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Love's Misconstruities	By : Idleflame Category: Naruto > Het - Male/Female Views: 1432 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Love�s Misconstruities

Chapter 18

�� It was late into the
evening when the Kazekage finally made his way home.� It had been a very long and stressful day to
say the least.� All he wanted now was to
enjoy his newfound comfort of sleep.�
He�d managed to remove his sandals, white kage robe, and black shirt
before he sensed a presence.� He halted,
tensing.

�� Come out.� I know you�re there,� he growled, preparing
for the worst.� After what he�d just been
through he couldn�t help but be on edge.�
He was caught off guard when Hinata shyly lept through his window.�

�� You�!��

�� The young woman before
him took a deep breath before speaking.�
�Kazekage-sama�� I�m sorry for
causing you trouble earlier.�

�� You still are,� he
stated, glaring.�

�� Hinata looked away but
caught herself and forced her eyes back to his.�

�� I know, b-but�� I couldn�t leave until�until I said what I
came here to say,� she said, balling her hands into tight fists as she steadied
herself.� Taking a big breath, she
continued.� �I�I just wanted to tell
you�� I wanted to say t-that�that I�� I�� she struggled.� She gulped and took another breath, closing
her eyes and forcing the words out.� �I-I-I l-love you!� I�I
always have...�� Blushing beyond compare,
she opened her eyes once again and, though her vision swam, she struggled not
to faint and intently watched him for a response.� Sadly, it was not what she�d hoped for.� His features tensed, and his glare bore deep
into her.�

�� Get out,� came the
faintest of whispers, yet the malice it held was so thick that it was tangible.

�� Gaara-san,� the girl
tried to plead.

�� Get out!� he hissed
more forcefully.

�� B-but,
why?� Are you that angry with me?�

�� Yes,� he growled, as
if she shouldn�t have even had to ask.

�� About
the Chuunin Exams?�

�� About everything!� he
grumbled, stalking toward her but stopping a few feet short.� He was trying his hardest to keep composed,
but it had been a long time since he�d been as angry as he was in that very
moment.� He had faced powerful enemies
before, such as his Akatsuki opponent who had threatened the lives of his
entire village, yet while he had been angry, it was a cool anger.� He knew exactly what he had to do to save
everyone, and that was to kill the one threatening those he cared for.� But this was a hot anger, one that boiled his
blood and caused him to think irrationally.�
He wasn�t sure how to fix things in this situation.�

�� This girl before him
had captivated him, made the ever-present pains in his heart dull, yet when she
showed that she wanted nothing more to do with him it reopened the wounds she
had begun to heal and then widened them even more.� This problem he knew he couldn�t fix by
killing her.� Despite his fury, despite
everything she had done to him, though he hated it...he still cared...and that
only fueled to enrage him further.�

�� You�re angry about everything?� Hinata asked, confused.

�� That scroll was
nothing so important that it needed to be hand-delivered, least of all by
you.� Why did you come to Suna?�

�� I-I wanted to see you.� To apologize�and say�what I�ve already said,�
she answered, unable to repeat her earlier confession.

�� Why now?� he asked,
struggling to keep his voice low and calm.

�� What?�

�� Why come now?� he
repeated, his patience growing thin.� His
hostility radiated within every word.� �After
all this time, you wait until now to come see me�to say that to
me.�

�� What?� Hinata
questioned, unable to follow Gaara�s train of thought.� �I�m sorry, I-I don�t understand-��

�� That was it.� Gaara had heard enough.� His frustration had reached its limit and he
snapped, closing the last few feet between them with a growl.� He grabbed her by the jacket with both hands,
taking her by surprise.� She gasped, but
didn�t fight back.�

�� You know exactly what
I mean!� Coming here now, saying those
things to me�� You are just like the rest
of them�except they at least have some respect for me.� They would never go as far as you have,� he
accused, referring to his incessant fangirls.

�� Who wouldn�t?� G-Gaara-san, I don�t-�

�� Don�t play
stupid!� Or maybe it would help if I
jogged your memory?� he growled as he tried to rip her jacket off.�

�� What are you doing?!�
she meekly yelled, blushing while she struggled with him.�

�� You weren�t
embarrassed earlier when you had this off�when you were trying to tempt
me!� Why put up a fight now?�

�� I wasn�t-� Ugh, Gaara-san,
please stop!�

�� I�ll give you exactly
what you want!� he declared, succeeding in his efforts, tossing the jacket
aside and thrusting her face-first onto the bed.�

�� Stunned, it took her a
moment to realize what was going on.� Of
all the possibilities that could have occurred during this trip, this was not
on the list.� It still wasn�t.� She could not believe what was
happening.� She rolled over onto her back
and tried to sit up, but Gaara was soon straddling her, pinning her down.� �Gaara-san, please stop!� she repeated, not
wanting to raise a hand against him...though he wasn�t giving her many options
now.� �Th-this isn�t like you!� she
screamed as he ripped the fishnet which covered the top part of her shirt.�

�� No, it�s not!� he
shouted, grabbing her wrists as she struggled and pinned them over her head,
bring his face close to hers and continuing in a seething whisper.� �But you came to me now instead of before because
you thought that with my demon removed, you would be safe�that there was
nothing to be afraid of anymore.� You
were so scared of the monster within me that you wouldn�t even give me a chance
to prove to you that you didn�t need to be!�
I was in control of it!� So if I
scared you, then it was ME that you were afraid of.� I am still the same person as I was
before�and if you think that I am a monster, I�ll prove you right.�

�� His grip tightened on
her wrists, painfully so, yet Hinata didn�t react.� She was too stunned by his words.� �You thought I was afraid of you?� she asked
in an astoundingly steady voice.� Gaara,
surprised by her sudden tranquility, paused to stare her in the eye.� �I thought you were dating Sakura-chan and I
was hurt because I liked you so much��
Tears began to escape her eyes, but her speech remained uneffected.� �I backed off because I didn�t want to be in
the way of the romance I thought you two were having�but I just recently found out that I�d been wrong about you
two��

�� The boy stared into
her pale watery eyes from inches away, listening to every word.� �She thought I was involved with that
medic?� Where would she have gotten that
idea?� �Wait, it was after that mission
where Matsuri had been kidnapped that she began acting more distant�when I had
half-transformed into Shukaku�� When she
ran from me in town, was it because I was with Sakura?�

�� And during the
Chuunin Exams, you had me convinced that you were reduced to taijutsu
combat.� I forfeited because I thought
that you were going to, so I did it first.�
I didn�t want to embarrass you.� I
regretted it as soon as I saw your fight with Kankurou-san.� I shouldn�t have underestimated you or
avoided you.� I shouldn�t have acted so
weak, but I did�� I�ve wanted to
apologize ever since I realized that.� ...I�m here now trying to fix
that.��

�� She forfeited out
of pity?!� �That would be like her�� Still, I was her teacher!� She should have known I had something
planned�that I wasn�t so helpless.� �Then
again, I did managed to fool my own brother��

�� I�m sorry, Gaara-san,
but you�re wrong.� I stopped being afraid
of you after that first day you helped train me�that was, at least until
tonight.��

�� Gaara�s eyes got
wider, but his brow stayed furrowed as he took in each of her words.� �Have I really been wrong all this
time?� Arg, what am I doing?!� I swore I would never harm her!� Shukaku would be proud indeed if he was still
with me�� Slowly, Gaara regained his
composure.� He let go and climbed off the
girl beneath him in one swift movement.�
�If what she says is true�then��
She said she�loves me�� But�� What have I
done?�

�� Hinata cautiously sat
up, carefully holding her torn shirt together.�
�You said that you are still the same person as before.�� Gaara sat on the edge of the bed with his
back toward her, hearing but not answering�too afraid that she was about to
recant her confession.� ��I was counting
on that.� That�s why I didn�t give
up.� I knew that you weren�t as cold as
you acted�that you aren�t really like this.�
You were always so gentle�in your own strong and quiet way.� �That was the boy that I fell in love
with�demon or not,� she admitted once again, wiping at the wetness on her face,
willing the tears to stop.

�� Barely able to believe
that he was hearing those words from her, he was now the one in shock.� He sat frozen on the edge of the bed, staring
blankly ahead.� It wasn�t until a
trembling hand gently touched his bare shoulder that he jumped slightly,
bringing him back to reality.

�� I�I came here to tell
you that.� I thought that�you should
know.� Otherwise, I�d never be able to
forgive myself.� When I heard about�about
what happened�� I wanted so badly to help
you, but there was nothing I could do!� I
just had to wait and have faith in Naruto-kun, Neji-nii-san, Sakura-chan and
the others�� When I heard you were okay,
I had to come.� I�I�m sorry for all the
trouble and confusion I�ve caused you,� she finished, wiping away at the last
of her tears.

�� The hand left his
shoulder and the weight on the bed shifted.�
It took Gaara a moment to realize what was happening and he wasn�t quite
sure what to do about it.� He was bad
with social situations to begin with, and this was clearly something he�d had
no experience with.�

�� Hinata slid off the
bed, making her way to the door, satisfied that she had finally completed her
true mission.� There was only one thing
that could have made it even better.� �I
know it�s enough that I�ve said what I wanted to, but�I can�t deny that I was
hoping he would reciprocate.� �That
really would be expecting too-�

�� Stop,� came a pleading whisper.�
Hinata did, turning to face the frozen young man.� �Come back.��
She slowly approached him, yet he still wouldn�t meet her gaze.� Instead, he awkwardly reached out, wrapping
his arms gently around her waist and pulling her close, resting his head
against her stomach.� �Don�t go.�� It surprised the girl but she complied,
nervously reaching down with her own trembling hands and running them through
Gaara�s hair the way a mother would, trying to soothe him.� �Say it again,� he softly requested after a
silent moment.

�� Hinata almost asked
what he meant, but figured she probably knew.�
She swallowed the lump in her throat as a blush once again crept onto
her cheeks.� �I�love you��

�� Gaara inhaled deeply, an
uneven and ragged breath, as if he had been holding it for quite some time
without realizing it.� He tightened his
hug, trying to bury himself in her warmth.�
�I love you, too,� came the quietest of
whispers, yet these foreign words were heavy as they left his lips, weighed
down with a lifetime of desperately wanting someone to say these kind words to and
finally hearing them back.�

�� Hinata felt her heart
jump to her throat and she fought the tears that burned suddenly at her eyes.� She almost didn�t believe what she�d just
heard but knew that she had.� She rested
her hands on his back and hugged him as well as she could in the position.� After another few minutes Hinata tried to take
a step back, but the boy�s grip only tightened.�
�May I sit down?� she shyly asked.�
Reluctantly, Gaara loosened his grip.�
He finally looked up to meet her teary gaze and gave the smallest of nods
as a pinkness began to deepen on his own cheeks, causing Hinata to smile as she
sat next to him, wiping her eyes with one hand, the other clutching her torn
shirt once again.� �What now?� Hinata nervously
asked.�

�� I don�t know�� Gaara
replied, staring into his lap.� ��I don�t
want you to leave.�

�� I don�t either,� she
admitted, her face turning pink once again.�
�But I�m due back in Konoha in another four days.�

�� Then you have to
leave the day after tomorrow,� he realized.�
He seemed deep in contemplation for the better part of a minute before
speaking once again.� �Stay with me
tonight,� he softly pleaded.� Hinata�s
eyes grew wide at the request as the morality that had been drilled into her
head since birth kicked in, but she couldn�t deny that she wanted to
accept.� She looked away, slowly
nodding.� Not sure where to take things
from there, she decided to follow his lead.�
Gaara stood, taking her free hand in his and pulling her from the
bed.� He then moved to turn down the
covers and slid in.� Hinata slowly
followed, not quite sure what to expect.�
Once she had joined him, he switched off his bedside lamp, darkening the
room.� Moonlight shone in from the open
window, basking the room in its pale glow.

�� Hinata was visibly
nervous, her body shaking with small tremors.�
This was her first time ever sleeping in the same bed as another, much
less the opposite sex�although, she thought of the time when, during a mission
where her team had camped overnight, she�d awakened the next morning to find
Kiba under her blanket, asleep and snuggled right up against her, grinding
himself against her leg.� She�d been so
startled that she�d screamed and given him a black eye.� Both she and Kiba had been horribly embarrassed
by Kurenai�s teasing the rest of the mission, and to this day they always made
sure that Shino slept between the two of them�just in case.

�� Still, despite that
experience, Kiba was a team member and trusted friend�not the man that she
loved.� She�d learned after overhearing the
many dirty conversations that he and Shino had had over the years that it was
not sleep that men were really interested in when taking a woman to bed.� She was still somewhat frightened by the
idea, but seeing the young man before her, despite what had just happened, she
knew that she could trust him.� She
wouldn�t mind doing the things he wanted or letting him do things to her.� �As long as I can make him happy, I�ll do
whatever I can,� she resolved.

�� For a moment, they
both just laid there facing each other, too afraid to move.� Finally, Gaara slid lower on the bed,
surprising Hinata as he placed his head on her chest and wrapped an arm around
her waist, pulling her closer.� After she
forced her body to relax, she rested her head on his and reciprocated, wrapping
an arm around him and gently stroking his back.�
Hinata kept waiting for him to take things further, but he never
did.� It was comfort that he wanted
tonight and nothing more.�

�� To hold this girl in
his arms�to have her hold him back�it was then that he finally understood his
uncle�s words.�

�� Yashumaru�� For the longest time I didn�t believe
anything you�d told me because of what you did�but it seems you hadn�t lied
about what it takes to mend a broken heart.�
Naruto was the one to show me what love really was�but now I actually
think that I understand it.� �For the
first time in my life�it doesn�t hurt.� Hinata�arigatou.�

�� Soon he fell into the
most peaceful sleep he�d ever had.� Never
in his life had he slept all through the night, not even in these past few
since his return, but this night he managed.�
Truly, this was one of the best days of his young life.

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