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Love Me When I'm Gone	By : KittenCobra Category: Naruto > Het - Male/Female Views: 1971 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto (the manga or anime) or any of the characters included within it. I only own the original characters in this story including the main character Utako Mizuke. I do not make any form of profit off of this story.

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63. Rebirth
I’m in the dark again. This time I’m all alone. I cannot feel the babies. I cannot feel Gaara. There is nothing but darkness. After a short time, I start to feel a discomfort – then a burning. It’s my body. My body and my mind are both burning. It’s not terrible, not even truly painful. It’s just an overwhelming sensation. It feels as if it is spreading through every tissue, every cell. It is invigorating and confusing.
What is that? I wonder.
The burning stops and I open my eyes to see blue sky above me. It is beautiful with big fluffy clouds floating idly by. I’m lying on my back and I glance down at my chest. My skin is… steaming.
What the hell?
“Mizuke?” I hear Sakura’s voice whisper. Oh my God! I think it worked!!
I turn my head to the side towards her voice and see her kneeling in the grass beside me. She looks tired but excited. She has a huge smile on her face and tear-filled eyes. I reach into her mind.
She gently tucks the baby into Shikamaru’s shirt and vest and urges him to run to Konoha as quickly as possible. The babies are both breathing easily on their own. That’s more than she was hoping for with them still being so young.
“You!” she shouts at one of the other Anbu members. “Head straight to Tsuande and inform her that the babies are being taken to the hospital.”
He nods in agreement just as Sakura hears Gaara’s panicked shout.
“Sakura!!” he screams. “I’m losing her!!”
She turns around and rushes over to his side. He’s gripping his wife’s body – my body – tightly in his arms. I’m completely unconscious. She reaches for my throat. My pulse is still there – but barely. I only have minutes left.
There’s so much damage!! Her mind races in panic. If only Gaara had gotten here sooner! I can’t heal all of this by myself… How can I tell Gaara he got here too late?!
Just then she gets an idea. Tsunade showed her the secret to her own S-ranked healing jutsu a couple of years ago – the Creation Rebirth. This jutsu forces the body into rapidly dividing cells and creating new tissues. Unfortunately, it also shortens the person’s total lifespan because cells can only divide so many times. However… if someone is dying already, it’s still longer than the moments they have left.
Sakura has been trying to adapt this jutsu for the last couple of years. Tsunade can use it only because she has an additional justu she uses to store up the necessary chakra over time. Sakura has been attempting to conduct the same jutsu on someone else instead of her own body. So far, her attempts have all been unsuccessful. The massive quantity of chakra required has never been available in a subject that’s been actively participating in a battle.
But Mizuke hasn’t been battling anyone! She thinks in desperation. She hasn’t been using chakra! I don’t know how big her chakra coils are so this may not work… but I’ve got to try! Even if it’s just enough to keep her alive!
“Gaara,” she says turning to face his broken expression. “I would like to try something. It’s a jutsu I have been working on with Tsunade’s blessing. I need you to know… I have never gotten it to work before, and it is unlikely to work now… but it’s the only thing I have left to try.”
He narrows his eyes at her. “Could it harm her more?” he asks.
“No,” she assures him. “If it doesn’t work, she will die. But right now, that’s going to happen anyway.”
His face looks frightened and angry. “Do it.” He orders.
“I need you to back away from her,” she urges. “No one can touch her when I do this.”
He lies my body down gently in the grass and stands to his feet. He walks over to stand beside Naruto, and both of them watch with hopeful eyes.
Okay… Sakura thinks to herself. Please let this work… Just once… Just this time!
She conducts the necessary hand signs and activates the chakra in her hands.
“Creation Rebirth,” she whispers.
She begins forcing the chakra into my body and attempting to get my body to take over the process. The tissue on my belly, directly beneath her hands, begins knitting together, but my body is resisting the jutsu. She directs the flow of chakra directly into my chakra coil and suddenly my body responds. The level of chakra that bursts forth is enormous and Sakura jumps back in surprise.
My body begins to glow faintly. The tissues are racing to rebuild across the entire surface of my skin and she can detect the change happening at the deepest levels of tissue. Steam and chakra begin to drift up from the surface of my body. After only moments, my body begins healing from not just the labor damage, but from the entire pregnancy. My form shrinks and molds itself back to my original size. My muscles strengthen and tone. My skin returns to a healthy color and glow.
That’s not possible! Her mind races. That’s so much chakra! That’s just like when Tsunade releases the Strength of a Hundred seal on her forehead! But she stores up that chakra for months!
The changing suddenly stops and Sakura would swear no one in the entire clearing is breathing. After five minutes have passed… my eyes pop open.
“Wow,” I mumble to her. “That’s impressive.”
“I can’t believe it worked,” she agrees. “I can’t wait to tell Tsunade!!”
Suddenly, Gaara is above me on his hands and knees. He looks into my eyes and his bright jade ones are still watery and red.
“Hi handsome,” I whisper to him. “I seem to have a bad habit of scaring you to death…”
He pulls me into his arms and kisses me with a desperation that borders on pain.
I can’t believe you’re alive! He crows.
Neither can I. I can feel tears falling from my eyes as he continues to kiss me. His hands run across my back and sides over and over again. I can’t believe the babies and I… The BABIES!!
I shove back from him roughly and jump to my feet. I take off running towards Konoha. My babies are still in danger. They’re being taken to the hospital. I know that. But I need to be with them. I need to see them safe.
“Mizuke!” Naruto shouts. He, Sakura and Gaara are already running to catch me. “What are you doing?”
“Yasuo and Katsutoshi!” I shout. “I have to catch up with my babies!”
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“Well,” Tsunade sighs, dropping the bright light from in front of my eyes, “It looks like there’s still more we don’t know about you yet.”
“You mean the chakra?” I ask.
“Yes,” she agrees, confused. “The amount of chakra Sakura described was highly unusual – and likely unnatural. Have you remembered anything new since you woke up?”
“No.” I turn to Gaara who watches me from the corner of the room with worried eyes. “Nothing new. I feel great. I feel healthy. If Yasuo and Katsutoshi weren’t sitting there in the incubator in front of me… I’d be tempted to believe this whole thing was a dream.”
“We’ll just have to watch you closely then,” she says and heads for the door. “Make sure if you begin to notice any adverse effects from the jutsu – or ANYTHING abnormal – you let me know right away. Do you have questions about the birth control?”
“No. Thanks Tsunade.”
She nods to Gaara and then leaves us alone for the first time since we arrived in Konoha. She explained to me that with my body fully restored, I am once again at high risk of becoming pregnant again right away. Therefore, she provided me with a long-term means of birth control. It’s an insert that will last for a few years and is 100% effective. It’s something that apparently can only be used after a woman has had a child successfully. I am extremely thankful for her help. I don’t want to think about having another baby for a long time – maybe not ever. That’s assuming that my lover is even willing to touch me again…
“You are angry with me,” I say, leaning back to relax in my hospital bed. I’ve been given one so that I can be monitored for a couple of days, and so I can stay with the boys.
“Yes,” he agrees, walking over to the incubator and watching them sleep. I can feel his mind searching for me, but I have a wall in place between us. “Why do you shut me out?” he asks.
“I am afraid,” I admit. “I know I hurt you. I know you have a right to be angry, to be hurt. I honestly didn’t expect to live this long. I didn’t expect to have to face your pain.”
His body stiffens and his mouth sets into a hard grimace. “What do you expect from me?” he asks.
“I honestly don’t know,” I mumble. “I can’t imagine how upset I would be. I know you changed your mind about them, but I don’t know why. I guess… I’m afraid to know.”
He reaches his hand into the incubator and strokes the back of Katsutoshi’s head gently. The baby stirs contentedly beneath his hand but doesn’t wake up.
“I’m afraid…” my voice breaks. “that I got my wish. That you love them even though you can’t love me – can’t trust me anymore.”
He turns to face me again and his expression is cool and distant. His sand reaches out from his gourd in the corner of the room and grasps me by the chin – holding my face steady. He stares into my eyes intently. I do not lower the wall between us, but I do not fear him. He would never harm me.
“You trust me now,” he says in a low, smooth tone. “Why didn’t you trust me then?”
“I knew you would choose me,” I admit. “Given the choice between them or me… you would have chosen me. But I couldn’t lose them… not again.”
“Yes,” he agrees. “I would have. I did. But you meant to take the choice away from me.”
“I can’t do more than apologize,” I say without looking away.
Heat burns in his eyes as his sand recedes and he comes to sit on the edge of the bed. He lies down beside me and pulls me against him. I don’t resist him, melting into his warmth before he captures my lips in a smoldering kiss. I can feel desire coursing through him and I can feel peace. He pulls back and looks into my eyes again.
“We are both very lucky,” he says with a smirk. “I am lucky to have a wife who challenges me – who fights for what she believes. You are lucky to be alive. We are both lucky that the boys survived the birth and the journey here.”
“Yes,” I say a little breathless, “We’re all very lucky.”
“You left me your memories,” he continues, brushing his nose against my cheek. “I know why you did what you did. I have seen your interactions with them, and I know they brought you back to me once before. I cannot blame them for what they are. They have no more control over their gifts than I had over mine. They are a part of you and part of me. Before I left Suna, I ordered our home to be remodeled again. It will have a nursery when we return. I wanted them to have a home – even if Temari and Shikamaru were the ones to bring them. Even if you and I were gone.”
I throw my arms around his neck and bury my face in his shirt.
“Would you really have left them too?” I ask.
“I’m not sure,” he replies with a distant look in his eyes. “It all feels very… strange.”
“How could you ever trust me again?” I whisper, remembering the betrayal in his mind. “How can anyone?”
“I… hurt you – when I learned the truth,” he counters. “Yet you still trust me.”
“You…” I struggle to explain correctly. “You were upset. It wasn’t fair to expect you to act calm and collected. There’s no way you could have seen it coming. I made sure of it.”
“It doesn’t matter,” he replies. “I should never have hurt you.”
We lie quietly for a long time, neither one ready to break the silence. When we arrived I was surprised to realize that Gaara actually knew where I was all along, despite our cross-country trek. He apparently has placed a single grain of sand somewhere on my body, and could track me down anywhere if needed. He does the same thing to Temari and Kankuro – but I don’t think they even know it. It is also how he found me out in the desert so long ago. He hadn’t chased me down because he was giving himself time to think. Sakura’s warning that he couldn’t kill them without killing me had reached him – and forced him to simply stop.
“I want you to stay,” he finally says with a rough voice, looking out over the top of my head. “But I need…” he struggles for words. “You must swear to me. Don’t take away my choice again.”
“Then you have to promise not to take away mine,” I say, narrowing my eyes at him.
He brings his gaze back to mine and his eyes are clear and sincere. “I can do that.”
“Even if I choose something dangerous,” I challenge him, “Or something you don’t like? You will let me choose?”
“I swear.”
“Then I promise, too,” I say with a smile. “I will never hide something like this from you again.”
With that, he rolls me onto my back and comes over me to kiss me senseless. I drop the walls from between us, and I can feel him moan in pleasure and approval as he can feel my mind and my pleasure with his own once again. His desire is so much more powerful than he would ever give away on the surface. I can sense his past fear that he would never get to hold me like this again.
“You have to keep your promise,” I whisper as he kisses his way down my throat and begins removing my clothes. “No holding back.”
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63. Rebirth