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Hidden Heartache	By : shiinechan Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 2057 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 3
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A/N: Sorry I haven�t updated in awhile. Thanks to all the people who
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Hidden Heartache

Chapter 5

Wrapped in warmth, feeling heat, that made the cold
bearable, I awoke and felt protected and cherished. Disorientated my mind
focused on the area but I was too exhausted to process the information. A voice
called out, �are you awake?� but I couldn�t find the
energy to respond before my body fell back to sleep.

Slowly consciousness returned. My body moved on instincts
towards the warmth. I started to process the situation as I felt a soft steady up
and down movement. Something wrapped around my waist holding me into place. I
focused my eyes as my mind started to process the situation. There was a body
below me and an arm wrapped securely around my waist. My heart beat faster as I
tried to recall the circumstance that lead to this situation. The person�s breath caressed and tickled my skin as parts of me started
to respond to the sensual situation. With curiosity, dread, and anticipation, I
turned towards the person�s face. Sasuke�s dark brown
eyes met mine. The throbbing in my head distorted the situation, leaving me
unbalanced. Sasuke stared into my eyes with a hard
look, forcing me to turn away from its intensity. His naked chest came into
focus. Thoughts started to run wild. Why would Sasuke
be half-naked and so close?� Didn�t these dreams stop? Then it hit me. Everything became
clear this was another dream.

Days passed since my last dream. My body craved the feel of his
hands. This time I initiated contact and closed the distance between us,
brought my mouth to his, and kissed him. At first, he didn�t
respond; then our kiss became a battle. We both wanted to dominate the other.
Our tongues fought, but I submitted to his force. The heat between us rose,
sending shivers through my body. The dreams were always intense, but this time
it was different. I needed and craved this feeling and longed to be touched and
for a brief moment in my fantasies, it happened.

The usual painful slowness of my dream lover changed to a
demanding and impatient one that mirrored my desire. He moved his body on top
of mine. Our naked erections touched and I warped my arms around him, pulling
him closer before moving my hands up to run my fingers though his hair and then
back down, touching and rubbing his back. I couldn�t
get enough of him. He bucked his hips up and rubbed against me. He placed tiny
kisses down my neck on my jaw line. I wanted and needed more. He rolled over
positioning himself on top and I spread my legs wide, so he could situate
himself as we kissed. I begged and pleaded for more. He sat up, lifted my thigh
with one hand, while his other hand started to caress my rear, and then slowly pushed
a finger inside. I gasped but he continued. Soon he placed a second finger inside.
The pleasure changed into pain. It hurt. Tears started to fall. Sasuke moved up the length of my body, positioned one leg
on his shoulder as he licked the tears away. The slow pace of his fingers
moving in and out started to become pleasurable. Then they hit a spot inside of
me, causing my body to jump up and push back down on his fingers in a desperate
hope to feel it again. Sasuke chuckled at my response,
but eagerly gave me what I wanted. One, two, three times he hit that spot,
driving me out of my mind.

Sasuke pulled his fingers out as I
whimpered at the loss. My leg moved off his shoulder and he pushed my other leg
away, spreading my thighs before rubbing our erections together. He looked down
at me smiling and moved in for a kiss. Something larger than his fingers started
to enter me. I wanted to cry out but his lips silenced me as he deepened our kiss.
He guided one hand down to caress my nipple and the other hand played with my
erection, stroking it up and down. I longed for the relief so I thrust my hips
up, trying to encourage him to stroke faster. Finally, his entire length was
inside. His warmth filled me as he stilled his body and waited for me to adjust
then slowly he started to move. I gasped as his speed increased. He hit that
spot again and I cried out with pleasure. Now the only thing that mattered was
hitting the spot again. We moved together, slamming our hips. He was completely
inside, but I wanted more. Our speed increased. Sasuke
thrust repeatedly. Again, he reached for my erection, stroking it with his
hand. All coherent thoughts disappeared, as my body tensed and exploded. �My muscles clutched Sasuke�s
length, bringing him to completion shortly after me. He shuddered above me and
a warm substance filled my insides, leaking out and down my cheeks. I panted
completely exhausted as my vision started to blur, slipping into sleep.

Sunlight seeped through the shelter�s opening, causing my
eyes to squint against the light. My body half-awake longed to slip back to
sleep. I closed my eyes. The ground was hard but the heat from another person
made the situation comfortable. Another person, I thought surprised as my mind
started to process the situation.� The
slow breathing against my neck and the feel of a heartbeat was unusual but calming.
Someone was holding me. I opened my eyes, blinking them until they adjusted to
the light. I recognized the thermal sleeping bags that kept us warm but the ice
shelter was new. How did I get here? I asked myself. �My clothes and Sasuke�s hung on a string above the small opening
that acted as a door. The remains of a small fire caught my attention and I
looked up see a small ventilation shaft for the smoke to exit. How long did it
take Sasuke to dig out an ice cave? Did he find this?
No he didn�t find it, he made it and considering his
abilities it didn�t take long. Sasuke�s musk smell
filled my senses. I tried to move from his embrace when a sharp pain shot up
from my rear. I managed to pull out enough to look at his peaceful face deep in
sleep. Then the situation replayed in my mind; our bodies snuggled together
naked under a blanket and the sharp pain in my butt. Slowly I recalled the
previous day. Ninjas chased us, I passed out, and then the vivid dream. I
froze. �Was it a dream?� I asked myself. �My hand moved to my rear and I touched the
sticky substance, proof of last night�s activities. I looked at Sasuke again. He had dried cum on his stomach. Everything
pointed to one thing: Sasuke and I had sex.

I stayed in that position for the longest time. Maybe if I didn�t move this wouldn�t be real, I thought, but my mind
kept repeating the truth. It�s not a dream. A part of
me still had trouble believing it. If dreams are wishes or our inner most
desires, then I should be happy because mine came true, but I didn�t feel anything. I was numb.

The danger and the situation forced me back to myself. Sasuke slept peacefully beside me. I reached my hand out to
touch his arm. I needed to wake him. My hand shook the closer it got to him,
but I forced it still. His skin was warm, too warm. I pressed my forehead to
his and the heat seeped through me. The feel of his skin was too hot. I looked
at him again. Sweat formed on his skin. It was cold, yet he was hot. I closed
my eyes and took a deep breath. Sasuke was burning
up.

I shook Sasuke�s body, calling his
name but there was no response. He needed help. Quickly I cleaned and dressed
us, ignoring the pain that shot up my spine every time I moved and my headache didn�t help the situation either. �It was freezing. I analyzed the situation.
There was no fire but there had been one, so that meant we weren�t
in serious danger, and Sasuke hadn�t kept watch,
which further indicated we weren�t in immediate risk or maybe he physically
couldn�t do it. No the last part didn�t make sense
even if Sasuke was half dead he would do what needed
to be done. It made sense now. Our nakedness and sharing a blanket kept us
alive; we shared our body heat with each other. Last nights memories started to
replay in my mind, but I forced them away. Now wasn�t
the time. Sasuke�s fever needed to be
dealt with and his lack of consciousness terrified me. �I had to hurry but I couldn�t
leave our blankets behind. A night without them and we would die. I stuffed the
most important things into one pack and secured it on Sasuke�s
back. I lifted him up, wrapped his arms around my neck, and carried him
piggyback style.

Sayori�s village was high up and
down slightly in a little valley according to Kakashi.
She talked about hot springs
all throughout the village and I wanted to be soaking in one now. I couldn�t say for sure this was the right direction but it
was going up. I walked all day through the snow but barely noticed the cold.
The heat from Sasuke�s body caused both fear and
comfort. Fear because his temperate was too high and comfort because his body
heat warmed me up.

The setting sun and the cooling temperature forced me to
stop. I tried to wake Sasuke again, but no response. A
part if me wanted to curl alongside him, sleep, feeling
his warmth. Walking gave me something to focus on, but now that I stopped the
hunger, tiredness, and cold started to overwhelm me. Shelter needed to be set
up, but I couldn�t move. My mind started to play
tricks on me. I heard noises and sounds not associated with nature, but they
seemed far away. Then the sounds approached, I recognized dogs and something being pulled on the snow. It�s a
sled, I thought. My body and mind reacted to the danger. If I ran, I could only
take Sasuke with me, there was no time to secure the
pack to his back, Sasuke couldn�t survive with his
high temperature in the cold without it, and I didn�t think I could either. Also could I outrun an approaching sled carrying Sasuke? No probably not, so the only thing left to do was fight,
but first I had to move away from Sasuke. I didn�t need him to become a liability. �With Sasuke hidden
behind a tree, I walked towards the sounds, drawing my weapons. This time I
would protect him.

The approaching sled would arrive before I could move a safe,
satisfying distance from Sasuke. Tears of frustration
and desperation threatened to fall. I turned to look back towards him. He was
out of sight that had to be good enough because no one would get past me. The
setting sun provided a dim light and I focused on the approaching object. As
the sled drew near, my mind started to ask questions, why would enemy ninjas
approach with so much noise? The more I thought about it the stranger the
situation seemed. �Then I heard a
familiar voice. It took me a second to connect the voice with a person. It was
Sakura.

�Sakura,� I yelled, my voice filled with a combination of
disbelief and excitement. The sled, pulled by dogs approached with Kakashi driving it.

�Naruto,� Kakashi
said, jumping out of the sled. He looked behind me then all around before he asked,
�Where�s Sasuke?�

�Oh, he�s over there.� I said, awaking from my shock.� �Kakashi, he has a
high fever and has been sleeping since last night.� I mentally cringed, thinking
about his last memories before falling into a deep sleep. No not now, I
thought, pushing the straying thoughts from my mind.

Sakura felt Sasuke�s forehead, she
listened to his chest, felt his pulse and pulled his eyelid up to examine his
eyes, before asking, �Naruto was Sasuke
hit with something?�

�Hit with something?� I asked, not completely understanding
the question.

She opened his eyelids again before speaking. �His lungs are
clear but his pupils are dilated. He�s been drugged or poisoned.�

�I don�t know.� I responded answering her previous question.
I touched my head where the dry blood matting my hair together. �I�m sorry but
I passed out. I didn�t see anything.� I said my voice near panic.

�You�ve been hurt.� Sakura stated and moved over to examine
my head. She felt under the dry blood before speaking, �It�s almost completely
healed. Kyuubi�s abilities are amazing.�

Kakashi dragged Sasuke to the sled. We followed close behind. Our top priority
was getting Sasuke to a place where the poison could be
analyzed and an antidote administered. ��We have to hurry back to the village. The
doctors should have an idea about the type of poison used,� Sakura said.

The ride was a blur as my mind started to wander and focus
on the things I did wrong: I didn�t tell anyone about my difficulties during
the journey, I couldn�t handle myself in a confrontation, I couldn�t help Sasuke or even know what happened to him, but I wouldn�t
let myself recollect sleeping with him that was too much. I crossed the line of
our friendship and the lasting results were hard to grasp. During my reflection
of the previous days, Sakura started to explain what happened after our
separation and I was grateful for the distraction. Nevertheless, my mind couldn�t comprehend everything she said.

Arriving at the hospital, Sakura took charge and rushed Sasuke inside, while I sat in the waiting area. My mind
focused on every little detail. The three long wooden benches set against the
wall with the nurse�s station down the open corridor. The walls had blue, pink
and yellow patterned wallpaper. I found each area where the pieces of paper met
and counted the sections before turning my attention up towards the fluorescent
light. The images from the past twenty-four hours replayed again. The dream
that turned out to be real and I initiated the contact. He was sick my mind
said as I recalled the heat from his body, which now seemed unusually hot. ��

�Naruto,� a voice interrupted my
thoughts. I turned my head and for the first time realized, I wasn�t alone. Kakashi was sitting next
to me. �Naruto, what�s wrong?� he asked.

I looked at him, dazed and confused. What should I say?� Should I tell him the truth? He�ll find out when Sasuke wakes up.
Will Sasuke tell him every little detail? I could
almost hear Sasuke�s voice telling the world what an
easy fuck I was and that I couldn�t get enough of it, or would he tell everyone
that I took advantage of his weaken state. �I let Sasuke
down.� I finally said.

�Naruto you were hurt. Sometimes
that happens on missions. Sasuke wouldn�t blame you,�
Kakashi responded.

�Kakashi, you don�t understand. I
let Sasuke down as a ninja and a friend. In the worse
way� I said, as my voice cracked from the near panic. I had to tell him
everything.

�I don�t understand.�

�I..� but before continuing, Sakura
came through the door.

She smiled, �everything�s fine,� she said reassuring us. �The
poison has an antidote and the village hospital already has it.�

�What kind of poison is it?� Kakashi
asked.

�It�s called pestiferous. It causes a high fever and the
person becomes delirious and irrational before sleep takes over. It takes about
twenty-four hours before the antidote completely destroys the poison, but he
will make a complete recovery,� Sakura said.

�They used a non life threatening poison because they
couldn�t risk killing me.� Sayori said, approaching
from the main corridor with a tall middle-aged man.

�We have imprisoned the group. It appears they were hoping
to use Sayori in a ransom demand,� the tall man said.

�Ransom?� Sakura asked.

�Yes one of our ninja�s fled and started a new village. He
hoped to negotiate for our secret scrolls. I�m to blame,� the man spoke. His
voice became sad, before he continued, �See Akito was
my student and felt some of our policies were wrong. He was the surviving
member of his clan and blamed another clan within the village for their
destruction, but there wasn�t anyone to blame. Sadness
consumed him before it became rage. He vocally spoke out against the village
and the lack of justice. He felt nothing would be accomplished so he left, but
not before stealing our sacred scrolls or so he thought.�

�My uncle understands all of his students and had a hunch that
he was going to do something drastic, so he changed the scrolls without telling
anyone,� Sayori added.

�It�s been twenty years since then and he hasn�t given up. I
know him and he knows me and how precious my last family member would be to
me.�

�So that�s why you requested escorts.� Sakura added.

�Holding back information is dangerous and damages our villages�
relationship.� Kakashi said.

�Kakashi there are always threats
to the village leader�s family. It�s been years since
we heard from Akito, so there was nothing concrete to
report. If I had known my niece would be in danger, I would have sent a whole
team to meet you.�

�My apologies. You�re right��

�No need for apologies. It�s been a
long day. Let�s just be grateful nobody was seriously hurt and the young ninja
in there will make a full recovery.�

�Naruto, I will show you to the
inn.� Kakashi said turning towards me.

�No I will stay here and wait.� I said noticing only Kakashi and Sakura were around to hear. Where did the
others go?

�Naruto, I know you feel bad, but
I will stay with Sasuke. You�ve
been hurt and need to rest too. You�re tired and
becoming distracted.� Go rest,� Sakura
said taking my hand.

�Come on Naruto,� lets go. Kakashi put his hands on my shoulders as he turned me
towards the door. Slowly we walked with Kakashi in
the lead.

The cold air hit me as we walked down the street. Kakashi�s slow pace forced me to walk along side him. The
silence was unsettling but I couldn�t say anything. A
part of me wanted to reassure Kakashi everything was
fine but the words stayed lodged in my throat. Guilt started to gnaw away at
me. The silence continued. My head slanted downward, with a mixture of guilt
and shame as I avoided eye contact. I wanted to disappear. How could I face Sasuke?� Tears threatened
to fall. No, I wouldn�t cry, I told myself. I was so
lost in thoughts that I didn�t notice we turned
towards the inn and tripped on the bottom step leading inside. Kakashi caught my arm and helped me regain my lost balance.
I looked up and met his eye. He looked shocked at my clumsiness and a little
concerned. Why wouldn�t he? I tripped on a step and
appeared to have no idea what was happening.

�Are you alright?� he asked.

�Yeah just tired.� I didn�t want to
talk, or maybe I couldn�t and Kakashi understood because
he didn�t press for anything more. He guided me towards my room and inside a
single bed with a heavy looking blanket, resting on top caught my attention. I
babbled on about a nice long nap followed by a hot shower before turning to say
goodbye and shutting the door. My body barely made it to the bed as my mind
replayed the previous night�s activities. I wanted to scream as I tried to stop
the memories but they wouldn�t end. Sasuke�s touch and the feel of him inside of me overwhelmed
me as the guilt and shame filled me. Tears started to fall and they wouldn�t stop. I pulled myself onto the bed and curled up. Mental
and physical exhaustion finally won out and my body fell into sleep.
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