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Crossing Boundaries for You	By : Sasunarufan13 Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male > Naruto/Sasuke Views: 12499 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto nor make profit of it. Kishimoto owns it.

Chapter List
- 18
- 19
- 20
Author's note: This chapter was surprisingly hard to write. I wanted to portray Naruto's feelings well, so I hope I didn't screw it up!
Fun fact: the song Not Strong Enough kind of inspired some scenes in this chapter; it definitely reminds me a lot of Sasuke and Naruto.
Thanks to the following reviewer: Syzygy_Mackle
Warnings: angst; flashback; cheating
I hope you'll like it!
Chapter 19
If someone had told him years ago that one day, when he was twenty-four years old, he would be in the back of a car with Sasuke making out like they were horny teenagers - he would have declared them insane and would have laughed straight into their face. Then he would have gone home to sulk and try not to imagine how it would feel to make out with his best friend.
He didn't have to imagine it anymore now, though.
The leather of the backseats whispered when the two bodies on it moved, pressing themselves as close to each other as possible. Naruto's back rested against the door; his hoodie serving as a makeshift pillow. He tilted his head back, turning slightly to the right, and breathed in through his nose, his lips meeting the other one's in a kiss – one of the many they had shared so far. Hands slipped around his waist and rested on his back for a moment, before they slipped underneath his shirt; searing heat against his bare skin. He spread his left leg as wide apart as he could, the right one pressed up against the back of the seat, and Sasuke shifted closer, slotting between his legs like they were pieces of the same puzzle.
His skin, his mouth, everything tingled where Sasuke touched him and he shivered when dark bangs brushed across his cheeks. The kiss was growing more insistent, more pressure put behind it, and his lips parted.
The tips of their tongues touched and Naruto' brain shortcut. He surged upwards as much as the small space and Sasuke's close proximity allowed, and returned the newly deepened kiss enthusiastically; his fingers gripping dark strands tightly. His belly was cradled between them and a soft gasp escaped the blond man when their mouths broke apart. Dark eyes burned straight into his before lips attached themselves to a spot right underneath his ear, mouthing at the skin.
He had always been ridiculously sensitive there and he couldn't help but squirm a bit, torn between pressing closer and pulling away. A hand came to rest on his knee before his left leg was urged against Sasuke's hip, caging the older man's hips between Naruto's legs.
Naruto's head thumped against the window as Sasuke continued his merciless assault on his neck and he made a vague note to wear something around his neck to hide the hickeys which were no doubt blooming up underneath Sasuke's mouth.
Soft noise of enjoyment were coaxed out of him as Sasuke kept kissing his neck and their hips thrusted irregularly against each other. Blue eyes rolled back and up, gazing at the dark ceiling of the car; one of his hands drifted down, over a strong back, and crumpled the pristine white shirt between his fingers.
It hadn't been a week yet since their phone call, but this was the second time they met up during Naruto's lunchbreak. They had shared lunch first, but now they were back in the car, making the most of the remaining time Naruto had before he would have to go back to teach his next class. How long did he still have? Fifteen minutes? Ten?
A soft nip at his collarbone made him gasp in surprise, his eyes shooting back open – when had he closed them? – staring straight into gleaming, dark ones. Sasuke smirked, but before Naruto could say anything, he lowered his head and their mouths found each other again.
All his thoughts became jumbled, discarded, as Naruto lost himself in the deep kiss. Who cared about time, when he had this?
"I'll talk to you later, okay?" Sasuke muttered and stole another kiss.
"Yeah, okay," Naruto replied roughly and cleared his throat, praying his face wasn't as flushed as he feared it was when he stepped out of the car.
Sasuke left, back to his office, and Naruto took a deep breath, inhaling the fresh air, tinged with the aroma of flowers, and shook his head to clear it.
He turned around and slowly made his way back to the school, tugging the collar of his shirt up in an attempt to hide the evidence of his make out session.
Around him students were leisurely walking to the large building, laughing, arguing and discussing their assignments. Their bright chatter stood in sharp contrast to the quiet solitude of Sasuke's car and he swallowed; his stomach starting to churn now that he was back outside, no longer surrounded by Sasuke's presence, drowning in his lingering touches and breath stealing kisses.
He was the lowest of the low.
It was so easy to forget that Sasuke was already spoken for when they were in their own bubble. Sasuke's kisses and touches were quickly becoming addictive, turning his brain into useless mush. So easy to pretend that it was just the two of them.
After their phone call on Sunday had ended, Naruto had panicked for the rest of the evening, wondering just what the fuck he had said yes to. What the hell had he been thinking? That had been the problem, though: he hadn't been. For years he had kept silent about his feelings, so certain that nothing would come of it. Why humiliate himself and possibly drive away one of his best friends, when he could keep silent and soak up every scrap of attention he could get? It had worked for years.
But then Sasuke had dropped that bomb and things Naruto thought he would never be able to have, were now in his reach. All he had to do was hold out his arms and reel it in.
In all his fantasies, though, he had never factored in Sakura. He should have refused. Should have stopped this thing before it even had a chance to grow. What they did was despicable. Even if she knew what the marriage entailed, that didn't mean either of the men had the right to hurt her like that. If Naruto was a better man, he would confess everything to her and leave it up to her to decide what she would do. If he was a better friend, he would stop seeing Sasuke immediately and shut down any contact between them.
It was just …
He had tried several times to get Sasuke out of his mind. He had gone on various dates, had even had some relationships, but they had all stranded, because he couldn't remove Sasuke from his mind nor his heart. He had attempted to put some distance between them, figuring not seeing or talking to the man as much as before would help him get over him.
Clearly he had failed.
No matter what he did, no matter how many dates he had, men he met, he couldn't let go of Sasuke. It didn't matter how hard he tried to get over him – the bastard had an unbreakable hold over him.
That was no excuse, of course. Nothing could excuse this. But …
He wanted Sasuke. He wanted this. After years of suppressing his feelings, of ignoring the hurt every time he saw his friends kiss – after all those years, he finally got what he wanted. He wasn't noble enough to refuse this, wasn't strong enough to say no. He didn't want to say no.
He wanted to be selfish and accept everything Sasuke wanted to give him. Sasuke, who wanted him. Something he had envisioned being impossible, but which now turned out to be true.
Sasuke wanted him too.
After their phone call, Naruto had feared it had all just been a mistake. That when it came down to it, Sasuke didn't really want him after all and had just been confusing his feelings. It seemed too good to be true, after all. Why would Sasuke return his feelings after all those years? He was just confused because Naruto was carrying his baby, that was all.
But the Sasuke who had called him right before his lunchbreak on Monday hadn't sounded confused. Far from it actually.
"Yes?" Naruto picked up his phone apprehensively, not sure what to think when he saw Sasuke's name flashing across the screen. He still couldn't believe he had actually called the older man yesterday to agree to – yes, what would it be? A relationship? What did you call something like that? Was the dark haired man calling him to discuss their conversation of yesterday?
Or was Sasuke calling him today to let him know it had been a mistake after all? His heart thudded painfully and his fingers tightened around his phone.
"Do you have any plans for your lunchbreak?" Sasuke inquired without preamble.
The blond man was taken aback by the unexpected question. "Eh, no. Just you know, eat my lunch," he answered lamely, tapping his pen erratically against his desk.
"Want to share lunch with me?"
"Eh, sure," Naruto agreed hesitantly.
"Good, I'll come pick you up." And the phone was hung up before Naruto could even formulate a retort.
Blue eyes blinked and Naruto lowered his phone, staring at it bemused. Well, Sasuke didn't sound troubled or standoffish … That was a good sign, right? Still …
Nerves started rampaging through his body as he slowly packed his bag and cleared his desk. His hands shook slightly and his heartbeat was loud in his ears, drowning out all other sounds. He stood up and after casting another glance at the desk – which was now empty save for some chalk and some pens – he walked out of the room and locked it. After his lunchbreak he had two hours free before he would have to teach his last class of the day.
His legs felt unsteady as he slowly made his way through the corridors, passing some straggling students, a classroom in which Sasori's voice drifted out, admonishing a student for not paying enough attention. Then he was outside, warm air caressing his face and arms, and he lowered himself down on one of the benches, which luckily were granted the shade of the trees behind it. The days were slowly becoming warmer and warmer, though he still brought his hoodie with him, just in case the weather decided to be temperamental.
Placing his bag next to him on the bench, he focused on the passing cars, counting them to take his mind off the upcoming meeting with Sasuke, in which the man might or might not tell him he didn't want to try after all.
Naruto didn't know which one he preferred.
He should want Sasuke telling him that he didn't want to do this after all, that he didn't want to try a relationship with the blond man. Naruto shouldn't have even called him to say he wanted to give them a try. Sasuke was married to Sakura, for fuck's sake! What kind of person made that of Naruto that he would hurt his best friend by having an affair with her husband? He was so incredibly fucked up, there were no words to …
"You ready to go?"
The words made him jump, his heart skipping a beat, as his head shot up; the baby gave a startled kick near his kidney. Sasuke was standing in front of him, dressed in a pale blue shirt and black trousers, looking at him with one eyebrow raised.
"You okay?" he asked; his dark eyes shifting from Naruto's face to his rounded belly, clearly visible through his thin, orange shirt.
"Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. Just – didn't see you arrive," Naruto mumbled and rose up, rubbing absentmindedly over his stomach to soothe the baby. Before he could reach down to grab his bag, Sasuke had already picked it up; his hand brushing against Naruto's. The soft, barely there touch sent a shiver up Naruto's spine.
"How's the baby?" Sasuke asked, placing a hand on Naruto's back to guide him to his car.
Almost instinctively the blond man caressed his stomach, feeling another kick aimed at his hand. Ever since he had felt the baby move for the first time, he had become more aware of the kicking and fussing. Sometimes it felt like the child was trying to use his intestines as his own personal punching bag. "He's fine," he reassured his friend. "Feels sometimes like he's training to become a boxer."
Sasuke snorted and opened the door of his car for Naruto. "He must have got his energy from you," he smirked and he closed the door before the pregnant man could form some sort of reply.
As it was, Naruto was left speechless, caught off guard by the unexpected remark and he looked down, a tad flustered for some reason. He cleared his throat and asked Sasuke, who had just slid behind the wheel, "So where are we going to eat?"
The mischievous smile quirking up the corners of Sasuke's mouth had Naruto blinking in surprise. "I thought we could go eat some ramen from that restaurant you like so much," he answered casually, smoothly re-entering traffic.
That made Naruto perk up immediately and he almost started salivating at the thought of finally getting to eat some real ramen again. "You mean it?" he asked hopefully, twisting around to stare at the dark haired man.
"You'd kill me if I dared to joke about that," Sasuke retorted dryly, turning left, following a dark blue car.
"Damn right I would," Naruto huffed, but his face split into a wide grin and he barely could sit still. It had been almost a month since Sasuke had brought him take out ramen and he was going to revel in being able to eat ramen again – the real deal this time!
And revel he did. He ended up eating three bowls in the end, taking advantage of Sasuke's offer. Who knew when he would be able to eat ramen again? The ramen tasted as delicious as ever and while he did his best, he couldn't suppress a moan or two of enjoyment, relishing in the taste dancing over his tongue.
They only talked about their work and a bit about Itachi and Deidara, never straying away from those topics. The atmosphere between them was so relaxed it was easy for Naruto to forget his guilt for a while and not think about their phone call yesterday.
"Ah, you don't know how much I missed eating ramen," Naruto sighed happily, smacking his lips together. They were walking back to the car after Sasuke had paid for their lunch. The blond man had protested, pointing out he could pay for his own share – as he had eaten more than Sasuke had – especially now that he didn't have to worry about rent or groceries. He had thought he had won the argument, Sasuke seemingly given in, but then the baby had kicked against his bladder and the call of nature had been too difficult to ignore. When Naruto had come back to the table, the sneaky bastard he called his best friend had already paid the bill.
He had delivered a half-hearted kick against Sasuke's right shin, but had given up on arguing. He would just need to make sure he was quicker next time.
"I think I can wager a guess," Sasuke smirked, pointing his key at the car to unlock it. He had parked near the back of the car park underneath the shade of a large tree. Its branches were long and nearly dragged across the ground, forming some kind of curtain on one side.
Naruto pouted and lightly punched the other man's shoulder. "Shut up; do you know how much I've been suffering, not being able to eat ramen as much as I'd like?"
"I know and I appreciate it," Sasuke murmured; his dark eyes flashing as he opened the door and gestured inside.
Not able to decide whether the comment was meant in jest or not, Naruto just slipped inside the car before he could run off his mouth and say something stupid.
"Thanks for the lunch," he said with a smile when Sasuke sank down behind the steering wheel and closed the door behind him. "Even though I could have paid my share of it," he couldn't help but point out once more.
"You're welcome," Sasuke smirked, but made no move to start the car.
Suddenly the air in the car became charged, the previous light-heartedness swept away by something darker, something heavier. Naruto swallowed and looked down at his bump, wondering what the hell he should say now. He should probably mention their call from yesterday, tell Sasuke that he had changed his mind after all. He couldn't do this, couldn't hurt Sakura like that even if …
His breath hitched when slender fingers brushed against his cheek before cupping it; the strength behind it coaxing him to look up and meet dark eyes.
Sasuke was leaning forwards; his eyes so intense it nearly hurt Naruto to look into them. "Naruto, did you mean what you said yesterday?" Sasuke murmured; his warm breath caressing Naruto's mouth.
Naruto's mouth felt dry all of a sudden and his hands clenched into fists on his lap. He thought about lying, saying he had changed his mind, that this was all a giant mistake. But Sasuke's steadfast gaze upon him, his firm touch, had the lie drying up before it could even form in his mouth.
Ashamed he looked away; his stomach churning with guilt. "I mean it, yeah," he admitted in a whisper, feeling like the world's biggest arsehole for admitting it. "But Sakura-chan …"
"I'll handle her, don't worry about it," Sasuke repeated his assurance firmly. "I just want to know whether you choose me – us."
"I – I – I do, but what about …" The words died in his throat and he clenched his teeth together, glancing down at his belly.
What about the baby?
If he and Sasuke – if he and Sasuke really tried this, would start a relationship with each other – what was going to happen with the baby then? Would he – would he still need to hand him over to Sakura even if Sasuke decided to choose completely for him? Or … would he and Sasuke raise him together? Form their own family? What about Sakura then?
"What about what, Naruto?" Sasuke questioned; his thumb slowly caressing Naruto's cheek.
The blond man offered a weak smile, placing his hand over Sasuke's. "Nothing," he mumbled. He was a coward, but ... He wasn't ready yet to discuss what they would do about the baby. They should, he knew, especially because his due date was slowly creeping up on them, but he couldn't.
Not now. Not when he still didn't know what to expect from Sasuke, from them together.
"Just … Are you sure about this? About – us?" Naruto asked tentatively, timidly.
It sounded too good to be true after all.
"I've never been so sure in my life," Sasuke murmured and before Naruto could say something, before he could think of pulling back, putting a stop to this, lips touched his own softly.
For a moment Naruto remained frozen, his mind wiped blank. Then there was a hand sliding around the back of his neck, pulling him closer, and lips pressed more insistently again his, coaxing him to react.
The scent of Sasuke – pure his, not hindered by anything artificial – filled Naruto's nostrils; his touch left burning imprints behind; his warm breath mingling with that of his.
What they were doing, was horrible. Disgusting. Wrong.
It also felt good, right, like nothing else had ever felt before. Like the universe was aligning itself finally after all this time; like the last piece of the puzzle had found its home.
Naruto gave in, gave up, losing himself in that all-consuming kiss, ignoring the way he was twisted around uncomfortably, the way things dug in his leg and belly.
All he knew was Sasuke – his scent, his touch, his kiss, the feeling of his shirt crinkling underneath Naruto's desperate grasp …
This was …. This was … Everything.
Naruto was worse than scum, but he couldn't hold himself back. Now that he had had a taste of how being with Sasuke was, he couldn't stop himself.
Didn't want to stop.
Being with Sasuke felt right, felt good, everything he felt like he had been missing falling into place finally.
If he was a good friend, he would stop this immediately. If he was a decent human being, he wouldn't have even started this thing.
But he couldn't resist Sasuke or the promise of a life together. Everything he had dreamt of was within reach now and he couldn't say no.
Sasuke was the flame and he was the helpless moth drawn towards his brilliance.
He was playing with fire – but even the threat of getting burnt wasn't enough to stop him.
He paused in front of his classroom, resting a hand on his belly when he felt the baby kick and fuss around a bit before settling again. The baby had been active in the car as well; as if he had sensed his father's presence.
Rubbing a hand over his eyes, he plucked his phone out of his pocket and selected the number he needed out of his contact list.
"Naruto? Something you need?"
Naruto took a deep breath. "Hey Gaara, can you meet up tonight?"
AN2: I know it isn't as action filled as some of the others were, but I felt like this was necessary. I hope I at least succeeded in bringing across Naruto's guilt and at the same time the yearning he feels to continue this thing with Sasuke. ^^; The drama will slowly grow ...
Please leave your thoughts behind in a review; should you spot any mistakes, please point them out to me.
The next chapter will be posted on the fifteenth of December. I hope to see you all back in the next chapter!
Cuddles
Melissa
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