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Love Me When I'm Gone	By : KittenCobra Category: Naruto > Het - Male/Female Views: 1971 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto (the manga or anime) or any of the characters included within it. I only own the original characters in this story including the main character Utako Mizuke. I do not make any form of profit off of this story.

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27. Apology
As I walk out the back door of the restaurant, I hear Shikamaru’s lazy voice call from behind me.
“You’re not even going to give a guy a chance to apologize?” He sighs, and then mutters, “Troublesome woman...”
I spin to face him, still angry and hurt. “You have a lot of nerve. And You!” I shout at Naruto. “What is this? Punishment for misbehaving while your best friend is away?” Naruto looks both guilty and angry at my accusation.
“That’s not it!” he shouts. “I don’t like your new job, but this has nothing to do with that! He really wants to apologize… and I think you should hear him out.”
“Look,” Shikamaru says, sighing and looking up at the stars. “I’m sorry I said what I did okay. It was… cruel. I didn’t believe you when you said you weren’t reading my mind, and… I guess I was trying to get you to give yourself away.”
“Well, now don’t you just feel like an ass,” I scoff.
“Yeah,” he says quietly. “If Temari were here, she would kick my ass for sure. She… she really seems to like you.”
“Well, I like her,” I retort, still angry. “She is an awesome… friend. She deserves a good man.” I had wanted to call her my sister, but that would imply a relationship that no longer exists. I narrow my eyes at him. He is obviously not my first choice for her.
“Come on.” He would sound like he was begging if he weren’t so lazy about it. “What do I have to do to fix this? She’ll kill me if she finds out why you’re mad!”
“Grovel.” I cross my arms over my chest and toss my nose in the air for effect.
“What?” He looks shocked.
“You heard me! I said grovel, damnit!”
Naruto suddenly looks like he’s going to die of asphyxia from holding his breath – trying not to laugh. Shikamaru looks into the night sky as if to say, Why me? He then gets down on his knees with his hands still in his pockets, and drops his gaze to the pavement.
“I swear,” he says firmly but sarcastically. “Oh goddess of the desert… I am sorry.”
I try so hard not to laugh, but Naruto and I both burst into hysterics. Naruto is holding his sides and rolling on the ground. I plop down on my behind and wipe a tear from the corner of my eye. Shikamaru leans back, still on his knees, with a cocky smile.
“Well…” I say, trying to sound calm. “That… that must have been difficult for you. But you know the best part?”
“What?” He suddenly looks worried.
“I can show that to Temari the next time I see her!” I burst out laughing again, holding my own sides now.
“Oh shit,” he mumbles. “Damn troublesome…”
“Hey.” I say, more serious now. “I forgive you. Just please… don’t do anything like that again okay? I swear… I won’t read your thoughts unless you tell me to, or I need to – like danger or something. Okay?”
“Sure.” We all sit on the pavement for a few moments, letting the rest of our laughter die down. “Hey,” he suddenly asks again, “What exactly happened? Seriously. One minute, everyone was hoping and waiting for you to get better… the next, they all split like a tsunami was coming… and you’re still here. Temari hasn’t sent word once since she left, and she looked pissed.”
“I don’t know anything other than what Gaara told me,” I admit sadly. “I kinda decided to black out after that. When I woke back up… Naruto was carrying me to my new apartment.”
“Why did you want to just pass out like that?” Shikamaru asks cautiously.
“Gaara said that he was sorry for hurting me more – and that he no longer wanted me. He wanted me to stay here and live under the guard of the Hokage. He said he would pay for everything – like he has. I think he felt guilty for leaving me the way he did… but I didn’t look into his thoughts. I try not to invade his privacy that way. He is a very private person… and I honestly don’t think I could have lived through feeling that he truly didn’t love me anymore. When I lost the baby… I lost them both.” I can feel the hollowness returning to my face and voice.
Naruto is now staring at me in blatant shock, and Shikamaru looks skeptical. He has his hands clasped in front of him with only his fingers touching together.
“What exactly did Gaara say?” Shikamaru says, staring at the ground. “What words exactly?”
I sigh. “It would be easier to just show you, but you should know it causes some emotional transference.”
“Yeah, I remember that,” he says shuddering slightly. “Go ahead.” Naruto nods also.
I dredge up the horrible memory for them and choke back a quiet sob as it ends. They both have tears forming in their eyes, but work very hard not to shed them. Shikamaru still looks deep in thought. Naruto looks crushed.
“I can’t…” Naruto whispers. “I can’t believe he said that. That makes no sense…”
“It doesn’t matter, Naruto.” I say, standing up and brushing off my clothes. “I will not force myself where I am not wanted.”
“I have a question,” Shikamaru pipes in, staring at me intently with his hands still oddly placed. “You still love him… don’t you? Even after that?”
“Yes, I…” my breath catches in my throat at the ache in my chest. “I will always love him Shikamaru. He is a good man. He just… It’s not his fault he can’t love me anymore. Losing the baby was too hard. I was so badly hurt, and I reacted so badly to the news… It’s probably just too painful for him now.” I shuffle my feet and sniff back my tears. I turn my face to the moon and try letting them drain down my ducts. “And that’s okay. I want him to be happy. He tries so hard to be a great leader to his people. He has had such a hard life. He is so kind and loving… He deserves to be happy. Not to be weighted down by his guilt over me.”
I turn away and walk home alone, leaving them there in the street to their own thoughts. After arriving, I curl up beneath my blankets and once again cry myself softly to sleep.
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27. Apology