his left shoulder, right on top of his curse-seal that was given to him by the same person who was also putting his sneaky hand on the exact spot. Calmly the thirteen-year-old grasped the said hand, forcing it to let his shoulder go. "Training is the main reason of my coming to this disgusting place. I don't want to waste my time."

"Watch that tongue, Sasuke-kun… though, I have to admit how much I love that vengeful-spirit… ku… ku… ku."

"Oh please… please let go of my baby!"

Out of the blue, pleading cries resounded throughout the room followed by a man whose hair was pulled into a low ponytail and holding some kind of chart. Closely following behind him was a woman in her late twenties desperately grasping onto said man's shirt like her life depended on it. Again, she pleaded, "I-I'll do anything you want… t-take me instead of my baby."

"How many times do I have to tell you? I don't need you," said the gray-haired man who clearly didn't give a damn.

"She's just a kid! She's only four year olds!" screamed the woman frantically. "Please… please…"

By this time, she didn't have enough energy left to hold onto the spectacle-wearing shinobi's shirt. She became just a lump sprawled on the floor repeatedly pleading over and over.

Orochimaru took the chance to glance at Sasuke's direction, trying to read his reaction to the unfolding events. Yet, the young teenager remained impassive and the serpent failed to notice any emotion on the blank face. Satisfied with the teen's lack of response towards the situation, he then turned his attention to his right-hand man, "What seems to be the problem, Kabuto?"

"A kid, Sir."

"What kid?" Orochimaru demanded, his yellow snake-like eyes glinting with evil desire.

Kabuto knew his master too well to deny him of his playtime. Clapping his hands several times he instructed his subordinate to bring the child to him.

"This kid, Sir."

The little girl was as cute as button. The most striking quality about her was surprisingly not her beauty, but her courage. She showed no fear whatsoever as she held up her head and looked straight at the devils reincarnation. Orochimaru couldn't stop himself from touching the baby, her guts had intrigued him.

"You're a daring one, aren't you?" hissed the dark-haired sannin as he trailed his fingers along the toddlers smooth cheek.

Sensing her child was in danger, the maternal instincts of the woman kicked in. She snatched her child from Orochimaru's touch and held her tightly against her breast.

"I don't see the advantage of keeping the little one with us Kabuto, the mother simply has more to offer," said Orochimaru as he began to play his twisted game.

As predicted the mother's eyes started to fill with hope.

Ah yes… give them hope, and then crush it to the ground…

"Please, Sir… I would do anything… anything… I would be your most loyal servant. Just… God, j-just let my baby go."

The woman crawled to touch the sannin's feet. Clearly she was near the point of breaking down into hysterics.

"Ku… ku… ku… if this matter was my decision to make, my dear, I would love to accept your proposition," responded the merciless snake much to Sasuke's disgust.

"Oh thank you, Sir! Thank you!"

Ah… the relief… the optimism… Now… for the closing strike…

"However," hissed Orochimaru while forcing the woman to meet his eyes as he held the woman's chin to get her undivided attention, "…however… it's not mine to make."

Fresh tears began flowing out of beautiful eyes, sob after sob leaving tightly pressed lips, as her hopes tumbled down illustrated by a symphony of her own screaming.

Ah… the beauty of despair… what bliss… ku…ku…ku…

"Sasuke-kun?" called the long-haired devil, "…it's time for your training."

The calling of his name brought new realization to the woman. For the first time she was aware that there were other people in this room other than those two monsters. Using the last of her fading strength, she leaped into Sasuke's direction and wrapped her arms around the raven's ankles so tight, her knuckles went white. "Help us, young man! HELP US PLEASE!"

For a second, seeing the desperate woman at his feet with tears shining on her face and stripped of all her pride, left Sasuke feeling stunned.

"Young man, please… I can tell that you're not a monster. Please… help us…"

"Sasuke-kun… no need to waste anymore of your precious time," whispered Orochimaru as he walked toward the door.

Those words hit deep and brought back his deep seated hatred in no time.

"Let go of my feet."

With that Sasuke left the room and profanity soon followed behind him.

"Y-you… you're a monster! A MONSTER! I wish a painful death on every one of you! Give me my baby back! GIVE HER BACK!"

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"That snaky bastard knew what choice I would make, yet he dared to actually make me choose between my hatred and my conscience," scorned Sasuke.

"It's not like you had any other choice, Sasuke."

"I thought I told you not to patronize me."

"I'm not!" denied the Jounin before hesitantly continuing, "Y-you were at the enemy's-"

"You're lying through your teeth, Naruto!" Again, the chuunin harshly cut off Naruto's words. "You would have jumped at the first chance to help them or die trying!"

"Of course I would have! It was the right thing to do and I-" This time the blonde didn't need the Uchiha's help in stopping him from finishing his own words. "Ah… Sasuke, I…"

"Stop trying to legitimize my actions!" shouted the raven as he turned his body to face Naruto and stared bitterly right into his eyes. "I know it was wrong but I still did it. Because nothing… nothing could keep me from getting my revenge!"

Incomprehensible fear began to fill Naruto's blue eyes as Sasuke's cold words slowly cut into his heart with razor blade precision.

Scared now aren't you dobe? Now that you see the real me?"

"W-what exactly did those bastards want from that kid?"

"What else, Naruto?" Sasuke replied with a question before explaining, "For experimenting on, of course! That psycho bastard needed a female child to complete his anatomy chart."

"Anatomy chart? That bastard! Can't he just use a corpse!" screamed Naruto in unadulterated rage.

"He needed live humans so he could perform his twisted research. So his master could attain the most perfect immortal shape. Well, they can kiss that sick dream good-bye!" snapped the raven.

"I'm glad that you killed him Sasuke. If it weren't for him, than none of this misery would have happened."

"Stop blaming other people for my mistakes, dobe! If it wasn't Orochimaru, then I would have found another way to fulfill my revenge! To achieve my goal, I knew no boundaries. So stop treating me like I'm an innocent victim because I'm not."

The harsh words silenced Naruto and for a while a satisfied smirk formed on Sasuke's oh-so-sexy lips. While it was true that the whole aim of this conversation was to get Naruto to renounce his faith in him, and more than likely he was going to get it any moment, Sasuke couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness in his heart.

Giving up on me so soon, lover? You haven't even heard all of it yet.

"After I killed that cursed serpent, I decided to release all of the captives before leaving the lair," uttered the Uchiha's prodigy, continuing his story. "It never crossed my mind that I would have a second chance to meet with that child again."

"Really?"

"Hn."

"And?"

"And once again I disappointed her."

"What do you mean?"

"Exactly like I just said," Sasuke stated exasperatedly before going on with his story, "Her condition was the worst that could possibly happen to a child. She no longer had any limbs and her body was covered with wounds and scars, including her once smooth face, but her eyes still shone with courage."

Naruto raised his head to once again look at Sasuke, feeling curious about the admiration that colored Sasuke's voice. Questioningly he raised his left eyebrow.

"Oh, I admired her bravery. Barely seven years old, yet she was so strong."

"Then what happened?"

"She asked me to kill her."

"WHAT? Please tell me that you didn't."

"I didn't," affirmed Sasuke, much to Naruto's relief, "… but not for the reasons that your naïve mind produced, dobe."

The left eyebrow lifted once again.

"By killing her, I would be doing her a favor. She would've been blessed with a painless death," explained the raven, "But no… up till the end I denied her any kindness."

"W-why?"

"Change your mind about killing, dobe?" mocked the Uchiha.

"Just answer the damn question!"

"Honestly? I just don't give a shit."

"SASUKE!"

"What! I'm telling you the truth. Orochimaru's death meant I got my freedom to chase Itachi and the chance that I'd been waiting patiently for in order to fulfill my only goal in life. Doing someone else a favor at that time felt too inconvenient."

"You heartless bastard!"

"So I've been called," confirmed Sasuke, "But that child left her mark on me too."

"I thought you said she had no limbs left."

"She marked me mentally, not physically."

"Go on."

"By the time I was ready to leave, she called out to me. I never thought she would have remembered my name from that first encounter. Then, she told me to have a nice life and I could never, ever forget her eyes at that time, even though I want to." Sasuke's voice was starting to lose its coldness as it gradually became laced with emotion, "She had no limbs, she was about to face a slow painful death - starvation is not exactly a fun way to die, and there was not a single thing in her life at the moment that should have made her happy, yet she was the one who was looking at me with pity!

"Sasuke…"

"I was the one with the power! I could have easily wringed her little neck, ending her miserable life in seconds! But she dared… she dared to look down on me!"

Sasuke's last words made Naruto's heart ache with longing to hold his lover and save him from his pain. But he didn't think he could handle anymore rejection.

"So… the nightmare that you just had, was it about… that child?"

The dark-eyed shinobi didn't even bother to answer the blonde's question. He kept talking in the most un-Uchiha-ish voice. A voice that was full of self-loathing. "God knows I deserve them to repay all my sins. I deserve all the bad things that happen in my life as my redemption. Even then, I still don't think it's enough… it'll never be enough."

"You can't mean that!"

"I can Naruto, and I do. There's nothing wrong with stating the truth."

"Sasuke, stop this right now!" Naruto screamed as he leaped forward to grasp the chuunin's shoulders and shook his body hard. "Sasuke, you're forgetting one thing, everybody deserves forgiveness."

"No Naruto, not everybody. You never believed that Orochimaru deserved forgiveness."

"Bullshit!" shouted Naruto, refusing to admit defeat. "You think I don't know why you're doing this, Teme? I do! You want me to leave you alone! You want me to despise you! You want me to stop loving you! But I've got news for you pal, those things are not going to happen!"

"Naruto…" Sasuke gently cupped Naruto's face between his hands, "… can't you see that I am doing you a favor? I am saving you from a miserable life, because trust me, that is what you're going to get if you stay with me."

"No way! You don't know what you're saying!"

"It's the truth, dobe."

"NO!" denied Naruto once again, "Teme… please don't do this."

"I have nothing to offer you except my body, Naruto. That, and a whole heap of guilt and misery, enough to last a lifetime. Don't lie to me and say that's enough for you because we both know that it's not."

"You… you can love me back."

"You still don't get it, do you? I can't- I can't love anybody! Heck Naruto, I can't even love myself!"

"No…" The last denial was barely a whisper.

"So, you understand now, right? I don't love you, not because I don't want to, but because I'm not capable of love."

The blonde couldn't hold in his tears any longer. As a sob ripped out of his chest accompanying the tears pouring down his cheeks, Sasuke pulled him into an embrace and held him tight. "Usuratonkachi… you haven't answered my question. Do you really understand what I'm saying?"

The Uzumaki simply nodded before crying even more and clinging tightly to Sasuke.

It's over… It's really over…

Naruto's surrender and tears hurt Sasuke, but he kept reminding himself that it was for the best. Naruto deserved better… Scratch that, Naruto deserved the best.

-TBC-
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