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Scars of Pain	By : KinkyMonkey Category: Naruto > General Views: 1063 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Chapter List
- 1-Scars of Pain
- 2-Deep Dark Secret
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Scars of Pain

Disclaimer: �� Who am I kidding? I cant
make any money off of this! Even if its from the
greatest anime in the world- I cant make money off of it. xD And I wont, eather, so don�t
worry about suing me, cause now you don�t have to. *evil laugh* But yeah.. Naruto isnt
mine. ^_~ Not yet.. *glomps
him*

Authors note: This one is going to be in Sasuke�s POV. This
chapter has allot of emotional hurt in it. Parts of it being played upon by personal experiences.
Remember about the ones you could be hurting when your
doing something. :/

**

To the one who I hurt,
I don�t
know why I did what I did,
But I know
why I said that fib, as I did,
I didn�t
want to disappoint you, as I did. I�m
sorry.

Through all
the pains we�ve gone through,
And not a
song that wasn�t new,
It all
still hurt the same.
I�m sorry
it all hurt and came. I�m
sorry.

As I watch
you,

I regret,
I cradle my
torso
In hopes to forget. I�m
sorry.

**

I kept walking
on until I found some shade underneath a gloomy tree. I leaned up against the
tree and tucked my hands into my pockets. What was I trying to do? I kept
thinking, as visions of grabbing Naruto�s wrist kept coming back to me. My
black marble-like eyes fell to the grass underneath my feet. No way am I going
to get this out to Naruto. I sighed and slid down the tree, now sitting
comfortably on the ground below.
My heart
ached. I wanted so much to hear words from Naruto, saying that he�d help me,
but I can�t say anything to him. It�s not like I have much pride left in me
anymore. I�m just not strong any more. I�m weak. I closed my eyes, wanting to
forget what I had been doing to myself lately. I needed help.
�Oi,
Sasuke!� I opened my eyes to a curious Naruto standing just in front of me.
�Why are
you here?!� I hissed.
The ocean
deep blue eyes that belonged to him, stared at me, as he smiled pathetically.
�You fell asleep! I decided to wake you up since it�s so dark out here, and I
don�t necessarily want you to be kidnapped by some yaoi-depraved chick.� He
laughed nervously.
I decided
not to argue, and so I stood up. I could feel my cheeks getting a little pink
by staring at Naruto, since I didn�t know what else to do, so I looked else
where, to evade my eyes of the blond fox-boy. He didn�t seem to catch on to
what I was doing, so I left it at that.
�Sasuke,�
Naruto frowned, �what did you want to tell me earlier?�
�I�� I
couldn�t say it. The words had flown out of my head, and I couldn�t collect them
all again to form a sentence. I had forgotten what I wanted to say. All I knew
was I was standing there, in front of a slightly shorter Naruto. My cheeks grew
a deeper shade of red as I tried to remember what I wanted to say. Ahah! I remember now!
Naruto stood
impatiently in front of me. His beautiful blue eyes stared upon me, and his
tanned skin seem to be glowing in the sun. I began to
pant nervously as I tried to sum up the courage to tell him my dark secret.
�Naruto, I��
�You..?�
�I� I need
help. I need your help.� Boy was that a load off my shoulders.
I was all ready beginning to feel relieved.
�Is that
it?� He asked stubbornly.
�Is that
it?� What is he talking about? That was allot! That
was a whole lot. �Well� Yeah,� I said meekly.
Naruto gave
me an awkward look. I could see in the eyes that he wanted to go home now. That
he lost his interest in me. That he doesn�t want to help me. �Well, what with?�
He asked, slightly bored.
I sighed. I
wanted to tell him, but I had just suddenly felt like giving up. His unenthusiastic eyes. I must dull him. It�s not like I
ever helped him anyway, so why should he have to help me? I felt terrible. �Um,�
I started. �I�cant go through with this!� I said and I
began to walk off quickly to my home.
�Wait,
Sasuke!� Naruto called to me.
I turned
around to face him. By that time, my �dark secret� had been tearing up the
inside of me. My heart swell in pain, and visions of what I feared kept
appearing in my head. My eyes were watery, so I began to breath hard, trying to
stop my eyes from showing the pain I had built up inside.
�Sasuke,
what has happened to you?� He asked me.
�What do
you mean? I�m the same as I�ve always been!� I informed him, shakily.
�Your lying.� He stated back, disappointedly in me.
�What do
you want from me?!� I asked, getting more and more emotional. By this time, the
tears in my eyes grew hot, and threatened to pour out from my eyelids.
�I want you
to tell me what you wanted to tell me earlier.� He stated calmly towards me. I
could tell this calmness he was showing towards me were to only stop me from being as freaked out as I was.
�I�don�t want
to talk about it�� I said back to him quietly.
�Shut up!
Obviously you wanted to say something, or you wouldn�t have been so shaky about
it, and talkative towards me lately!� He bickered at
me.
That was
right. It had been obvious, hasn�t it? That I�ve been wanting
to tell him something, that is� I have been trying to run from it my whole
life, but finally I gave into it. I gave into the hurt, and I began contemplating in my mind things that I had promised
myself as a child I would never do. I was a hypocrite. A weak
hypocrite. The thought of this burned my soul. It had been so unfair how
things have been playing out for me lately. I was slipping. I needed help, and
the only place my heart wanted to cradle up to, to ask for help from some one
else, was to Naruto. My body ached�
After a
long silence, I undid the buckles on my arm warmers, and pulled them down. As I
did so, I saw Naruto�s eyes widen in fear as he saw what I had been so ashamed
of.
There were
scars all over my arm, from my wrist to near my elbow, all on the underside.
They weren�t ordinary scars; they were cuts.
The kind of cuts that one who gives up in life, gives up in
living, gives up in everything in general would make for themselves with a
sharp blade.
Naruto took
a step back in fear. �I�I�m sorry, Naruto�� I cried shakily to him, tears slowly
dripping off my face.
He was
examining the scars from afar. Some were long, others were short. Allot of them
were faded, about 70 of them or so, and the other ones, the most recent ones
had a bright red ring around them, and were highly defined.
I began to
pull up an arm warmer, and began to buckle it as well. Naruto looked at me
painfully, and grabbed the arm with no scars on it.
�Is this
what you have been reduced to?! Cutting yourself?�

�Narut��
�Don�t �Naruto��
me!� His beautiful blue eyes were staring angrily into my marble black eyes. It
hurt me to see how angry he was.
�Naruto,
let go� I want to go home now��
�No,
Sasuke! We are going to talk through this.� He said harshly towards me. �All
this time when you�d stomp back to your home, I thought it was because you were
training. I thought it was because you wanted to prove how much stronger you
were than me the next day. Do you know this? Instead, your sulking back home to shred up your body! To make
yourself weaker and infirrior to the world!�
�Naruto,
you don�t know what your talking about�� I said gloomily.
�No, maybe
I don�t, Sasuke, but at least I know what�s too far!�
�Then you�d
give me back my arm.� My eyes narrowed to him.
He turned
the underside of my arm facing him so he could get a better look at it. �Where
are the others?� he asked quietly.
�Excuse me?�
�Where are
the other scars.�
I tried to
yank back my arm, but his grip was too tight. I looked away to the side, afraid
to look into his beautiful blue eyes that I not so long ago trusted my dark
secret with. I was afraid they would show me something I didn�t want to see. �There
aren�t any more.� I said with a very quiet tone of voice.
�I don�t believe
you.�
I narrowed
my eyes some more, and he generously gave me back my arm, and began pulling up
my arm warmer for me, and buckling them at the top.
�You are
better than this.� He told me. �You are better than this pained person you
think you must be.� I looked up at his eyes; not a trace of redness or watering
in them. I looked away once more. His words burned me, and I didn�t want to
take it anymore, but for some reason, my legs were feeling like bags of sand,
and I couldn�t move from my current location. �You cant
be weak, Sasuke, you cant! I train hard everyday, just so that I can better
than you!�
�Is that
the only reason why I shouldn�t cut myself?� I shot up bitterly at him.
He stopped,
and it grew quiet.
�There is
nothing! Nothing in this world for me!� I looked up at
him with so much hurt and angst in my face. �There is no one to care for me! No
family to turn to! No way I could ever kill my
brother! Even if I do kill my brother, what then? I�ll have even less than I
started out with! After all this time of training, there is still no way I can
grow to be stronger than him. He kills some one every day, do you know this? I cant beat him! My powers aren�t anywhere near yours�I always
hurt the ones I want to get to know more�� I fell to my knees, tears pouring
out of my eyes quickly, 2 at a time, and rested my head on the ground. ��there
is no one to love� �nothing to make me happy� �I�m sick of it� �sick of it all��
Naruto fell
to his knees and leaned over towards me, cradling me.
��my family
was murdered by my own brother�� I cried.
�Shhh, shhh��
he hushed me. �Everything�ll be alright. Everything�ll be alright. Calm down,
its okay��
I looked up
to him, my cheeks stained red, sniffling a bit, and the tears stopping for this
moment. His face was so warm and full of care. His eyes seemed to be deeper
shades of blue than they usually were, and he gave me a genuine; calm �everything
will be okay� smile. My eyes started pouring out tears once more, and I buried my
face into his shirt, and threw my arms around him, crying harder.
�Sometimes,
you have to be strong. I knew that because my whole life I didn�t have my
parents� Only Iruka, and he�s dead now as well�� He
leaned over my body and put his arms around me, stroking my back in suck a way
that it was even a bit comforting. �But what can you do?� he asked. �You surely
cant cut yourself,�
With my
voice being muffled from his shirt that I was seemingly attached to, I asked �but
why not?�
�Because,�
Naruto started, �Sasuke, my dear, you�d hurt others around you! Iruka and the
others are dead, but your still alive. We don�t want
you to turn up like them, now, do we? Too many people would miss you! If I do
say so myself, more people would cry for you if
anything terrible happened, then I think you would know.� I could tell by the
tone of his voice, he was smiling at me, trying to make me feel stronger�to feel
braver. He cares, I thought, and I smiled
warmly into his shirt to warm up the skin that I had dampened with my tears
from through his shirt. I�m dear to him�
I stopped
crying, but I remained in this position with him for five minutes after I had
stopped. He felt so warm, and enduring. He just waited there for me patiently,
letting me hold onto him all I needed to, to feel better. Though, finally, and regret
tingly, I lifted up from him. This has been a hard word for me to spit out- but
I managed to say it to him...
�Thanks��
He smiled
at me with great concern and care. �Your welcome, bastard.�
I smirked
and stood up. �Well, I think its about time we should
be leaving��
He stood up
as well. �I think so too,� his eyes roamed the area for a bit. �Yo, Sasuke?�
�Yup?�
�Will you
be alright alone at home and all tonight?�
I looked at
him a little confused, and then smiled weakly, replying �I�ll be okay.� He
answered with a �cool�, and we went on home. It had been a long day. A very
long day. But with thanks from him, no blood leaked from my body that night.
The only thing that leaked out in my room that night�was my smile that I was
trying to hide out of concern to my pride.
My heart
seemed to be aflutter that night. What was it? Was it something Naruto said?
Yes, it was. But why was I feeling this strongly towards his words? Why was I
feeling this new emotion so strongly towards Naruto? I remember feeling it
before but, this was out of control. I covered my face with the pillow, and
while still smiling brightly, remembering to what he had told me, I tried to go
back to sleep, and as I was about to fall into slumber land, I said something
very silently, and very subconsciously. �I love Naruto��

**

� � Okay, please, reviewers, DO NOT KILL ME!! >.< Its
not like.. I ENJOY Iruka being dead, and Sasuke
slitting his wrists! Heck no! >-< Nyauuu.. I love my Sasuke�!

But I
wanted to say this atleast. Do not ever start cutting yourself. If you do, I swear I will hunt you
down! It�s the worst habbit you can ever get into! DO
NOT- and I mean DO
NOT cut yourself! I mean it. So.. don�t do what Sasuke did. Please.
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