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I Want to be Selfish	By : Yumichan Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male > Naruto/Sasuke Views: 2291 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter 4: Team Hawk,
Brother and Sister

Night in Uchiha compound is more
quiet, cold and lonely. There�s no sound whatsoever that could liven it. Dark
and old corridors made the Uchiha compound more
menacing to anyone. But Sasuke is not afraid about
this; he�s not afraid because he had nowhere to go. Even if he wanted to go
somewhere, this was his home, his last possession, the last he had. No matter
what he could never deny this.

Sasuke lay down in bed, sprawled
lazily. His mind trailed to anywhere. He remembered the conversations in the
hospital, or more exactly eavesdropping behind closed doors.

Flash black

He just came back from Ichiraku
from buying miso ramen, Naruto�s
favorite. He was already standing in front of the closed door while bringing the
bowl of miso ramen, but he stopped as he heard a
familiar voice.

�Naruto?�
It was Tsunade�s voice calling his teammate�s name,
but what he found weird was why it seemed worried about something. He just
assumed it must be from the dobe�s wound now. He knew
sometimes the blond could be stubborn as a rock.

�Is
this really because of Kyuubi?� Naruto�s
voice was low but still he could hear. Sasuke tensed;
he knew they must be talking about Kyuubi. Then he
heard Tsunade answer, �Yes, according to the test this
is because of Kyuubi.�

The
raven-haired man felt his heart beat faster but he kept listening first before
letting any thoughts intrude as he heard Tsunade speak
again, �Naruto, I��

�So
I�m not human, it is true then.�

Black
eyes widened impossibly; he was shocked, how could Naruto
say something like that? It seemed the blond had already given up; it�s beyond
all his belief. But then he heard Tsunade growl
angrily, �Who said that to you?�

�Kyuubi,� Naruto answered bitterly.
Listening at Naruto�s answer made Sasuke
grit his teeth angrily, growling lowly, �That damn Fox�. �

��And you agree with the fox, with that stupid
idiotic fox.�

��So who must I believe
then? And have ever you found a male like me other than jinchuuriki?
Never in a century.� Sasuke
could hear the desperation and frustration in Naruto�s
tone. From what they were talking about, he assumed that something had happened
to Naruto, and it was because of Kyuubi.
His stomach churned unpleasantly, his chest tightening, feeling to explode from
the inside

He never reacted until he heard the familiar voice of Kakashi, �Naruto, calm down.�

�How
can I calm down, tell me?� He heard hurt in Naruto�s
tone, more intense than before. �I�m not even human, how can you trust me? I�m Kyuubi, I
can just destroy and take anyone�s life. You better avoid me because I can kill
you like I did to Jiraiya, Yondaime
and the villagers.�

Midnight-black eyes widened once again as he heard more
words that pierced his heart from the Kyuubi vessel.
He was shocked that Tsunade slapped Naruto, but not hurting him like she always did. But counting
from the sound it most likely hurt.
�
�Don�t
you dare call yourself Kyuubi, and don�t ever think
that you killed any of them! Listen, your father and others died to protect Konoha, especially Jiraiya; he
wanted to protect you so he sacrificed himself. He already knew that he would
die in the process but he never complained; he felt happy that at least he could
do something useful before he died.�

Once again he felt shattered inside; it�s because he
remembered whose fault it was that made Naruto�s life
like this. Uchiha Madara. Because
of the selfishness of his ancestor, his beloved Naruto
suffered greatly. He also remembers the reason why his family was massacred by Itachi. He felt ashamed more of himself that his pride to
his family was destroyed into pieces, knowing what his family tried to do to Konoha.

Itachi, who he hated more than
himself was actually the one who loved, treasured him more than anyone else in
his family. Itachi tried to protect him even though
he was paid back with hatred, dishonor and distrust. Knowing he just had a
little time left, he protected his beloved little brother with the most of his
power; even in the end he was just paid with curses and hatred from him. Is
that not proof of him as the most tainted and bastard person, who was undeserving
of someone who was pure and deserved more than the world?

He
listened as Tsunade�s voice softened a bit. �Jiraiya loved you, not just because you�re his student but
also you�re like his grandchild. Your father also wanted to protect you and the
others; they wanted to protect Konoha and their
precious ones. You also remember when our village was attacked by Pein? Some of them died trying to protect you because you�re
a member of Konoha, a future Hokage.��

There was a moment of silence in the room before he heard Tsunade say, �Cry whatever you want but don�t forget we�ll
always be beside you.�

Then he felt crushed and torn inside as he heard sobbing
from Naruto. He trembled at the mixed emotions that
filled his brain. Between revenge for his brother to comfort his only precious
person, between from throwing everything away for sake�s revenge to run to the
blond to hug him, feeling him alive. He shut his eyes tightly, gritted his teeth
and gripped the edge of the bowl hard as he chose between two hard choices in
his mind. Revenge for his brother and letting Naruto
go in peace as he became a missing nin,
or go to Naruto now and throwing away everything he
had for his only precious one.

Letting out a breath he didn�t know he was holding, he
walked away from the room and gave the ramen to a nearby nurse who didn�t hate Naruto. He went straight home after sending a brief glance at
the hospital.

End Flashback
�
�Damn whatever you are,� muttered Sasuke
to himself.

Eyelids closed, hiding black eyes trying to sleep, but it�s
more difficult while the conversation played repeatedly in his head. So he
stared blankly at the ceiling as he weighed his mind on peace.

He snapped out from his daydreaming, sitting quickly as his
feet hit the cold floor at the feel of chakra presences outside the Uchiha mansion. Recognizing the owners of the chakras, he
stood and walked to the backyard where the presence of the chakras
were.

The sound of his feet walking reverberated through the
compound despite there being some presences outside he
didn�t know. Slow and careful steps showed how wary he was. He couldn�t afford
a spy or some ANBU or unneeded shinobi trespassing on
the Uchiha compound. As he arrived in the yard where
the presences were, Sasuke called to them, ready to
fight if they are enemy.

�Come out all of you, no need to hide,� commanded Sasuke in a hard, low and impassive tone while he masked
his expression.

Threes figures wearing black long cloaks appeared in front
of him. Their faces were hidden between hoods so to see them, their hood must
be removed. However Sasuke could sense who they are.
His body became relaxed fully.

�Report Suigetsu,� Sasuke said tersely.

The figure in the middle of all of them, not the largest and
the tallest one but also not the smallest in the group, approached Sasuke. When the figure removed his hood, Sasuke was greeted by a boring gaze from violet eyes and
the grin of razor teeth from a blue/silver-haired man.

Team Hawk, which the avenger had formed in the past for his
purpose to kill Itachi and had ordered them to
separate to gather information about issues or other info before the Uchiha massacre. The raven was intrigued about something
before the massacre. From his team, he found that ROOT, with Danzo as leader, had taken hold of the council that time.
After the Uchiha massacre several very powerful Sharingan eyes from members of the Uchiha
clan went missing without a trace.

There�s no way Danzo could implant
them like Kakashi had. He remembered from the past, Kakashi actually gets tired easily with the implanted Sharingan in his left eye. After using it usually the
scarecrow will pass out exhausted. But this is not one, but several Sharingan eyes�

He also got information about where Kakashi
got his Sharingan. What he knew was that it was from
his old teammate named Uchiha Obito.
Before he died, Obito asked to transplant his eye into
Kakashi before being crushed by a boulder.

Maybe there was some jutsu; he wouldn�t
be surprised if that kind of jutsu existed, Orochimaru also created some weird jutsus
after all.

Sasuke was eyeing, or to be exact,
glaring at Sugietsu, who was talking nonsense about
his journey, or complaining about the bitch who always
disturbed him or something like that. But before he could threaten him the
smallest of the company decided to give him a good punch, even though it was
useless as there was a loud splash, and the mist-nin
gathered his body, cursing loudly under his breath. Not that he complained, but
sometimes Suigetsu could be annoying when he wanted
to be.

�Hmp,� Suigetsu
snorted. �Karin you bitch.�

A loud screeching noise could be heard as the figure removed
the hood. A female who wore glasses glared annoyed at Suigetsu.
She had the darkest of red eyes and hair to match, but her hairstyle was
unusual. As for her physical appearance, she was slim and only came up to Sasuke�s nose at her full height, but she was well endowed
in the breast area. Nothing compared to Tsunade�s
standards though.

But she�s also the most annoying member after Suigetsu in their group because she always flirted nonstop
and attaching herself to Sasuke like Sakura does.
Thankfully, she just flirted with him while they were alone.

He turned to the last figure, ignoring their usual banter.
He wondered, in the past when he and Naruto fought, was
it also like Karin and Suigetsu too? If yes, he was
sorry to everyone who came near them, it must be annoying to them.

Sasuke turned to another figure as
well, asking, �How about you, Juugo?�

The last figure also removed his hood, revealing his true
face. He was the tallest of their group, even taller than Sasuke
himself, and had a bulky form. His hair was an orange-ish
color that was naturally slicked back and spiky, while his eyes were a gentle
earth tone color and held a kindness in them that was not seen in many during
these times of war. Yet at one point that was not so.
When Sasuke first met Juugo,
the man was going insane form split personalities. One a docile, benevolent
man, the other a bloodthirsty murderer only looking to
feed his bloodlust.

�I gathered some information from some birds I met. The
birds said that Danzo has different chakra; his chakra
is mixed with something. It looks like he also experimented on his body too,
but I don�t know about it.�

Sasuke went silent as his brain
filled with many hypotheses and plans.

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Suigetsu was pissed; why do they
still keep this bitch around? She�s just a useless bitch. He was getting more
pissed as Karin ranted at him, using her annoying ugly voice. He wanted to tear
her open!!!!!

Before he could slash her, Sasuke�s
cold voice stopped him from doing so. �Suigetsu, I
know Karin can annoy all of us. But remember we�re in Konoha.
I don�t want any bloodshed that could destroy our plan.�

First Suigetsu sulked, but then it
clicked in his mind that Sasuke also said Karin was
annoying to him too. He remembered that the red-haired woman had a crush on Sasuke, but if Sasuke said that�
Ooh, he didn�t guess why Karin�s face was red like it had gotten burned.

He flashed a toothy grin at Karin, who seemed embarrassed
even more, choosing to look down at the ground. Still smirking Suigetsu then said, �I think you will like this Sasuke. Each of the clans, they have some members who
joined ROOT. I don�t know, but I heard the two old advisors of Konoha also gave Danzo their
voice too.�

Then Suigetsu grinned ear to ear
as he said, �Maybe you will be happy with this news, some ROOT members
infiltrated Sound�s old base a few weeks ago.�

�What are they doing in there?� Sasuke
asked coolly, suppressed shock in his tone.

Suigetsu shrugged his shoulders
then answered toothily, �I don�t know. I�m not interested to know what they
stole, isn�t my concern anyway.�

Suigetsu knew that he made Sasuke scowl this time. But he just gave the raven his
special toothy grin instead, which made the raven pissed more.

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Karin growled at Sasuke�s
ignorance as he gave more attention to Suigetsu. Karin
didn�t want to lose the attention from him, and began to cut their conversation
off. �Sasuke, Madara seems
to have built a new organization again in the southern area. He brings not just
missing-nin but some clans who are still surviving. I
also heard that they took Orochimaru�s old base as a
third or maybe fourth base. �

Sasuke frowned, impassive eyes sending
chills down everyone�s spines, �Base? Then do you know where the headquarters are?�

Karin, who had been drooling at the sight of the perfectness
of Sasuke, snapped out from her daze. She shook her
head in a frustrating way since she couldn�t find anything for her Sasuke, �I don�t know; they said it�s in a hidden village,
but I�m not sure yet about the location.�

Sasuke�s gaze grew pressured
toward Karin, who shifted around uncomfortably. It seemed he compared her with
that bastard water freak. Karin changed the subject; she wanted to gain his
favor even more eagerly. �Sasuke, I heard a rumor
that before the Uchiha massacre ROOT had seemed busy;
they wandered from country to country, collecting herbs of medicine and scrolls,
and no one ever knew what they used them for. But from the list of herbs they
were collected that time��She paused a moment as she look at her companions
expressions, which had darkened and become stiff but not colder than Sasuke�s. �They performed a forbidden jutsu
on their own.�

A brief silence hung in the air before Karin continued speaking,
�What I do know is it must be connected with the Sharingan,
but I never found out what it was.�

Sasuke nodded, then walked away,
but before he closed the door and went inside his house he said, �Good job. I
will be looking for your next report. In two days I�ll meet you in our usual
place.�

All of them vanished and went to do their mission. Karin sighed as she went far away from her beloved Sasuke. She wondered when she could get free time to be
with Sasuke alone.

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Naruto is pissed and angry. First
he was shocked that Hinata knew about his cursed gift,
but to his relief she seemed okay about this, but her shy, timid, fragile and
quiet attitude changed 180 degrees to over-protective, bold, and sturdy, and
she always fussed over him like Iruka sensei always
does to him, mother hen mode. Well Iruka sensei is
not too bad, but Hinata treated him like he�s a toddler,
or more fully like her son. The embarrassing moment was when Hinata bought him pads and pills for menstruating girls;
she even bought underwear for menstruating girls. Underwear in girl colors!

He wanted to sleep or just lie down on his bed. His backache
pain and stomachache had lessened a bit. It still was not bad like the first
time. But surely it would kill him if it continues like that. He was also
disgusted when he had to clean his pad.
EWWW!!!!!

He wondered how all women could do this; he�ll never know
that. But maybe it�s because they�re women and he�s a man. He� thinking once
again if Gaara also had a situation like him; maybe
he could visit him when he has the time and ask him. He hoped Gaara wouldn�t kill him when he asked him that. Or maybe
for his safety he could ask Killer Bee. Frowning at the disturbing thought, he shook
his head; clearly he wanted to not let himself get lost in nauseating thoughts.

He sat far in a corner in the shop to avoid small contact
and hid from the hateful gazes of them. Blue eyes wandered around to the black-haired
girl, who roamed around the shop taking whatever she could reach. He actually
didn�t want to accompany Hinata, but he couldn�t
refuse her.�

But why couldn�t he refuse her? It was because of three days
ago, after his conversation with her.

Flashback

After the conversation between himself, Kakashi
and Tsunade, he rested on his bed, wanting to be left
alone. But somewhat later, he was interrupted by the sound of the door being
knocked on and a familiar voice calling for him: Hinata.

After he reluctantly let Hinata
inside, Hinata fidgeted her fingers like she always did
when she�s afraid or embarrassed to talk. Naruto
couldn�t help but pity the shy girl. He began talking first, �Sit down, Hinata-chan.�

Hinata did sit, and still it
seemed she couldn�t drop her nerves down. The silence in the room choked Naruto to death, since he hated silence with a passion. But
fortunately the air changed as Tsunade came inside.
She sent a gentle smile to them, who both greeted her.

�Oi, Bachan,
what�s up, did something happen?� Naruto joked a little,
using his usual pet name for the woman Sannin. Of
course as usual too, Tsunade rapped on the head of
the blond none too gently, which made the boy whine.

�Shut up, brat.� Naruto pouted cutely, which made Hinata
giggle at the sight, and Tsunade just smirked. Her
hands on hips, she spoke once again with a more serious and firm tone, �Brat, I
will talk to you privately with Hinata here. I need
to discuss something with you.�

Naruto and Hinata
frowned at the serious tone shown from the Hokage�s voice.
�W-what it is Tsunade-sama, you wa-want
to t-talk to u-us?� Hinata stuttered.

She stared at them intensely, which made a discomforting
sensation to them. �Naruto, before I talk to you
about it you need to know that Hinata also knows your
other secret.�

Blue and lavender eyes widened impossibly. Blue eyes glared
back at the busty woman, �Is that true?�

Chest falling as she heaved a sigh, Tsunade
nodded. �Yes, she, me, Kakashi,
and Shizune are the only ones who know about this.
But I guarantee you that we will never tell anyone. Therefore you could tell
your secret to anyone as long as you discuss it with us.�

�What I want to say is, I want Hinata
to become your personal medic-nin, and I want her to
help you in the future if one of us is not here, or Kakashi
can�t do it. So��

Before Tsunade could talk more,
she was interrupted by a loud angered voice, �WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?� Naruto pointed at her like pointing at a culprit, �You,
what do you mean I need a babysitter,
I�m capable of protecting myself alone.�

Hinata interjected gently, �Naruto calm down.� She faced the Hokage,
trying to put herself in front bravely, �I-I know what you implied for, Hokage-sama, but, but I-I think it�s Naruto�s
choice alone to, to choose himself.�

Tsunade let out a breath,
massaging her temple at an obvious headache. �It�s not like that Hinata, but we don�t know what the effect is for Naruto while he�s menstruating right now.� Unnoticed to
them Naruto blushed as he heard the word �menstruating�.
�We want to make sure it doesn�t have any fatal effects on Naruto
while Shizune and I do some research further. Because
then that way we need you to observe anything happening to him.�

�But Hokage-sama, if Naruto doesn�t want my presence I cannot deny his wish.�

�It�s okay,� came the sudden reply
from the blonde�s mouth, startling them. Anyway he was too tired now, but maybe
it�s not bad that he got company for a while; at least it will make him
comfortable, and Hinata is a quiet girl so she won�t
talk too much to him like Ino does. The truth is it�s
actually pointless to deny that old bat when she wants something; she can be
stubborn until the end. Much like he is. Maybe that�s the blonde�s curse too.

��Really?�
Hinata asked, eyes wide at
the blond.

�Of course, Hinata-chan,� assured
the blond.

From that time he and Hinata
created another bond, a bond between sister and brother or, much to Naruto�s annoyance, like big sister to his little brother
or sister.

End flashback

He let out a deep sigh as Hinata
began looking for more clothes around. All the people in the shop glared at him;
some of them dared to whisper loudly around him as usual, calling him �Demon�,
�Monster�, or whatever nicknames they�d thrown at him before. But as usual he
didn�t even give one glance at them or care for their thoughts. He knew as long
as he has someone who loved him, he was okay about that.

It was then he caught sight of a blue shirt like Sasuke had worn when they were still children. He
remembered the forgotten Uchiha. Sasuke
after that had vanished without a word, and then worse he avoided him. Well
this was proven more when Sasuke took another mission
yesterday. The blond sighed sadly. He assumed the raven knew his secret but kept
it to himself. Maybe that�s why he avoided him, too terrified and scared of
him, of his horrible curse.

Chest falling and rising shakily,
the blond held his tears in. He couldn�t cry now, he must be strong for
himself. He had enough with this, but he also had dreams to fulfill. He won�t
lose to whatever fate does to him; he will come out as the winner.

A soft and comforting hand touched his shoulder gently, making
him jolt out from his thoughts. Lavender eyes stared into blue eyes with
undeniable warm and much love to him. He trembled; he didn�t know how to react.
Hinata hugged him tightly, providing the warmth of
human touch for him, patting his back and stroking his blond head which soothed
the pain in his heart.

He sobbed shamelessly in front of Hinata.
He could hear Hinata�s sweet and beautiful voice say,
�Let�s head home. We cannot have a future Hokage cry
in front of people, can we?�

His blond head nodded as he stood wiping the tears. He let Hinata drag him out from the crowd to home. His home, the last chamber of his heart and his possessions.
��.
TBC

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