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Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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- 1-Remember
- 2-Chapter 2
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Chapter 2:
sadness

Warnings: angst,
love, characters death, sadness.
I very
rarely write anything that ends unhappily because I hate those kind of ends. But this couldn�t end happily, and still, in a
way, it does. If you want to have a happy ending, you don�t have to read this
chapter, they go alone just as well.

Disclaimer:
Jiraiya and the other characters are not mine *pouts*, they belong to Kishimoto-sama

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PART 2
*******��

It felt
like any other ordinary morning, but somehow Jiraiya could sense that it
wasn�t. Something was amiss. He didn�t exactly know what it was, when he slowly
rubbed his eyes and yawned so wide that his chin made a cracking sound. He
stretched as the world was finally clearing from the slumber of sleep.

He turned slightly
to reach for Orochimaru, but found only an empty bed. He sat up to the bed,
calling his name to the darkness of the apartment only to be met by silence. A
little flame of panic grew inside him. Somehow he knew that this was not just
an ordinary morning when Orochimaru suddenly decided to disappear for a while.

He reached
for the doors of the closets but could not open them. He stared in front of him
at the wooden doors. �What if� if he is
gone, what will I do?�
He opened
the doors slowly and stared at the chaos of Orochimaru�s wardrobe, chuckling
lightly. But there was no relief in his voice, he was filled with terror. He
grabbed a yukata from an armchair and ran to the
garden behind the house.

This was a
place he could often find his lover in the mornings, deep in his thoughts,
sitting under the shadow of the huge sakura trees.
But he was not there. He ran to the hallway and searched for his shoes that
were gone. He grimaced, thinking about Orochimaru�s look if he would suddenly
come back and find him running around in panic.

He sat onto
the sofa and leaned his head into his hands, his mind racing. Then he stood up
slowly, his gaze glued to the bedroom door. He returned to the bedroom and
forced open the little closet at the back of the small room. All his weapons
were gone, every single one of them. He never took all of them with him, unless
he� didn�t mean to come back.

Jiraya fell
to his knees and let out a suffocated cry.

~ ~ ~

He ran
after him. He could see him and finally reached him. Orochimaru�s face was
empty, his eyes distant and cold. Jiraya could feel his heart racing and then
stopping. Orochimaru attacked him, using his dirtiest moves to win him,
attacking him with his snakes and all his weapons, meaning clearly to kill. He
couldn�t fight back and hurt his lover, he couldn�t do it even when he knew
that it was over, nothing was as it used to be.

He was left
behind beaten and broken. His heart was in dozens of pieces. When Tsunade and Sarutobi found him, he was staring ahead with blank eyes
and reacted to nothing they said or did. He was dragged back home.

~ ~ ~

The next
weeks and months were an agony. Waiting for him to come back with no hope and
being afraid and so sure that he never would. And he never did. Tsunade and his
old student, the young 4^th Hokage, Yondaime, filled Jirayas days with little assignments to keep him busy, but
nothing could fill his nights as he returned to the empty house alone,
desperately missing the one he knew he could never have.

He had
known this would happen. Orochimaru himself had warned him more than a dozen
times that one day he would go and only misery would follow. But he had not
believed, he had clung to that last little hope that he had turned his head, that his love was enough for him and he had forgotten
his plans.

The next
time he heard of Orochimaru, was in a letter from the Hidden Village of Sound.
He could not believe what he was reading. Orochimaru was declared as an enemy
and the biggest threat to the village of Konoha.

He locked
himself into his house, not seeing even Tsunade who came to bring him food
every day. He became a hermit, isolating himself from the world to dwell in the
darkness and loneliness and fill his days and nights with dreams that never
came true.

Slowly he
froze his heart to everything and started his new empty life, drowning into
sake and into the soft bosoms of countless women.
He soon had
a reputation of a powerful hermit ninja. He was said to love women, and he did,
as with them he could forget his broken heart for a little moment at a time.
But never did he love any woman like
he had loved Orochimaru, the one who destroyed him.

~ ~ ~

Years later
they met. As enemies, fighting against each other they clashed into a furious
fight that ended in blood and misery. For a brief moment he had touched that
skin, the pale skin he used to worship and adore. And all of it came back to
him. Enraged by the distant memories he could never forget, he chased
Orochimaru down as he fled the hatred of Konoha into his hidden bunkers.

Before he
could get there, Jiraya had reached him. Orochimaru let his servants beat him
bloody before going to see him himself. They met in silence, in a forest, dark
as Orochimaru�s heart, and finally Jiraya realized that he had lost him
completely.

He was
silent as the pale man looked down on his battered form and sneered. �Why did
you come after me?�
He didn�t
reply. Orochimaru was full of rage as he dropped to his knees in front of him.
�Did you really think that it would be enough for me to be your whore for the
rest of my life?�
Jiraya
slapped him and Orochimaru hit him so hard he lost his consciousness. When he
came to, he was alone.

~ ~ ~

The people
around him slowly dragged him back to life once again. The years went by and
slowly he sealed all his hurt and pain so deep inside that his outer self
seemed almost cured, almost normal. Tsunade could still see the pain in his
eyes and could not bear to be around him, who so reminded her of everything
that had happened. They seemed to be cursed to live in sorrow, sending their
friends and loved ones to an early grave.

He
continued living in this show of life, spending his time writing novels filled
with sex, drinking more sake than was healthy and inviting every woman who
accepted him, into his bed. He never looked another man after Orochimaru,
seeing something of him in all of them, never wanting to trust another human
again.

Then that
little yellow haired pain in the ass stepped into his life and opened his heart
slowly. He had never wanted a family, he could not
stand the thought of it. His family was long gone and was never going to come
back, but this little annoying boy made the thick wall around him melt. He met
people and befriended them, starting to even slightly enjoy life from time to time.

Then he was
back. He heard news of him every day. He almost destroyed Konoha but did not
succeed. They said he lost his arms and hands in the process. Almost right
after that his little pupil was struck by such a familiar loss that it made
Jiraya ache inside. Naruto lost his best friend to his worst enemy. He promised
to teach Naruto and took the boy with him.

Years went
by and they continued their fight from afar. Until the battle when Naruto took
Sasuke back home and once again he saw a glimpse of him. They said that it would be the end of Orochimaru and soon he
disappeared completely from the face of the earth.

Jiraya
observed as the two boys became close to each other, their bond so perfect that
nothing would ever get between them. It made him happy to see that his curse
was not continuing in Naruto. Soon the young men went after the killer who had
destroyed the Uchiha clan and came back victorious. Tsunade, who had returned
with new force of life in her, started to tutor the new Hokage in his studies
and so Jiraya had no pupil anymore.

He met
friends, becoming fond of the couple of ninjas that he spent most of his time
with. Iruka and Kakashi were always smiling and
gentle, always welcoming him to their company even when he could sense that
they would have wanted a little privacy. He was discreet in such time,
searching Tsunade or locking himself into his little house and sipping sake,
remembering the past with sadness and writing his books which had became
bestsellers all around Konoha.

~ ~ ~

The
alliance with the Hidden Village of Sand was stronger than ever when they
finally decided to swipe the threat of their enemies once and for all. As they
hacked their way into the Akatsuki and destroyed them one by one, he heard the
first news of Orochimaru in a long time.

The man had
left no traces of himself but one man who knew where he was and was carrying
his notes to Akatsuki. They captured the man and made him tell all he knew,
then grouping a strong company of ninjas and went to search for him.

~ ~ ~

He was
still furious as ever, almost impossible to defeat, but they did it, they had
more men and Orochimaru was growing weak. They defeated him, so destroying the
last big threat that Konoha had been facing.

Jiraya held
the dying man in his arms as he spamsed and shook in pain, his couch bloody and
his eyes already fading into the darkness of death. Jiraya�s
heart that had so long been frozen could not be awakened even with this. He
stared at the man with empty eyes.

Orochimaru
opened his lips, letting out a deep sigh and then whispering with great pain
�Do you remember than night so long ago, when you told me you loved me, can you
remember anymore? Jiraya, I have never been so happy in my life. I always� I
always loved you.� He grasped his hand and squeezed it as terrible pain surged
trough his body and made him whimper.

Jiraya
stroke his blood covered black hair and finally something broke inside him, his
eyes filling with hot tears that dripped onto Orochimaru�s pale face. He saw a
gentle smile rose onto the mans face and knew that he
was leaving. The pain was gone as he looked straight into his soul, binding
them together forever.

~ ~ ~

Jiraya
buried his body to a place where it would never be found, taking with him only
the earring Orochimaru had always worn. He stared at the vast, empty desert and
the little tomb he had buried him into and cried so hard his throat hurt and he
fell to the ground.

This was
what was left of it all. He walked away slowly, leaving his melted heart into
the tomb with Orochimaru.

They
returned to Konoha as heroes and everyone greeted them as so. Naruto ran to
embrace him and he returned the hug will full force, hugging the large,
laughing man and feeling his lifeforce giving him new
energy. Sasuke looked into his eyes, seeing the pain there and nodded to him
with respect, then reaching his hand to drag the excited blonde away.

Other
ninjas were all around him, his big family, making him feel a bittersweet
happiness he had not felt in so many years. He saw Tsunade walking to him from
afar and stood there still, waiting for her. She knew it from the look in his
eyes and her eyes filled with tears as he offered the little earring to her.
She took his hand and closed the earring into his fist.
�It is yours, take what he has finally given you.�
�And what
is that?�
�Something
he could never give you while alive. Take his love and treasure it. Live, carrying it in your heart.� She whispered and embraced
him softly.

He buried
his face into her neck but all his tears were spent and he could no longer cry.
Soon the others joy and celebration of the victory of the war swept over them,
dragging them to the town full with happiness and joyful, dancing people who
had all lost someone but still went on living.

He joined
the party, smiling faintly to friends, looking at all the people he so cared
for and clasped the earring tighter into his hand.
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