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Fallen Angels	By : memoriesofdarkness Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male > Itachi/Sasuke Views: 3603 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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A/N: Here is chapter 6! :D
“Aniki, do you like cherry-blossom?”
“I suppose so… why?”
“Nothing!”
“Then why are you grinning otouto?”
“…”
“You know you can tell nii-san anything, right?”
“…I-I’m happy… b-because… nii-san likes what I like…”

Innocent emotions. Untainted love.
When did it become so sinful? He didn’t know.
They were sitting next to each other under the Sakura tree. In front of them was the backdoor of the main household. On their right, there was a small pond… or perhaps, there used to be. The water had dried up long ago. All that remained were the damp walls… and the darkness inside. Endless rows of trees surrounded the opposite side of the crater… marking the beginning of the forest. In the middle of those trees, there used to be a trail… now lost under years of weeds and grasses. It led straight to their family training ground. A place that used to be a refuge for the Uchiha siblings.

“Sasuke, your grip isn’t perfect yet. Here, let me show you how to throw a kunai.”
“Wow nii-san… you’re so good at this!”
“You think so?”
“Of course! You’re even better than father!”
“…”
“Nii-san…?”
“Yes…?”
“Will I be as good as you someday…?”
“Who knows otouto… maybe you’ll even surpass me.”

A place where they were never judged by anyone… never put on the spot or expected to achieve every success. Their safe haven.

“Aniki!!”
“Someone seems to be in a good mood…”
“Look what I made for you!”
“What is it?... A cake!?”
“Happy birthday nii-san!!”
“…”
“…are you not happy?”
“I… I’m very happy Sasuke. Thank you so much…”

He still remembered the times they had spent together in there… those rare smiles of his brother that were reserved only for him… all the mindless chatters and playful fights.

“Nii-san…ah-hhaha… s-stop tickling m-me!”
“But you seem to like it otouto…”
“S-someday…I’ll…hahah… tickle y-you to death!”
“Is that right? I’d like to see you try…”
“Ha-hhaaha… stop…”

“I might still be stronger than you… you know.”
“Huh?!” Sasuke was snapped from his daze. He turned his face to see his brother smirking.
“You’re looking so intently to that trail. I thought maybe you were thinking about using the training ground to fight me.”
“That’s not it!” he yelled. Then he saw his brother’s smirk widen.
“You’re making fun of me, aren’t you?” he looked away.
Itachi smiled and flicked the raven’s forehead using his index and middle finger, causing said raven to gasp. This gesture… he’d missed it so much!
“Say Sasuke… how old are you now?”
“… Twenty-eight…” he didn’t know why he blushed.
“I can’t believe after all these years you’re still my foolish little brother.”
As adorable as ever.

The younger raven glared at his nii-san’s playful remark to hide his embarrassment. How was it that such a simple comment could make his heart flutter this way?
“I was just thinking… how we used to have so much fun together…” his eyes softened.
“Yes… I remember”, the older Uchiha smiled. Then his expression became pensive. “The source of happiness sometimes becomes the cause of greater grief.”
They were silent for a while.
“Aniki…”
“Hmm…” he turned to his younger brother. His breath hitched.
Here it is again. That look in your eyes… like they’re pleading for something…

“I… I missed you…” the raven looked down.
Once again Uchiha Itachi was consumed with guilt and remorse. If only he hadn’t failed as a big brother… his otouto wouldn’t have to go through such torment. It was all his fault.
“Sasuke… I’m so sorry… for everything I’ve put you through…”
The younger Uchiha knew it was no use consoling his brother. Itachi was the kind of person to take all the blame and humiliation for himself and let others have the sweet fruit of his sacrifice. It was this side of his brother that angered him. But it was also the side that made him love him even more.
“…stay with me”, he mumbled.
“Huh?!”
“Tell me you’ll stay with me”, he said again, this time louder.
“You know I can’t…”
“I know…” he closed his eyes. “…but… just say that you will…”
Lie to me… like you always do. Lie for one last time…

“No Sasuke.”
No more lies.
“This time… I won’t pretend.”

Hearing those words he opened his eyes. How did he become so selfish? Didn’t he promise Kakashi that he wouldn’t get lost between dreams and reality?
He looked at the man next to him.
An angel sent from above…

Even after all this time… his brother was still protecting him from straying off.
My angel…

How long have I been in love with you…?

“Nii-san!”
He screamed. His body jerked upward… waking him from his slumber. He found himself breathing heavily, his whole body damp with sweat.
It’s that dream again!
When his breathing finally steadied, he got up from the makeshift bed and went out of the tent. How long had it been? The same dream over and over… he’d been having this nightmare since he left.

In my dream I see you… healthy and alive… and… smiling. We reach out to each other… and just when our hands are about to touch… you start to drift further and further away… I desperately try to move forward… but before I can reach you… you’re gone!

He hated how it disrupted his sleep every night… leaving him alone and awake. But… in his dream… for just a moment… it felt like he was alive… like he was right here. And he couldn’t stop himself from waiting for the darkest hours of night… for that was when he would come… even if just as a dream… even though everything would remain unchanged as soon as he woke up.
It had been almost a year since he left the village in search of redemption… looking around the world with a new mind… and new eyes. His eyes. It was an impractical thought for a 20 year old, but he felt like if he completed this journey of his… Itachi would somehow know… and his soul would finally get salvation. That’s why it was so important to do this by himself.
They will never understand the bond you and I share…

He thought about his comrades. Both of them were so determined and focused. They knew exactly what they wanted in life and never hesitated to put their best effort. His thoughts wandered back to himself. What did he want? What was it that he would give his everything for? What was his reason to live?
He closed his eyes and reflected on his whole life.

“Itachi… why’d you do this?”
“I will restore my clan and destroy a certain someone.”
“You have no idea how much hatred I carry for you in my heart, and just how strong I've become because of that hatred. You don't know me at all. We're just like strangers now.”
“No matter how much you use those eyes of yours, I'll use my hatred. To turn fantasy into reality! And your reality is death.”

No…!
He felt restless.

“Itachi’s life is more precious than Konoha!”
“They’re all laughing. You’re laughing at the cost of Itachi’s life… laughing together completely ignorant of everything.”
“It’s someone like him that should have been Hokage. Not someone chosen by the people, but rather one who will take that hatred without complaining.”
“When I’m with you I remember the way it used to be. I remember time spent with the brother that I looked up to… that I loved. That’s why… The closer I get to you… The more I’m able to recall what those days felt like… And the more I’m able to understand you…”
“Like I’d d-die… I…won’t…die… The reason Itachi lived for… I can’t… I won’t… let it end here!”

Slowly… a figure emerged in his thoughts. Who was it? A man…? But why was his face so blurred? He tried harder… yes… he was beginning to see. Dark hair… onyx eyes… wait, was he seeing himself? No… not himself. It was… it was…
Just before he was about to grasp who it was… he drifted off to sleep…

Where am I…?
I look around myself… but I see nothing but darkness. I start running… desperately seeking an exit… but there’s none. My knees give in. What is going on? It’s like… I’m trapped in the middle of nowhere! Then I see it… a faint glimpse of light. Hope arises in me again. I get up and sprint towards it. The light… I have to make it to the light! As I get closer… I see someone. The light was emitting from a person! My feet hurt… but I know I have to keep moving. And then… I realize it. The person… the light… it’s you!
I halt my pace. With disbelief and wonder in my eyes… I stare at you. You notice my expression and smile. Then you start walking towards me. I want to go ahead… to reach out… but my body is frozen. All I can do is look at the magnificent angel who is gradually moving forward and illuminating my world. Then… when you’re right in front of me… you stop and reach out your hand.
“Sasuke…”
You touch my cheek and stroke it with your fingers. I close my eyes. There’s nothing else in the world I wanna feel right now.
“Look at me…”
Your voice is gentle as always. But right now… it feels like there’s a hint of passion in it… passion that is trying to break free. I open my eyes to look into yours. My heartbeat increases. The depth of those eyes… the smoldering emotions open and exposed for me to see…
Your fingers curl around my jaw… pulling my face closer to yours. I comply without any hesitation. In the back of my mind, something tells me it’s not normal. But why does it feel like this is exactly how it should be? My hands act on their own… wrapping themselves around your neck. You tilt your head… and then… your lips capture mine!

What is this feeling? Your lips moving against mine… you… my older brother!
It’s supposed to feel wrong… then why does it feel so right?
It’s supposed to feel sinful… then why does it feel so pure?
I don’t even notice when my hands grip your hair to deepen the kiss… when my lips start to move in the same rhythm as yours… our bodies press closer as your hands encage me…
Never in my life have I ever felt so complete…
We gasp for air… then ravage each other’s lips again and again… why do I feel so lost every time your lips part from mine…?
I need you… I need you like the very air I’m breathing…

“Itachi…”
His eyes fluttered open. He looked around… trying to make sense of his surroundings.
Just a dream…
He touched his lips. The dream… it felt so real! He could still feel the tingling in his lips… He closed his eyes… savoring the aftertaste…

Aniki… am I in love with you…?

How long have I been in love with you…?
Even I don’t know…

He kept staring at the older man. His brother… his savior…
His reason to exist.

A desperate yearning… clawing under my skin…waiting to burst out…
A love so sinful that it will make angels fall…
Aniki… how I wish you’d love me the way I love you…

He suddenly recalled that dream he had all those years ago… the dream that made him realize his feelings for his brother. Of course… it wasn’t the only one. Soon his memory started unfolding all the wicked dreams he’d had ever since… reminding him of the shameful things they’d done to each other in those dreams… and how he’d woken up every time with a sweat coated body and a throbbing erection. He shuddered inwardly.
You must never know these hidden desires locked in my heart. I cannot taint you with my impurity. This burden… it’s mine… and mine to bear alone.

He was so absorbed in his own thoughts that he let his usual mask slip unconsciously. Emotions hidden in those midnight orbs sprang to life…
Admiration.
Fascination.
Love.
… and a hint of sadness.
You are my angel… and angels belong in heaven. So spread your wings and fly. I won’t let my tainted soul cut those wings off.
I won’t let you become a fallen angel.

Itachi noticed the look on his younger brother’s face.
Why do you still look up to me otouto?
I don’t deserve this…
He looked down… his face contorted in distress.
I don’t deserve you…

His heart clenched with regret. But his eyes remained vacant. His thoughts carried him back to the old days.
I’ve always been watching you… not that you would know.
Reminiscing memories… yeah… that was the only thing he could do right now…

Even though he’d been away from Konoha during his days with the Akatsuki, sneaking inside the village had always been an easy task. And so… he’d always been there… watching from afar…
I remember the day you graduated from the academy. I was so happy to see you… all matured and grown up. I wanted to hold you in my arms and tell you how proud I was…
…but I couldn’t.
He recalled his first encounter with Sasuke. He winced as his memory brought back the image of his younger brother… hatred burning in his eyes… pain eating away his soul…
How could I ever forgive myself… when I’m the one who caused you this much suffering? Forgiveness should not be for those who fill their lives with deception and pretense.
Vivid images and agonizing memories kept coming in a rush… flashing in front of his eyes… piercing his heart like a thousand needles…
Sasuke…
He wanted to scream.
My heart has always beaten for you…
He wanted to rip his heart out.
My eyes have always searched for you…
He wanted to gouge out his own eyes.
My skin has always burnt for your touch…
He wanted to shred every inch of his skin.

What was this feeling? He knew… he knew from the very start… but he refused to admit it to himself.
After all… how could someone admit that he was in love with his own younger brother?
He was disgusted with himself.

…………
“I was supposed to die too! You were also supposed to kill me along with both our parents. Why me? Why? Why did you spare only me!?”
“Because you didn’t know anything.”

Because I love you…
…………

All I ever did was hurt you. I took away your childhood… turned your life into a mess… filled your soul with pain and hatred. I wanted to protect you. But that’s no excuse for my sins.
And now… I realize that I’d committed the biggest sin a long time ago.
I tried… I really tried. But I couldn’t suppress it.
I’m sorry Sasuke.
But it looks like I couldn’t stop myself from falling in love with you…
A/N: In case you're wondering, the mid section was a flashback from 8 years earlier when Sasuke started his journey.
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