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Crazy is Relative	By : Shaylilin Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1133 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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A/N:� Hurrah! 2 days
of sleeping has finally made me feel less like shit, and I think this chapter
at least makes sense now.
Review Responses:
Sneakyfox: Kakashi just strikes me a guy that would be a
punker.� And I really don�t want this fic
to be much about Naruto, since I promised a Gaa/Sasu fic, but I couldn�t leave
him out all together.� I think I�m going
to be using him to tie things together once in a while.
Nejislady: I�m glad you�re enjoying it.� It�s a gift for being so faithful in
reading.� I kind of figure Sasuke would
not accept a dumb person, but I like the idea of Gaara being strong enough to
keep holding himself up despite what he�s facing.� Basically, he�s been doing this forever and
now he just can�t keep doing it.� Now he
needs to have people take care of him for once.�
*can�t praise a loyal reviewer enough*

Chapter 4

Gaara sat pouting in Jiraiya�s office, except Gaara didn�t
pout.� He crossed his arms over his chest
and slouched further down in the chair.�
He was going to be put back on some medication today, but they didn�t
want to give him much.� Jiraiya had been
asking him for two days now to tell him the kinds of things the voice told him
and what his childhood had been like.�
Gaara sighed and looked out the window.

Jiraiya smiled.� He
had most of Gaara�s information in his file from his previous psychiatrist.� At six months old Gaara�s father had taken a
butcher�s knife, stood over Gaara�s crib, and slit his own throat.� Gaara had been found covered in his father�s
blood and screaming hysterically by his mother almost 6 hours later.� His father had been watching him while she
was running errands.� From that time on,
Gaara�s disposition changed.� He�d gone
from a relatively happy, good baby to a baby that demanded attention and
screamed a lot.� His sister and brother
had been visiting their grandmother at the time, in order to give his parents
some time alone with the baby.

He sighed and shook his head.� �You want to talk to me today?� I can�t put you back on any medication unless
you give me some kind of indication that you want to try to figure out the
cause of this voice.� I know you need a
little help keeping him at bay with drugs, but I like to try to make it so you
don�t have to rely on drugs for your entire life.�

Gaara frowned, but turned his head back toward Jiraiya.� �I�m fucked up, what else do you need to
know?�

Jiraiya smiled softly.�
�Gaara, I�ve got your file.� I�ve
seen the things that your mother and father have done.� I know that Temari�s been raising you for the
last three years.� But that�s not the
kind of stuff I want to know today.� I
want you to tell me about this Naruto who came with your sister and brother to
check you in.� Is he your boyfriend?�

Gaara sighed, but shook his head.� �He�s my best friend.� The only person I think is actually my
friend.�

Jiraiya smiled.�
�That�s a start.� How come you
don�t think he�s using you?� What is it
about him that makes you feel he�s truly a friend?�

Gaara smiled.� �From the first day,
despite all the rumors surrounding me when I transferred to my new school, he
was kind to me.�� His eyes lit up a
little as he spoke of the blonde.� �He
just has this way of taking care of everybody and everything.� He wants to hold people up and be their
rock.� Mostly he just doesn�t ask me to
be something I�m not.� He�s what I want
to be.�

Jiraiya cocked his head.�
�How so?�

Gaara frowned for a second before sliding back up into the
chair so he was sitting more comfortably.�
�He went through something worse than I did and he�s still eternal
sunshine.�� Gaara started to gnaw on his
bottom lip.� He didn�t think friends were
supposed to go into details about their friend�s lives.� �I can�t tell you what, because he told me in
confidence, but he is a very, very good person.�

Jiraiya smiled.�
�Okay.�� He stood up and grabbed a
pill from the counter behind his desk.�
�Here�s the thing, Gaara.� We�re
going to try this new medication with you, but I�d really like to see if we
can�t work out the root causes of your psychosis.� Is that all right with you?�

Gaara nodded.� �I just
want to get rid of the voice.� I can do
whatever you ask to do that.�

Jiraiya smiled.� �I�ll
be honest with you; most people still need medication for the rest of their
lives.� However, I�ve had success with
keeping people on minimum dosages.�� He
handed Gaara the pill and the water.

Gaara put the pill in his mouth and brought the water up,
sipping it and letting the pill slide down his throat.� You
really think this will be enough to get rid of me.� You must be one stupid fuck.� He�s just trying to control your mind with
his mind control drugs.� Gaara sighed
and closed his eyes.� �Thank you,
Jiraiya.� May I go wait for Naruto now?�

Jiraiya nodded and called Shizune into his office.� �Escort Gaara to the visitation room.� His guest is here all ready.�� Shizune smiled and nodded.� Jiraiya smiled at Gaara.� �The medication should take effect sometime
tomorrow, okay?�

Gaara nodded.� �Thanks
for everything.�

*************************************

Sasuke sat in the grass with his head on Shikamaru�s
lap.� Really, he only did it because
Shikamaru didn�t mind and it kept the stupid, rabid girls away.� Shikamaru smiled as he ran his hands through
Sasuke�s hair.� �How come you never have
any visitors?� I saw your father that
first time he came to visit, but you haven�t had anyone since.�

Sasuke shrugged.� �I
don�t really have any friends.� Most of
the people I know are only interested in me because of my name.� I�d never met anyone like you on the
outside.� And my family doesn�t want me
to be my brother, even if he�s still their favorite.�

Shikamaru scooted back against the tree a little more.� He yawned as he looked at the clouds before
turning his attention to the man who was lying on his lap.� �You�ve mentioned your brother more than
once, but you�ve never told me what happened.�

Sasuke frowned.� �You
know my last name is Uchiha.�

Shikamaru cracked an eye and looked down at the boy on his
lap while his hand continued to stroke his hair.� �Brother to Itachi, then?�� Sasuke nodded.� �I can�t begin to imagine what that�s like so
I have no plans of insulting you and pretending that I do.�

Sasuke smiled.� �You
know, Shikamaru, I�ve never had a good friend other than my cousin.� Why Itachi actually killed him is beyond me.�� Sasuke sighed.� He didn�t feel like delving into his thoughts
about his brother any more than he had.�
�What about you?� You don�t have
visitors either.�

Shikamaru smiled.� �I
used to.� My mom and dad came here every
day when I was first committed.�� He
sighed as he looked down into Sasuke�s eyes.�
�They stopped when I told them that seeing them wasn�t helping me get
better, and that they were wasting time trying to get to me every day.�� He smiled.�
�They�ll be in sometime today though.�
They always come once a week.�

Sasuke frowned.� �So,
what are you in for?�

Shikamaru sighed.�
Sasuke reached up to touch his cheek gently.� �You know you don�t have to say anything if
you don�t want to.�� He smirked.� �We could so have dated outside if you were
gay and I did relationships.�

Shikamaru laughed.�
�I�m in here because I�ve got a manic-depressive personality.� So far the only medication I�ve responded to
has caused a severe allergic reaction and I can�t take it.�� He moved his hand through Sasuke�s hair
again.� �We could never have dated,
though.� Not because I�m straight,
because that�s about the funniest thing I�ve heard in a while; I wouldn�t waste
the energy discriminating between men and women.� No, we couldn�t have dated because I don�t
like mental patients.�

Sasuke chuckled softly.�
He knew this was something to cherish, his relationship with Shikamaru
that was.� He sighed as he pulled himself
up to sit beside Shikamaru.� �Do you go
to the group therapy sessions?�

Shikamaru nodded his head.�
�It took me a good three months though.�
I�m prone to serious depression, and I hated when anyone would see me
that way.� I didn�t think anyone would be
accepting of me.� No offense, but what
Pein said was true.� Most of the people
on this floor are just rich kids with no real worries in the world.� I don�t think that about you, Sasuke.� From the start I could see you had an actual
problem.� I hope you find what you need
to get through it.�

Sasuke smiled sadly.�
�So far it�s been denial and running.�
I suppose I�ll have to look for something else now, huh?�

Shikamaru shrugged.�
�How are your individual sessions with Kakashi?�

Sasuke sighed and shrugged.�
�I don�t know.� I can�t seem to
let my guard down around him, even if I do like him.� I feel like if I put my walls down then I�m
going to break.� I built so much up
around my heart when Itachi killed � him.��
Sasuke bit his lip as tears threatened to spill down his cheeks now that
they had formed in his eyes.

Shikamaru smiled softly.�
�You let your walls down around me.�

Sasuke nodded as he wiped his eyes quickly.� �You�re so much like he was though.� You just seem to understand without having to
go through all the bullshit.� I don�t
have to say things that I don�t mean to make you happy.�

Shikamaru nodded.�
�When�s your next session?�

Sasuke stared at the ground as he felt Shikamaru�s hand start running through
his hair again.� �In a few minutes.� Can you come with me?�

Shikamaru shook his head.�
�It�s not that I don�t want to, Sasuke, but I know it�s important for
you to be able to trust Kakashi.�� He
smirked as he saw familiar faces headed towards them.� �And my parents are here.�

Sasuke turned his head in the direction Shikamaru was
looking as a man who looked like an older copy of Shikamaru and a woman with
long hair pulled back.� They seemed happy
to be here and he looked back at Shikamaru.�
�You better go say hi and whatever.�

Shikamaru shrugged.�
�You want to come with for a few minutes before you have to go to
Kakashi?�

Sasuke shrugged back.� �Whatever.�� Sasuke sighed as he sat near Shikamaru and
his parents.� They were how a family was
supposed to act.� Shikamaru�s father
brought him some letters from relatives and his mom brought him some new clothes
and music.� Sasuke sighed.� �I gotta get going.�

Shikamaru smiled and nodded.�
�You�re eating supper with us tonight, right?�

Sasuke nodded.� He turned toward
Shikamaru�s parents.� �Nice to meet
you.�� He didn�t wait for an answer
before he headed inside to find Kakashi.�
Sasuke sulked through the halls.�
He kicked his foot against Kakashi�s door to announce his presence.� He didn�t wait for a come in before just
pushing the door open.� He flopped down
in one of the chairs, sprawling his legs over one side and throwing his arms
over the other.� �Can we just pretend we
did this today?�

Kakashi chuckled on the other side of his desk.� Sasuke had been mostly avoiding all topics
related to why he was running away from home.�
�Sorry kid, as much as I�d like to, we can�t.� You need to figure out why you keep running
away.�

Sasuke pouted.� �You
know that.�

Kakashi smiled.� He�d
never tell Sasuke how adorable his pouting was, it would only be
counterproductive.� Kakashi was just
happy to have someone else on his floor with a legitimate problem.� He got tired to listening to privileged
youths telling him about how unfair their lives were.� Sasuke had something to complain about.� His family was definitely messed up and
having his only friend killed by his only brother was definitely a problem that
could make a person a little nuts.� �You
need to talk about it though.� I know the
reason, but I don�t know what was going on in your head.� You need to talk about that before we can
work on moving on.�

Sasuke sighed.� �I can�t
take the walls down.� If you want to help
me you�re going to have a find a way for that to change.� I want to trust you, but I don�t.� Shikamaru is the only person in this place I
trust and that�s because he just gets me.�

Kakashi smirked.� �I
saw the two of you looking pretty comfortable together earlier.� Are you sure you don�t feel something more
for him?�

Sasuke shook his head.�
�I kind of wish I did because I think he�d be a great boyfriend, but
no.� I don�t feel anything for him, other
than a sense of friendship.� The first I�ve
felt since his death.�

�Sasuke,� Kakashi frowned.�
If Sasuke couldn�t even say the name of the cousin he�d lost, they were
going to have trouble moving forward.� �You
need to work on saying his name, okay?�
Even if it�s not me, you have to try to say his name to someone by our
next session.�

Sasuke�s walls shot back up twice as thick.� He nodded to satisfy Kakashi, but saying his name was just something he couldn�t
do.� If he said his name, then it would
make everything real and final.� He could
pretend he was still with him if he never said his name.� Sasuke sighed as he stood and strolled from
the doctor�s office.� He sighed as he saw
a blonde with the nurse that was normally with that red headed high risk
patient being led toward his corridor.�
He shrugged and made his way back to his room.� He found Shikamaru waiting for him.� �I assumed you wouldn�t be able to drop the
walls down enough, so I grabbed one of my CDs for you.� I thought we could just nap in here.�

Sasuke smirked.� �What
about no socializing in the rooms?�

Shikamaru shrugged.� �You
tell Kakashi about us?�� Sasuke
nodded.� �Then that�s enough.� He�ll let it slide this time, if someone
finds out.�

Sasuke smiled and climbed into his bed next to
Shikamaru.� He smirked when he heard The
Misfits come on.� �I didn�t take you for
a Misfits fan.�

Shikamaru shrugged and closed his eyes as he wrapped his arms around
Sasuke.� In another life they probably
could have been more than friends, but this was enough for him now.� Besides, he�d seen the interested look Sasuke
had given that high-risker.� There was
probably a possibility for something there.

*************

Naruto smiled as Gaara and Shizune came back into the
room.� �Gaara, how have you been?�� He stood up and gave his friend a hug.

Gaara smiled a real smile.�
�I�ve been better, but I�m great now that you�re here.�

Naruto beamed.� �You
know you got the highest score on that test, and you weren�t even in class for
the information.� Sometimes you make me
so jealous.�

Gaara smirked.� �Well if
you�d stop paying so much attention to the teacher and start paying more
attention to the information, you�d be doing better.�

Naruto laughed.� �I
can�t help it that Mr. Sarutobi is so hot.�
And it should be a crime for pants to fit a body that well.�

Gaara chuckled.� Only Naruto could bring
this side of him out so easily.� �Did you
bring my homework?�

Naruto nodded and handed a book bag across the table to Gaara.� Shizune had all ready searched it for
anything that Gaara wasn�t allowed to have.�
Naruto sighed.� �I wish you were
back in school with me.� It�s lonely
without you.�

Gaara frowned.� �You
still have Izumo though.� I mean, I guess
he doesn�t get to see you much while you�re at school, but at least your dad is
there if you need him.�

Naruto snorted.� His
adoptive father, known so affectionately by most as �Zumo, was the principle of
their school.� Naruto had no choice but
to behave because his dad would shoot him otherwise.� �Whatever.�
Dad�s been so obsessed lately over this guy he�s interested in that half
the time he doesn�t even see me at home.�

Gaara sighed.� �You
know that�s not the case, Naruto.� Your
dad loves you more than anything.�

Naruto smiled.� �Yeah.� I just like to be a dick I guess.�

Gaara smirked.� �Speaking
of dick, are you still taking some from Hyuuga?�

Naruto blushed.� �Shut
up.� You know I haven�t even told him I
feel.� I�m worried about what he�ll
think.� I mean, with what his cousin did
to him, how do you even trust a person?�

Gaara frowned.� �She�s
in here.� I mean, no one told me that�s
who she is, but she looks just like Neji.�

Shizune sighed.� �You
have to keep all that information to yourselves.� We aren�t allowed to talk about other
patients, is that clear?�

Both boys nodded before Naruto burst out snickering.� �I�m sorry.�
I�m so used to getting into things I�m not supposed to get into.� This feels like being at home.�

Gaara shrugged.� �You
said that your dad has a crush.� Who is
it?�

Naruto smiled from ear to ear.� �I don�t know much.� Apparently he�s a childhood friend
though.� They went through school
together from elementary school through high school.� I do know his name is Kotetsu or something
like that.�

Gaara smirked.� �You
should bring your dad in the next time you come visit.�

Shizune nudged Gaara.�
�Stop interfering.�

Gaara sighed.� She�s out to get you.� He frowned, but chose to ignore the
voice.� His medicine should be kicking in
in the next day or so and he wasn�t going to let it ruin his time with Naruto.� �It�s not interfering if they both want it
and are too shy to say it.�

Shizune and Naruto answered at the same time, �That�s
exactly what interfering is.�

Naruto started laughing.�
�How about you, Gaa?� Find anyone
in here that you find attractive.�

Gaara snorted.� �I�m
about the most asexual person on the face of the planet.� You know how I feel about love.�

Naruto sighed.� �Yeah, I do.� I also know you�re wrong.� You�re very lovable and someday I�m going to
have to threaten to remove someone�s testicles if they even think about hurting
you.�

See he doesn�t want
you to be with someone.� He�s going to
threaten them off.� No one really cares
about you.� Gaara growled and shook
his head.� �I seriously hope these meds
kick in soon.�

Naruto frowned.� �Gaara,
I think I�m going to let you get some rest.��
He smiled and pulled Gaara into a tight hug again.� �I love you, Gaara.� You need to rest and let your medications
take effect.�� He pulled back and smiled
again at his friend.� �I�ll be back next
Friday with your homework and to talk some more.� If they let you call, you can feel free to
call me.�
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