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If Only He Liked Me As Much As His Dog	By : IHeartYaoi91 Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 2214 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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took Akamaru to the vet. The seconds seemed to pass by like hours every bit of time I was running to the vet with him in my arms. Once I got there I freaked out and tried to calm myself as I talked to the front desk lady. She took my snow white furred pup to the back with great haste. I was sitting there nervously as I try to calm myself. It was only a simple fall and that is a strong dog. But I feel like shit. Not only cause of Aki but apon reflection of how I treated Naruto... It was just not right. I mean I was a dick to him and he was not trying to hurt my boy. It was a honest accident. But that is not all. I... I just been weird around Naruto and I knew this. Just this weekend... Fuck this weekend. It screwed me up!
I herd the door swing open as I look up and see the Vet holding my snow white fur dog in his arms. "Inuzuka Kiba?" I launched to my feet and ran to the vet as fast as I could waiting to hear how Aki was. "We expect a full recovery with in a week. Just make sure he stays off his feet and give him some medical cream we have in the back and he will be good as new. He was very cooperative and nice. You trained him well." I was over the hills happy. I took my dog in my arms and started to tear up. I pet his head as I whisper softly "Im sorry Aki. Its... Its all my fault. I should of thought of you before I pushed Naruto. I did not want to hurt you boy." Akamaru looked up at me with a smile as he rolled onto his back wagging his tail as to tell me not to worry about it. "Thanks boy." I wiped the tears off my face and got the medical cream and put it in my coat pocket. I walked out of the veterinarian's office with my companion in my coat with his head hanging out. I pet his head and sat down on a near by bench as I talked to my beloved pet as I pet his head while I talked. "Ya know Aki. I think... I was mean to Naruto wasnt I? In fact I call myself an out right ass. Should I go talk to him? You think I should? Or he be to mad to talk to me right now?" I looked down as my buddy turned around looked up at me with the same smile he had before giving a bark that was accepting and joyful. "Heh. Ok ok. Im going." I stood up and I made my way to the blonds apartment
I made my way up to the apartment complex and went to the knuckleheads room. I put my fist up to the door gently. But I noticed something when I did before I was gonna knock. This door seemed... soft. Not like how a door that was closed or locked would be, in fact I pushed it slightly and the door flung open. When it did my stomach dropped. Everything happened in slow motion. I saw Naruto take a kunine kinfe and thrust in forward stabbing himself. My eyes widened in horror. So many questions raced through my head with in one second. Why was Naruto stabbing himself? Am I the reason? Did I do this to him? Did he kill himself? Was that his intent? If it was he successful? So many thoughts at once. So many things bothering me. But I could not think of that now. I ran in the apartment building. I saw Naruto fall backwards and his eyes was closed. "NARUTO! IF YOU CAN HEAR ME SPEAK TO ME!" DAMN IT! He is silent. I have to check his pulse... Please dont be dead. PLEASE don't be dead... Oh thank Kami. I feel a pulse. But its weak. I have to get him to the hospital. I picked him up with the kunine knife still inside him. That thing was lodged in so deep I was not about to mess with it for one second. It was raining outside. The black clouds hanging over head. I ran outside as fast as I could dashing to get my friend Naruto help. Good god first Akimaru now Naruto? What the hell is wrong with today?
Once in the hospital I screamed at the lady in the front desk "MY FRIEND HAS GOTTEN STABBED! PLEASE HELP HIM!" The lady did not waste a single moment. She sprung up faster then I could see and she ran and got a doctor with a stretcher to put him on. I ran with the doctors as they rushed to take him to the operating room. We were at the doors as the doctor stopped me from going in "Son we cant let you in." I felt like someone pushed against a brick wall hard "B..But he is my friend. I have to be with him." "Son I am sorry but only the surgeons can be back there." I felt like I was gonna explode inside. "DUDE HE IS MY FUCKING BEST FRIEND AND MY BEST RIVAL I HAVE TO MAKE SURE HE IS ALRIGHT!" The doctor took me gently and guided me to a seat "Son I promise we will update you. We are not going to let you be in the dark. Now please sit down and calm down. You will only make things worse at this rate." At this time this was all I can get. I gave the doctor a nod as he went in and they started to work on my best friend.
In the waiting room I was all alone. That small lifeless waiting room. Waiting to hear about him. I took out Aki to put the cream on his legs and let him lay down on his back on the chair next to me. Now I had time to pick apart every thought I had.
'Was Naruto depressed? If he was why didn't I realize it? Some friend I am. I could never forgive if I did that to him. If he... No. I cant. I wont think like that. He has to make it. He just has to. God why did I have to act like that? Why did I not just tell him the truth? That I was scared. I was growing more fond of Naruto by the day. I saw him in ways I never saw anyone before. Why didnt I tell him I liked him instead of acting like a jerk and a pervert? Kami Please. Let him live. If he does... If he does I will confess. I will tell him everything. I just need the right time but I will tell him I want him at night when I feel all alone in my bed and I hug a teddy bear thinking its him. I will tell him I want to kiss him every time I see that orange suited body in front of me. If that is what you want of me then I will do it. Just please don't take him from me'
As soon as I finished my mental prayer a tear fell down my face. I wiped my face trying to dry it but as it is this was no use. I never liked hospitals as it was. I felt like I could die in this moment. My best friend and the one I wanted were in there and I could do nothing to help him. Why me?

I sit in the waiting room so unsure of the fate of my friend and loved one. It has been a good hour since I heard anything. It felt like an eternity. I had reassuring upbeat soft ruffs from Aki as his way of telling me everything would be ok. It took the tension off some every now and then.
I can't stop thinking about what is going on in that operating room. On one hand he had to be getting good treatment. I am the only one in the room as well as Akamaru of course. So all the best doctors here had to be working on him, But... What if he had a wound that was to fatal? What if this was the end for him? How would I go on? Even if I could not have him I still want him as my friend... Naruto why did you do this? Why can't you have talked to me about your issues? Why this path? Damn it. I feel the tears in my eyes ready to drop. I will not cry. That is weakness and it is stupid. Real men don't cry! Real...Men...damn it.
I shut my eyes tightly as a last ditch effort to stop my eyes from leaking but I was far too late. I hugged my dog companion after he licked my tears off my face trying to make me feel better I would assume. I hear the door creak open. My eyes shot open as it took my vision a moment to adjust to see that the doctor was standing there. "Kiba Inuzuka?" I sprung open running to the doctor not even caring I was crying at this point. "DOCTOR PLEASE... TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON? IS HE ALRIGHT? WILL HE BE OK? I NEED TO KNOW!"
I could tell the doctor was taken aback by my loud and passion filled words. He took his hands and put them on my solders. "Son. Please calm down. Sit down and let's talk." I nodded and sat down in one of the waiting room chairs and the surgeon followed me. "Naruto's heart was damaged very deeply. It was almost in two when you brought him in. The knife was the only thing keeping it together, but I am glad to report we have gotten his heart to stay active. It is amazing he is alive and if you did not bring him when you did he would not be alive right now. He is hooked up to a new machine. It's called a life protector. Naruto will need to stay on this machine till he is a hundred percent but he will definitely live."
I put my hands to my face not able to think or speak or do anything almost as if I was a vegetable. My worst fears were unanswered and it seemed Kami heard my prayers. Now, I had to hold up my end of the deal. "Doctor please I must see him! It is important I see him!" The doctor showed me a face I did not like and that made him look hideous. "My boy I am sorry but now isn't a good time." I did not understand at all and got my bad feeling back and speaking like I was on speed "What! I don't understand. You said he was fine and he was going to live. Why can't I see him? Is something the matter? What's wrong with Naruto?"
The doctor interrupted my super fast talking with his own words. "Mr. Kiba please calm down. He is fine as I said. He is just not awake right now. We don't know how the boy will react to all this news and his heart is very weak. We have him on constant sleeping medication till he is strong enough to take something like this. Because if we wake him and he finds out where he is and the state of his heart and he gets excited then he will most certainly die. Now if you still want to see him there is no problem in that. I just thought that his current state, evidently he is someone important to you that you should wait." I took in a deep breath relaxing and coming down from my nervousness. "Take me to him. Please."
The doctor did not say another word and I was taken down the hall to a big room that looked like a average hospital room with a window on the far right end from the enter door, a bathroom to the left of the door to enter the room, chairs, a couch with padding if you wanted to sleep in the room, a bed for the patient against the wall between the chairs and the bathroom, curtains and to top it off, a huge machine on the top left of where the entrance of the door was. I walked in to see the machine with many different tubes and wires. The tubes were in my blond love's chest and I got worked up again.
"DOCTOR...WHAT...WHAT..?" In the back of my mind I thought this doctor had to start to think I was bipolar with all the sudden mood changes. "Kiba! Calm down. This is the life protector. The patient's heart cannot function on its own as of now. We have his heart in a metal cast and we have drugs that serve many different functions being pumped into the wounds. This new machine has shown great success. It is very powerful. It even brought one patient back from the dead. Just do not worry. He will be fine." I nodded as I was still up tight and I wanted to vomit seeing those things come out of my pretty friend like he was a science experiment.
"Do you plan on staying here Mr. Inuzuka?" I stood silent and tried my best not to flip out on a question that should of been obvious"Until my friend is awake and healthy again I am not leaving his side." Normally I would have freaked out showing so much affection for the Knucklehead but at this point I really could not have cared less. "Well ok. That's good. Because we need someone to be here at all times for him so if there seems any problems or anything out of the ordinary comes about just give the nurse a buzz. We will be here in a flash." I nodded and before he could leave I uttered. "Doctor...thank you." With that the doctor was gone and he closed the door.
I sat on one of the chairs and looked at the boy who was saved by me. I sat down looking at him. "I guess we can talk now huh? It seems I will be doing all the talking. No one is gonna hear me anyway. You really scared me with this stunt you pulled. Do you realize how much emotional pain I have? I know... I know I should not show emotions because it is so weak and showing care and stuff is bad. But I just can't help myself. Naruto... I think you're the best thing that ever happened to me in my life. I always wanted to compete with you... because I wanted to impress you. I wanted you to envy me. I wanted you to look up to me because I thought as is I could not keep you as a friend. It hurts when we make gay jokes together. Because... I am gay.. I used to think saying it aloud made it real but my stupid fucked up emotions fixed that for me. I know you would hate me if I told you when you were awake. I hope that there is a possibility that I could still be your friend. I tried to fix myself by trying so many jutsu's and trying all kinds of medications. It's worthless. Nothing works. Worse part is... Well... I like you. As more than a friend, I tried to lie to myself and said that I was just young and this was a phase like the sensei's told us we go through when we were growing, but sadly it wasn't. The more I tried to bury my feelings for you the more they came up to the surface. I wish I could go to bed with you in my arms. I hold a pillow every night and I pretend it's you. It's so soft like I imagine you always would be... Maybe...you won't be...that will...maybe... change my mind..." I took my love's hand and reached it up to my lips. I kissed the top of his hand. "... Of course. I figured as much. You're softer than I ever imagined. I'd say that make me want you more but I think at this point I could not want you more than I do now. Naruto... I would do anything to make you happy. Even if that means you're happy without me, but all I want is to stay your friend and if possible except me."
I heard the door fly open as I looked up and saw my friend and team member Hinata. She held her face in horror. I could not blame her. I ran to my friend and I put my hands on her shoulders "Hinata. Stay calm. Ok?" She shook and looked generally horrified "Look. He is gonna be ok. Naruto... He got stabbed. In his heart. It nearly split, but I luckily got him here in time for the doctors to save him. He needs this to live right now." The more I explained it seemed the more she calmed. She was still horrified at the end but a lot less so then before. "So he... Will live?" I nodded
"How did you know me and Naruto was here?" She removed her hands from her face and stated to talk in what seemed to be a slowly mentally recovering voice. "Well. Shino suddenly got real sick. His body collapsed and I rushed him here to the hospital in a panic. Turns out it was just a simple case of chakra depletion and with the fact he tried to ignore it to train and he didn't try and rest it just got to him. He is getting medication right now. Um... Well... Are you...Um...?"I knew where she was gonna go with this. "Yes Hinata I am alright. Least I will be."
I sat down back in my chair as my blue haired friend joined me. "Kiba, you can try to act all cool but you are not fooling me." I looked at her with the hope she was not talking about what I thought she was talking about. "I don't know what you mean."
"Don't act stupid, I can tell you still are not fully over him." I did not look at her and only looked at Naruto and stood silent. I wish she forgot about that stupid pact.
-Flash back to two weeks ago from Saturday-
The sky was clear and blue. You could look for hours and you would not find a single cloud to mess this perfect weather up. Hinata and I have decided to spend the day together as both our schedules were free. We both decided to walk around the village just to talk and such.
Should I tell her? I mean she may hate me since she loves him too, but I can't keep all these secrets to myself, but what if she tells everyone? I can't let that happen, but Hinata is not that kinda girl. All day this was what it was like in my mind. A mental game of back and forth ping pong on rather should I tell Hinata, my good friend that I was gay as well as letting her know I have fallen for Naruto of all people. Hinata was in love with Naruto and everyone knew it. It was as obvious Naruto's feelings for Sakura. It would be stupid to tell her the guy she loves that I love him to. But she is the only person I feel safe with telling this.
We were in the park all alone. Me and my fellow team mate. I finally made a mental choice. "Hey. Hinata. I have some thing I want to talk to you about." With soft gentle eyes the Hyūga girl spoke softly. "Of course! You can tell me anything."
"Well you see I have been dealing with things that have been happening to me lately. I have known things about myself for a long time, but it was a subconscious knowing." I can tell by the way she looked at me she was confused yet curious what I was about to tell her. "Hinata. I am gay. I tried not to be and I hoped it was just a phase, but it seems the harder I try to be straight the more it failed. I did not know who else to tell and I was hoping maybe you would not look at me different."
I saw Hinata's face suddenly go from a calm easy expression to a small soft laugh which she hides from me with her hand. She stopped and looked at me with a smile. "Oh Kiba. I don't care. I honestly do not see what the big deal with it is. You like men. Big deal."
Well we are half way out of the woods. My face was a pale color and the blue haired girl sitting beside me looked at me with confusion. "Why are you so upset? I told you I didn't care. I thought that would be what you wanted to hear."
I took a deep breath and I mustered up the courage to move on. "Yes well that isn't all. See I have someone I have fallen for. It's... It's Naruto." As soon as I finished that sentence she did a total 180. She looked at me with fire in her eyes and rage in her body.
This was a Hinata I never saw before as she sprung up from the park bench. "K...Kiba. Tell me you're joking. This is all some joke right? Because if it is then let me tell you it's not funny." Her words sounded like those of a psycho murderer. It was no longer the Hyūga girl I knew and love. This was a crazy woman who if you did not tell her what she wanted she would kill you. "I'm...I'm sorry. I tried not to feel this way. Especially knowing your feelings about him. I just..."
Before I could finish I felt a strong hand mark my face in red with a slap. She had smacked me hard and I do mean H.A.R.D! I looked at her in amazement and I had the biggest look of shock I have ever had on my face. "How dare you. You know what he means to me. You know how he inspires me. Now you... tell me this?"
I rubbed my cheek as I try to speak. "Hinata I don't want to act on it at all. I just want to get this all out to somebody." I can feel her stare at me like iced daggers piercing all over my body because I had chills running up and down my spine. "Don't give me that. I know what you're planning. You want me out of the way. So you want to use this to worm into me and make me forget about Naruto. It will not work you hear me? You want Naruto then you are gonna need to switch genders cause Naruto likes girls ok? SO keep dreaming!"
All of a sudden I saw my other fellow teammate Shino. It was all of us who were suppose to show up today but in all this I totally forgot about him he spoke in his usual monotone. "What is going on here? What is with you two?" As fast as she could Hinata spewed out everything I told her. I could not stop her and my deepest and darkest secrets were told to my rival. "...And? So you both like the same guy what of it?" Hinata and I had looks of shock on our faces. We both could not believe what we herd, but the more I thought about it and since it was Shino I could believe it. She could not however. I think she just wanted someone to condemn me for how I felt. "S...Shino he... he is a fag! We need to..."
She was cut off. "Hinata. Seriously? This isn't you." I was shocked to hear a small hint of emotion when he said seriously. "Is this what this boy is doing to you? One other person wants that knucklehead and you go into crazy woman?"
I looked at her and I saw her head lowered. It was like Shino knew where her off switch was. "Look. How about this? Since its obvious Naruto wants Sakura and to keep the peace with you two swear that you both will not go after Naruto." Thinking about the fact that I would never have Naruto... That just sucks, but Shino did have a point. He did not hide he wants that pink haired thing although that I have no idea why. With a face that said "I'm sorry" Hinata looked at me with the most heartfelt I think I ever heard her speak "I'm...Sorry... Fo...forgive me."
I was not about to hate on her. I placed my arms around her waist like I always wished I did with Naruto. "It's fine. We both won't go after him. Ok?" She nodded at me and gave a soft smile
-Flashback over-
I had forgiven and forgot all the things she said that had hurt me that day. A week ago she told me she finally got over him. But I was not off the hook as easy. The more I tried to get rid of my feelings for Naruto it seemed the stronger they stayed. "Listen...I know what we promised... But it is not getting better." he gave a gentle sigh "Look, Kiba. I know it's hard, but if I could do it I know you can." I did not know what to tell her. "If I can't have him as a lover I am at least gonna be here as his friend. Do me a favor. Get me a change of clothes and tell my mom where I am. I don't know how long I will be here." She nods and leaves. Once again I am alone with my love. "Baby. Wake soon. I... I need you... even if it's only as a friend."
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