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Of Silver Linings and Blue Yonder	By : Sasunarufan13 Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male > Naruto/Sasuke Views: 18517 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 3
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or make any profit of it. Kishimoto owns it

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Author's note: Finally managed to finish another update for this story. This was a stressy week, sorry if this update sucks. If this doesn't have any readers anymore, I wouldn't be surprised to be honest ^^;
Thanks to the following reviewer: Deandrequin
Warnings: Kei's pov; some flashbacks; references to Naruto's miscarriage; an author who has no clue about a child's speech pattern at that age; angst
Hoping you enjoy this update would be rather morbid considering the subject ...
Chapter 52
Kei wasn't stupid. He might just be seven years old, but that didn't mean he was dumb.
He knew something was wrong when papa returned to the lake three hours later, claiming dad had just needed him for a moment. Why would dad have needed him when Uncle Deidara was the one who had called papa? Why had dad gone to their uncle if he was feeling unwell? Wouldn't it have been easier to just remain in bed? He'd been in bed still when they had left home, so why had he gone to Uncle Deidara instead?
Something was obviously not right. Even though papa allowed them to stay for an hour longer at the lake, playing with them in the water, it was clear that his mind was elsewhere. He was distracted, slow to react to anything they said to him and it put Kei on edge. Because papa had the same look in his eyes as he had had two years ago; a look which had terrified Kei back when he'd been five years old. Kenta nor Kiseki didn't remember that, because they had been barely two years old at the time, but Kei remembered. He remembered and he wished he didn't.
The flashing of red and blue lights across his bedroom ceiling was what woke up Kei. Confused he sat up, blinking tired eyes. Why were there red and blue lights across his ceiling? That didn't make any sense.
He crawled out of bed and shuffled over towards the window, pushing one part of the curtain to the side. He grew even more confused when he spotted an ambulance in front of their house. There were some people surrounding it; one of them being papa? That couldn't be papa, right? Why would papa be around an ambulance? Why was there even an ambulance in front of their house?
The man who looked like papa stepped into the ambulance which drove away immediately, still flashing its lights and now running its sirens too. Kei winced at the loud screeching sound, turning around when he started hearing the first signs of the twins fussing. They probably had been able to sleep through the light spectacle, but there was no way they would be able to sleep through all that noise. He would have to get daddy to calm them down again.
The light was on in daddy's and papa's bedroom and he perked up; he wouldn't have a hard time waking up daddy then! When he walked into the room, however, he came to an abrupt stop.
Daddy wasn't here. Papa wasn't here either. The bedsheets were rumpled, as if thrown to the side hastily, and there was an odd, large stain covering the sheets and the mattress. A stain that was quite red and scary-looking, making him clench his hands into his shirt. Was that – was that blood?
"Kei-kun? Sweetheart, what are you doing here?"
He turned around, watching Izumi hurry up the stairs. She was dressed in the uniform she always wore when she worked at the hospital. She closed the distance between them rapidly, her eyes widening when she saw what Kei had been looking at. Immediately she started ushering him to the twins' bedroom, where Kenta and Kiseki were really kicking up a fuss now, calling for daddy and papa.
"Where are daddy and papa?" Kei asked; his head oddly fuzzy and an annoying ringing noise in his ears. "Is that blood in the bed? Why is there blood? Is daddy hurt? Is papa hurt?"
She pressed her lips together, looking somewhat uncomfortable. "Your daddy is feeling a bit sick, so he is going to see a doctor now. Your papa went with him. Until they're back, I'll be here to take care of you and your little brother and sister, okay?"
Not okay, because what was wrong with daddy? Daddy never became sick, so why did he have to see a doctor now? What kind of illness would have him losing blood? That wasn't good at all, right?
No matter how much he needled at her, however, Izumi refused to tell him more. She gathered Kiseki and Kenta and brought them all to Kei's bedroom, ushering the three siblings into his bed where she read them story after story until they finally fell asleep again.
But even at just five years old, Kei noticed the look of worry on her face and he kept seeing the large red stain in his parents' bed every time he closed his eyes.
Sleep took a really long time to find him, even when surrounded by the comforting warmth of his little brother and little sister.
The daddy and papa who had returned from the hospital after that night hadn't been the same daddy and papa Kei had said goodnight to the evening before. It was as if they were wrapped up in their own bubble. Oh sure, they hadn't ignored him or Kenta or Kiseki, but their smiles hadn't reached their eyes for a really long time and they had moved around as if they had turned into robots. It would have been funny if the blank looks on their faces hadn't scared Kei so much.
"What's wrong with daddy and papa, Deidara-ji-san?" Kei implored worriedly, hovering next to the blond man as he was cutting fruit into small pieces for their afternoon snack.
It had been a week since Uncle Deidara and Uncle Itachi had started spending a lot of time at their home, several times even staying the night. Kei adored his uncles, but he wasn't stupid. He knew something was wrong and whatever was wrong had to do with how daddy and papa were acting. But nobody wanted to tell him anything! Daddy and papa brushed off his questions as if nothing was wrong – if they already acknowledged his questions to begin with, because it also often happened nowadays that they didn't seem to hear him.
Uncle Deidara paused in cutting up the apple and looked down at him. "Nothing's wrong, why do you think that?" he asked cheerfully.
Kei frowned, because even though Uncle Deidara was smiling, his smile too didn't reach his eyes. He was a little kid, but not stupid!
"I'm not stupid," he said quietly and the older man stiffened. "I know something is wrong with daddy. I saw the blood. What's wrong with daddy? Why won't he smile again? Why are he and papa acting so weird? Why are you and Itachi-ji-san here?"
"So many questions, un, you really have your daddy's lung capacity," Uncle Deidara chuffed out a chuckle, but he didn't sound happy.
He stared down at the apple slices for a little while longer before he sighed and bent down to be at eye-level with Kei.
"Look, Kei-kun, I can't tell you anything because that is up to your parents to decide, un," he said gently and clucked his tongue when Kei scowled down at the floor. "I know you're frustrated, I get it, but this isn't something I can tell you about. All I can say, is that your daddy got hurt a little while ago and he and your papa are … handling that. I know it's not fun to see them like this now, but …" He hesitated, nibbled on his lower lip. "They'll be okay soon, okay? I promise, un."
He wrapped Kei up in a hug then, but while the young boy returned the hug, all he could think of was that it had been a while since daddy had hugged him tightly.
Ever since that afternoon at the lake when papa had returned with that odd look on his face, Kei had taken to check papa's and dad's bedroom every day. It was almost compulsive by now, stopping by their room every morning and every night, checking their bed for any weird, red stains. Because both dad and papa were acting weird again, not as badly as they had acted two years ago, but not completely normal either, and that scared Kei. There was a tension clinging to the air in their home; something subtle but lingering. It was bad enough that both Kiseki and Kenta had taken notice of it too, asking Kei whether their parents were being mad at each other. They weren't mad at each other, but that was all Kei could reassure them of, because he had no idea either what was going on.
Well, he had an inkling, but … The bed never showed signs of blood, no matter how many times he checked.
"Is daddy going to die?" Kei asked, watching how papa straightened out his blanket, tugging the ends back underneath the mattress.
He hadn't really expected papa to hear his question, because nowadays it was always a guess whether either daddy or papa would hear them. Therefore he was very surprised when papa's head shot up and papa stared at him shocked.
"What? No!" he said forcefully and Kei relaxed, even as the worry in his belly wouldn't abide. "No, of course he's not going to die, why do you think that?"
Kei shrugged, feeling uncomfortable underneath papa's piercing eyes. He stared down at his blanket, squeezed the edge of it. "I saw the blood," he muttered.
From the corner of his eye he saw papa stiffen, becoming as unmoving as a statue.
"Daddy … daddy doesn't look like he always does," he continued in a small voice; feeling the treacherous sting of tears pressing against the back of his eyes. "You – you and daddy are acting really weirdly and Deidara-ji-san won't tell me anything. Is daddy sick? Is that why he won't smile anymore?"
The heavy sigh leaving papa had Kei flinching, curling up underneath the blanket. Before he could wrap himself up in a ball completely, a hand landed on his ankle on top of the blanket, halting him.
Wide-eyed, Kei watched papa sit down on his bed; a little bit of the scary blankness leaving his face for the first time in weeks.
"We haven't been fair to either of you," Papa said; the odd remark making Kei frown. "Daddy isn't sick, Kei, not in the way you think. He did get hurt a while ago, that's true."
"What happened?" Kei questioned, clenching the blanket tighter between his fingers.
"It's … complicated," Papa said slowly; his gaze shifting from the floor to Kei. "You see, daddy, he … Daddy had a baby in his belly."
Kei's eyes widened and his mouth dropped open. He was going to be a big brother again? Why hadn't they said anything? Where was his new sibling now? Was it a boy or a girl? Why hadn't he been allowed to meet them yet? Or was there something wrong with the baby? Was that why he hadn't met them yet? Were they still at the hospital? Maybe the baby was sick?
"Where is the baby now? Can I meet the baby soon? Do I have another brother or sister?" he asked rushed; excitement hacking away at the worry now. Even if the baby was sick enough that he or she had to stay at the hospital, surely they could visit them at least once, no?
"No, Kei, it's …" Another sigh. Papa rubbed his forehead. "The baby … The baby became too sick and … the baby wasn't strong enough yet to get better so now the baby is a star in heaven."
A star in heaven. All his excitement was instantly snuffed out when realisation settled in what papa was telling him. There was no baby anymore. His brother or sister - they had died and gone to heaven before Kei could even meet them. How was that fair? How come he hadn't got the chance to say goodbye to his little brother or sister? Why had they become so sick that they couldn't become better?
"I wanted to meet them," he mumbled in a small voice; his vision growing hazy as some of the tears flooded his eyes.
He was pulled into a firm hug, papa pulling him all the way from underneath the blanket to put him on his lap. "I know, Kei, I know," he said softly and rubbed his back. "I wish we could have met them too."
"Daddy is sad. That's why he isn't smiling anymore," Kei realised, digging his hands into papa's shirt.
"Yes, he is," Papa murmured and kissed the top of his head. "Daddy … he needs some time to get better. He's sad now, I'm sad, but … we'll get better, I promise. I'm sorry we made you worry so much."
Kei didn't say anything and just buried his face into papa's neck, inhaling his comforting scent.
Dad's and papa's odd behaviour didn't have to mean that this would be a repeat of two years ago. There was no blood, for one, no matter how many times Kei checked, and papa and dad weren't that far gone that they were acting like robots again. Neither Uncle Deidara nor Uncle Itachi were back to spending time at their home either. Both dad and papa acted normally towards him and Kei and Kiseki – or as normal as they could act. There was no ignoring the subtle tension clinging to the both of them even as they did their best to pretend that everything was fine, that nothing was wrong.
Kei stopped by their bedroom right before he went to wash up. No blood. No mussed sheets. No ambulance waiting outside.
He breathed out slowly and turned around to continue his way to the bedroom. Nothing was wrong so far.
The worry persisted all the way up until dad and papa gathered them together, announcing that dad was expecting a baby again. His belly was clearly rounded now, more than it had been two years ago, and the smile on dad's face was lighter than it had been in weeks.
Maybe this time he would get to meet his little brother or sister for real. Maybe this time everything would go right.
Because he didn't want another star in heaven. One such star was more than enough already.
AN2: Had to go back to those particular chapters just to figure out how old the kids were at that time. *sweatdrops* Again sorry for the delay! This year has been quite ... something already.
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I hope to see you all back in the next chapter! Please stay safe and take care of yourselves!
Cuddles
Melissa
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