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Of Silver Linings and Blue Yonder	By : Sasunarufan13 Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male > Naruto/Sasuke Views: 18517 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 3
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or make any profit of it. Kishimoto owns it

Chapter List
- 32
- 33
- 34
Author's note: Hey, look, this time it didn't take me a month and a half to finish it LOL So, this is a chapter that I've been anxious to write for quite a while and I figured now was a good time to do that. It's not based on a request, but quite a lot of you have been wondering about this, so yeah.
Warnings: Three different povs; angst; references to miscarriage; panic attack with hyperventilation; set in the future when the twins are four years old
I hope you'll like it!
Chapter 33
Blue eyes opened slowly and met his before a soft smile curled up the corners of the Omega's mouth. "Ready to leave?" Naruto inquired, voice thick with sleep.
"Yeah, Kiseki and Kenta are still trying to decide which books they're going to take with them, but we're as good as ready," Sasuke replied, rolling his eyes at their twins' antics. "Kei is waiting downstairs with the picnic basket." He approached the bed and knelt down on his knees, closing the distance between them to exchange a soft kiss.
His mate hummed in their kiss; his fingers running through blue black locks. "You're going to the lake near the Uchiha manor?"
"Hm, mother was thinking about joining us," the Alpha replied, pressing another kiss on slack lips. A frown creased his forehead slightly when he asked, "You're going to be okay here?"
Naruto stretched his arms; his shirt ridding up to reveal his toned stomach with the tattoo spiral stark against his skin. "I'll be okay, don't worry," he reassured the older man, rubbing his hands over his face.
"You sure?" Sasuke questioned hesitatingly, not willing to leave his mate on his own. "I can stay here; they'll understand."
"No, Sasuke, they're looking forward to this trip," Naruto pointed out and shook his head. "They've been talking about it for weeks since you proposed it. I'll be fine, I promise."
His frown deepened. "You're still feeling unwell?"
The blond man hesitated before begrudgingly nodding. "It's just a bug that's going around," he replied dismissively. "I'll be fine with some rest."
"All right, but you call me when you need me, okay?" Sasuke said; all of his Alpha instincts demanding he stayed home to take care of his sick mate. It took him a lot of effort to rise up and not simply slide back into the bed with his husband. "You call and I'll come home."
"I know you will," Naruto smiled amused, giving the hand closest to him a quick squeeze. "Now stop worrying; you're supposed to enjoy your day off with our children," he chided him.
"I'd enjoy it more if you would be feeling better," Sasuke retorted; the corners of his mouth pulled down.
Blue eyes softened. "I'll be fine soon, I promise."
"Daddy? Papa?"
They both turned their heads around and saw Kiseki hovering in the doorway; her twin brother lingering behind her with a frown on his face.
"Still sick, daddy?" she inquired disappointed, taking a step forwards.
"Yeah, sweetheart. Sorry, but I'm not going with you to the lake today," Naruto smiled apologetically, beckoning his children closer. "But you're going to have a lot of fun with papa, I promise!"
"But I wanted you there too," Kenta mumbled, clambering on the bed with the help of the older Alpha.
Naruto sighed and reached out with his hand to caress his hair back; his other hand stroking Kiseki's cheek. "I know, Kenta, but it's better if I rest today. We'll play together tomorrow, okay?"
The four year old nodded reluctantly, shuffling closer so he could hug his dad. He had barely loosened his hold before Kiseki was hugging the blond man, rubbing her cheek against his shoulder.
"We'll be good, daddy," she promised, pulling back from his embrace.
He chuckled. "Good, that's what I like to hear."
"Dad? You're not coming with us?" Kei appeared in the doorway; a frown marring his forehead.
"No, Kei, I'm not feeling too well. But papa is going with you and grandma says she'll be joining you," Naruto replied, offering his oldest son a small smile.
"I said she was thinking about it," Sasuke corrected him.
Blue eyes rolled. "Yeah, as if she's going to let a chance to spend the day with her grandchildren slip through her fingers," he scoffed, sinking deeper into his pillow.
A reluctant smile pulled at the corners of Sasuke's mouth and he inclined his head. Naruto was right of course; mother would most likely be already at the lake, waiting impatiently for them to show up.
"We'll see you soon," Sasuke murmured and let his hand support his weight as he bent down for another kiss.
"We'll be back soon, dad," Kei said and darted over to give the Omega a hug before he followed his siblings and his papa out of the bedroom.
"All right, does everyone have something to entertain themselves with while we drive to the lake?" Sasuke asked, picking up the picnic basket from the floor.
Kei held up his white Nintendo DS. "I've got my game," he grinned.
"Picture book," Kiseki smiled cheerfully and Kenta nodded, pressing his own book tighter against his chest.
After checking he had both their lunch and sunscreen with him, he made sure they put on their caps and then led them outside to buckle them into their car seats. A brief scuffle ensued between Kiseki and Kenta as to who would be allowed to sit in the middle.
"Kenta, you can sit in the middle for now and when we go back, it's Kiseki's turn, okay?" Sasuke suggested, ignoring the way the sun pricked the back of his neck.
Kiseki pouted, but relented and allowed her brother to get into the car first.
The first potential drama was subdued. Success.
Sasuke had been a tad worried that the hour long drive would be too much for the three children and they would start becoming annoyed – especially now that Naruto wasn't with them – but surprisingly they behaved very well. The only noises he heard in the back of the car was the rustling of pages and the rhythmic 'tap, tap, click, click' of Kei playing on his Nintendo DS, accompanied by the soft music coming from the radio.
When Sasuke went to park in the shade of a large tree with branches hanging nearly on the ground, he noticed his mother already lingering at the beginning of the path leading to the lake and he shook his head with a fond smile.
The twins had barely their belts unbuckled before they rushed out of their seats and out of the car, right into their grandmother's waiting arms.
"Grandma!" Kiseki yelled elated, shrieking when Mikoto picked her up and swung her around in a circle once before doing the same with Kenta.
Kei followed next to Sasuke at a more sedate pace, but even the seven year old had a large, bright grin on his face as he greeted the older woman.
"It's so good to see you again," Mikoto sighed happily, pressing a kiss on their foreheads. She turned towards her youngest son and smiled warmly before kissing his cheek. "Glad you took some time off, sweetheart. Where's Naruto-kun?"
"He's not feeling well, so he's resting at home," Sasuke informed her and a brief grimace flitted across her face before she smiled again and turned towards her grandchildren.
"Okay, who wants to go swimming?" she questioned, clapping her hands. A soft breeze made her dark locks mixed with some grey strands flutter and she adjusted her hat.
"ME!" Kiseki and Kenta yelled at the same time and then they were off, racing towards the lake, Kei right behind them, with Mikoto and Sasuke following closely.
The twins and Kei endured getting sunscreen rubbed into their skin, but the moment both adults removed their hands and took a step back, they shot away, straight to the lake where they splashed into the cool water.
A smile lingering on his lips, Sasuke removed his shirt and followed his children into the water; the cold liquid a shock when it hit his warm skin.
Mikoto had brought some beach balls with her and soon they were all playing in the shallow water, throwing the balls to each other and trying to knock each other off balance. The air was filled with shrieks and laughter and water splashing around and a pang of regret went through the Alpha at the thought that Naruto had to miss this moment.
Hopefully by the time they returned home, the Omega would be feeling better and they could come out to the lake again later this week.
After a while Sasuke left the water and sank down underneath the shadow of a tree, letting the towel underneath his arse soak up the water. Cracking open a bottle of water, he took a swig of it and watched amused how Kiseki jumped up and down in delight after hitting Kenta with a beach ball before toppling over in the water herself.
Dark eyes shifted and looked to the right when a small body plopped down next to him.
"Kei," Sasuke said surprised and furrowed his eyebrows when he noticed the odd look on his son's face. "Something wrong?"
Small fingers started pulling at some grass strands and the young boy bit down on his lower lip. Looking up shyly through his eyelashes, he asked softly, "Is dad – is he sick like before? Like two years ago?"
Sasuke's breath hitched and all of a sudden it felt like his lungs were being crushed as memories from that horrible time crashed into his mind. The pure agony he had felt … The tears, the crying he and Naruto had done …The blood …
Sucking in a deep breath, he forced himself to stop thinking about it. He wasn't about to let those memories taint his day with his children. He placed an arm around Kei and pulled him against him.
"No, Kei, he isn't sick like that," he murmured and swallowed; eyes stinging with heat. "It's just a bug going around, that's all. Your dad will be fine soon."
"Okay, I'm glad," Kei said softly and offered the Alpha a small smile.
Sasuke returned the smile before gazing at the lake again, where his twins were currently splashing their grandmother with water.
Naruto would be fine. It was not like a bug would keep him down for long. He had survived worse after all.
Cerulean blue eyes stared blankly at the ceiling as the owner of them listened to the voices of his family drifting to him from downstairs. After a couple of minutes the front door opened and closed again, leaving a sudden silence to descend upon the house. Another five minutes and there was the soft rumble of a car starting and driving off.
Slowly Naruto sat up and rubbed a hand over his face; his hand hovering over his mouth as his stomach churned slightly. He waited a moment, but the urge to throw up passed and he breathed out slowly.
The sheet slipped off his body as he swung his legs off the bed and he stood up, absentmindedly noting that he'd need to open the windows to avoid the room becoming too stuffy.
Silently feet padded towards the bathroom and the 'click' of the door falling shut behind him seemed to echo throughout the room.
Wide blue eyes stared back at him in the mirror; the bags underneath them stood out starkly against his sickly pale skin and he chuckled ruefully. No wonder Sasuke had been reluctant to leave him alone if he looked like this.
But he needed to be alone for now. He couldn't do this with Sasuke nearby. Not after …
Roughly he shook his head and stood with his head lowered and his hands clenching the sides of the sink for a while, feeling the coldness of the material seeping into his skin.
Then he straightened up and took a deep breath.
It was time.
"Didn't I already tell her to change that scene, un?" Deidara clucked his tongue annoyed, highlighting the paragraph in red. What was the point in requesting his help if she wouldn't listen to his advice at all?
Casting a quick glance at the clock, he noticed he had around three hours left before he would have to go pick up Shion from his playdate. Akihito had gone to one of his friends for the day and would go home on his own after they had watched a movie.
Three hours was more than enough time to finish looking through the document and sending it back to his client with strict instructions to change the highlighted scenes. Hopefully this time she would actually listen.
The front door opening pulled him out of his editing and he blinked, listening to the footsteps making their way to the kitchen. What was he doing here?
Standing up, he walked to the door and leant out of the doorway, calling downstairs, "Naruto-kun? I'm upstairs."
He had given Naruto a key of the house some years ago, but the blond man barely made use of it. He also tended to call or at least sent a text that he would be coming over and the fact that he hadn't done that and had actually made use of his key made Deidara still and he furrowed his eyebrows. Something was wrong, that much he was certain of.
The staircase creaked a bit when the younger Omega made his way up and Deidara stepped out into the hallway, instantly alert when he caught sight of how his best friend looked like.
He looked like shit, plain and simple; no beating around the bush about it. There were heavy bags underneath his eyes and he looked incredibly pale, swaying lightly back and forth. An odd look was plastered across his face and Deidara took a cautious step forwards.
"Naruto-kun? Is everything okay, un?" he questioned and then his attention was pulled by the small, plastic bag clenched in Naruto's fist. "I didn't know you were coming over."
Naruto blinked and shook his head, looking like he had just snapped out of a daze and Deidara's concern only grew. He took a few steps closer.
"What's wrong?"
The younger Omega thrusted out the small bag and his hand was trembling visibly. "Check them," Naruto rasped out. "I didn't – I couldn't look at them. Not after – I can't. So – please. Can you – can you look at them?"
Feeling incredibly alarmed and wondering whether he should call Sasuke, Deidara accepted the bag apprehensively and opened it. It took a few seconds for his brain to compute what he was looking at and his head shot up, staring at the blond man in shock.
"Naruto-kun, this is - "
"Please. I can't. I didn't …" Naruto shook his head again, his voice cutting off as he wrapped his arms around him.
Carefully Deidara extracted each stick and studied the little screen intently. There were four sticks in total and all of them displayed the same result. Whether it was a result Naruto would want to hear or not …
The older man took a deep breath and raised his head, taking in the sight of his best friend standing in front of him, impossibly pale and looking incredibly young and small. Wetting his lips, Deidara dropped the sticks back into the bag, feeling unsettled.
"Naruto-kun, they're … positive. All four of them, un," he said softly and then rushed forwards, dropping the bag on the floor, when Naruto simply collapsed, heavy tears streaming down his face as he clapped a hand in front of his mouth.
"Th-they c-can't. It – it ca-can't be," he stammered, breathing harsh and quick, staring at Deidara with full blown panic.
Deidara sank down in front of him and grasped his hands tightly, pulling them down to his lap. "I'm not lying, un," he said, casting a quick glance at the bag. "They're all positive."
"Oh god," Naruto groaned and a hysterical chuckle bubbled out of him; his shoulders shaking. He became even paler – a feat Deidara hadn't thought was possible – and his breathing sharpened and quickened, too fast to be healthy and Deidara swore loudly when he realised that Naruto had started hyperventilating.
"Naruto-kun, I need you to calm down, okay, un?" he spoke firmly, locking his eyes onto cerulean blue ones. "I need you listen to me and follow what I do, okay? Breathe with me. Breathe in, hold it, one, two, three, breathe out. Breathe in, un, hold it, one, two, three, breathe out."
He kept repeating his instructions and for a moment he feared that Naruto was too far gone to listen to him and would pass out. His hand was already going to his pocket to dial the emergency number when Naruto took a halting deep breath and then let a shuddering one out. His eyes lost some of its panic and focused clearer on the other Omega; his fingers curling around Deidara's.
"That's it, un," Deidara smiled encouragingly and breathed in slowly, watching how Naruto followed him. He held his breath for a few seconds, the younger man doing the same, and then let it out slowly. "That's it, you're doing great, Naruto-kun. Just keep going, un."
He didn't know how long they sat there on the floor in the hallway, matching their breathing pattern, but eventually Naruto slumped forwards and retracted his hand from Deidara's, rubbing over his forehead.
"Fuck, I'm a mess," he groaned and bit his lip.
"You feeling better?" Deidara asked cautiously, leaning back a bit.
"I guess," Naruto muttered, not sounding very convincingly, and his gaze flitted to the bag. He closed his eyes for a moment and rubbed more firmly over his face. "I can't believe – I didn't dare to look at them."
"I didn't know you were trying again," Deidara remarked carefully.
"We're not. Not – not after last time." Naruto took another shuddering breath, rubbing his hands together.
Blond eyebrows furrowed. "Then how - "
Naruto chuckled humourlessly. "I couldn't look at the tests, but I did take a look at my suppressants. Here, look." His hand slipped into the pocket of his jeans and when he opened his hand next, there were a couple of pills lying in the middle of his palm.
Deidara took one of the pills and held it up in the air, studying it carefully. At first he didn't notice anything amiss; it looked exactly like the pill he was taking until he flipped it around.
"Shit, this is - "
Naruto nodded, having seen comprehension dawning upon the older Omega. "I didn't notice it when I picked them up at the pharmacy, but they gave me the wrong ones. These are too light. I've been taking them for a few months now."
Because all suppressants were put in the same type of bottle, it was an easy mistake to make for the pharmacy to fill the bottle with the wrong type of suppressants. Mistakes like that weren't allowed to be made, considering the risks, but they happened – Naruto was the proof of that.
"I've been feeling off for weeks now, you know?" Naruto went on, his voice smaller, and he looked away; a look of utter misery painted on his face. "But I kept telling myself it was just a bug, a cold that dragged on. But then I kept feeling nauseous in the morning, sometimes throwing up and … I thought. I didn't believe it. I couldn't believe it. Not after … But I went out and bought those tests just to shut up that nagging feeling." He swallowed loudly.
"Does Sasuke-kun know about these tests, un?" Deidara inquired, but he already knew the answer to his question. If his brother-in-law had known about this, Naruto wouldn't be here, but at home and Itachi might have got a call about it.
Naruto licked his lips and shook his head. "No, I didn't … want to tell him. I – didn't want to get his hopes up when it turned out that it's just a cold. I don't – I don't know what to do, Deidara-kun." When he looked at Deidara, his eyes shone with unshed tears.
"Naruto-kun …"
"What if – what if it's going to be like last time? We thought we had succeeded and then … I can't go through that again, Deidara-kun, I can't! I can't do that to Sasuke; it nearly destroyed us!" Naruto choked out, pressing his right fist against his mouth; tears dripping down his cheeks. "I don't want to lose another baby. I can't go through that pain again!"
His heart aching for his best friend, Deidara shuffled forwards and drew Naruto in his arms, pressing their cheeks together.
"It's going to be okay, un," he whispered and let Naruto shake and sob against his shoulder, rubbing soothing circles over his back.
Naruto's miscarriage two years ago had hit the entire family hard. Naruto and Sasuke had been so ecstatic when they had announced at a family gathering that they were expecting their fourth baby, particularly because they hadn't been certain whether Naruto would ever be able to carry another child.
Shortly after Kiseki's and Kenta's birth, Naruto had confided into Deidara what Kakashi had told them. The twins' birth had been complicated and the Omega had a reduced chance of becoming pregnant again. Despite the odds against them, Sasuke and Naruto had tried for a fourth child two years ago and after a couple of months of trying they had succeeded. The whole family had been happy, Mikoto and Fugaku being the most obvious about it, and for the first couple of months everything had gone great.
Naruto had been fourteen weeks pregnant when he miscarried.
Deidara didn't think he would ever forget the look of utter and deep, indescribable pain on Naruto's and Sasuke's faces, nor the way they had walked around like zombies for weeks on end. At one point, and it was something that still had fear crawling up inside of him whenever he thought about it, they had feared that either one of them would do something to the point of no return. He and Itachi had spent many a night at Sasuke's and Naruto's place to keep an eye on them and help take care of the children while their parents tried to heal from the loss they had suffered.
Now Naruto was expecting a baby once more; a completely unexpected baby, something they had given up on after their loss two years ago.
If they lost this baby too …
Don't think like that, Deidara scolded himself, tightening his embrace. They couldn't think like that, couldn't live in fear that this baby wouldn't survive either.
"It's going to be all right, Naruto-kun, you'll see," he murmured.
All he got as reply was hands tightening in his shirt.
They eventually relocated to the bedroom, because that room was closest to them. Deidara sat there, offering his silent support, until Naruto's grip on his hand slackened and his breathing evened out.
He had fallen asleep.
Cobalt blue eyes regarded the sleeping form of the blond man softly before Deidara rose up, taking care not to jostle his friend too much. After leaving a glass of water behind on the nightstand, he left the room and walked downstairs. He looked at the clock; he had around half an hour left before he would need to leave to pick up Shion.
First he needed to do something else.
The other man picked up almost immediately. "Yes?"
A sense of déjà vu filled him as Deidara said, "Sasuke-kun, I need you to come to my place. You and Naruto-kun need to discuss something very important."
AN2: A lot of you have been wondering whether Naruto would manage to become pregnant again, so I figured it was time I wrote a chapter in response to that.
I think I have tagged the most important warnings for this chapter, but if you think I missed a warning, please let me know.
Please leave your thoughts behind in a review; should you spot any mistake, please point them out to me.
I hope to see you all back in the next chapter!
Cuddles
Melissa
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