As Long as it Feels OK

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Kage mane – Shadow Bind technique

Kitsune – Fox

Hai – Yes, okay, uh huh

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He knew he was dreaming but this time he didn't mind. He'd come to terms with how he felt, what he wanted and somehow, even when he was asleep he remembered where he really was. Pale hands were running over his chest and abs, he simply laid back and allowed the dream to take it's course. He knew who the hands belonged to, he knew that if he looked, he'd find black hair and equally black eyes.

Nails dragged down his sides, sending shivers down his spine and heat up from his toes to meet in the middle and tighten the muscles. Naruto reached out and brought his dream lover to his lips, he was going to enjoy it this time. Sasuke's tongue snaked out and into his own mouth, delving, tasting the blonde and taking everything Naruto was going to offer.

Their bodies aligned themselves to their hips, their legs intertwined. It wasn't long before Naruto was tired of his lover's teasing, he turned them over, pinning Sasuke under himself. He gave an experimental thrust and hot shivers ran from head to toe. This was very much different then when he was with Sasuke as Naruko and even more different then when he brought himself off. He could get used to this.

The pale figure writhed under the blonde, no matter what he did it only furthered Naruto's enjoyment of the situation. He knew that he wasn't going to last long but it didn't matter, it was only a dream and didn't yet have to worry about pleasing Sasuke. He allowed himself to loose control; he thrust wildly against the other boy, growling low in the back of his throat and marking the pale column of flesh before his mouth.

Dream Sasuke let his fingers run down and between the blond's cheeks and that small brush over his entrance was all it took for Naruto to be thrown into bliss. He shuddered, felt his cum hit the inside of his boxers and splash back against his over sensitized member. He called out and quickly realized that he was no longer asleep.

There was a figure standing silhouetted in the door frame. Had Naruto not known where he was, he would have taken it for Sasuke, "You were calling out my brother's name in your sleep."

The blonde pushed himself from his position on the floor and regarded his captor's chest; he wasn't stupid enough to look the man in the eye, "What do you want?"

"We're after the Kyuubi, surely you know that." The shadow moved further into the room, "The problem is we require you to submit. That's not in your character, you'll have to be broken." Itachi knelt in front of the blond and grabbed his chin hard enough to leave bruises.

Naruto swung wide to hit Sasuke's brother in the side of the head, he easily dodged backward, "You'll never be able to break me!"

"I've heard that before, from people stronger then you. I'll show you the true meaning of pain." Naruto was forced to raise his face, but he kept his eyes tightly shut. "Akira, I'm going to need your assistance for a moment." Naruto felt another figure move into the room.

"Kage mane!" From somewhere deep inside, welled a scream, as Naruto's eyes were forced open against his will. Startled blue met with glowing red, even in the pitch darkness the blonde could see the swirling patterns in his captor's eyes.

"Mangekyo Sharingan." The small room melted away and turned into endless open fields, gently swaying surreal green grasses as far as the eye could see. A red sky and a black sun provided this strange world with eerie illumination. "Welcome to my world, I control everything here; time, space, matter... Everything."

Itachi seemed to slide into view from behind nothing, a knowing smirk cast onto his features. The blonde began his endless mantra, "I will not break, I will not break, I will not break."

"There's no use, a year in my world could only be a few seconds outside of it, can you really last that long? Especially against..." He glanced off to the side, "Your lover?" A figure of Sasuke wavered into existence next to his brother.

Sasuke stepped towards the blonde, he held a single kunai in his right hand, "Sasuke will now stab you for the next four days, you will die at the end of each day, only to be resurrected and have it happen all over again. Know this, Sasuke can never love you, and this is what he truly wishes to do. You're a festering sore in the side of life, you need to be cut and bled, before you die."

Itachi disappeared and Sasuke took the final steps towards the blond, "He's right you know." It was the only warning before the blade plunged into his left lung.

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Naruto knelt on the ground, he was bleeding from several deep wounds, deadly wounds and all of them were inflicted by this imitation of Sasuke. He knew that he wouldn't last much longer, he'd nearly bled out and he was slowly drowning due to his punctured lungs.

Along 'side the blade had come desperate beatings, his left leg was broken and he wasn't sure that any of his ribs were still in one piece. He raised his head and met his assailant's eyes one last time before he fell unconscious.

"I hate you." It resonated through the blonde's head as he collapsed to the ground and he was kicked in the face. He'd heard it so many times in his life that he was sure that it should have no effect on him at all; but hearing it in Sasuke's voice tugged at his heart, the pain of his body was nothing compared to what Itachi was inflicting on him through the other boy's body.

"Sasuke will come rescue me, Sasuke will come rescue me..." Another mantra began in his head, he was no longer sure that he wouldn't break, four days in this hell could be only seconds, and how long would it take for ANBU to find him? This was going to last much, much longer.

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It had continued for what Naruto was sure was a few months, now he still knew on some level that it may have only been a short period of time outside, but he still wished for it to end. He'd had enough of Sasuke beating him, killing him.

It wasn't until the third week in this world though that it changed at all. In his last desperate moments he'd stood to face the Uchiha again, only to be stabbed through the abdomen. Fear snapped down his spine and his eyes flew open, "Our baby..." He slumped to his side and died for what what probably about the twentieth time.

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When he came to, he wasn't in that world anymore, he was back in the dark room. There was food next to his head but he retched at the very thought of it. He knew by the feel of his body that it had been days since he last ate or drank, but that was his only indication of time.

He tried to push himself up and found it surprisingly easy, none of the pain that should have existed in his broken and bruised body was there. Then he remembered, it didn't really happen. He'd lasted this long! He'd lasted longer then Itachi could! He felt instantly better, "Kitsune! Kitsune! I've done it! I can be okay! I can survive this!"

A slow, groggy voice answered his enthusiasm,"Don't be happy too soon, it's only been five days. Help won't be arriving for a long time yet. You'll have to do this many more times. Separate yourself from your body, become detached, it's the only way you won't break." The Kyuubi paused, "He's learned a new way to hurt you."

The blond swallowed and looked about again. It was the same as before; darkness, nothing in the room but the bowl next to him. He picked it up and smelled it, it had to be new, it wasn't rancid. And so, resigning himself to this fate, he slurped at the pasty contents. Five days without food, he'd need something to survive the next round with Itachi.

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It came three days later. That same shadow in the door, then taking bold steps towards the sitting blonde. He gave no resistance knowing that they would make him meet Itachi's eyes even if he did.

"Why do you continue to resist? It's pointless." Itachi took in the blonde's face slowly before meeting blue eyes again, "Mangekyo Sharingan."

The strange black, red and, green world was back again, Itachi was nowhere to be found, only Sasuke stood in front of Naruto. "Whatever made you think I wanted your offspring, demon?!" A kunai was stabbed through the Kyuubi holders' abdomen again.

Shocked blue eyes met with black, this... Naruto wouldn't survive this, this was his only family. Even if Sasuke had left he would have had a family, and now it was going to be ripped away from him too? "Separate yourself from your body..." The Kyuubi's words echoed in his head. He sighed and slumped forward.

He was made to feel that tiny heartbeat stop every time. Sasuke would alternate from stabbing the child growing inside his body to beating him until he could no longer sustain that small life, once in a while he would even use Chidori to rip the being from inside him and make him watch as it died.

He slowly did become detached, the pain was no longer felt. He simply sat and allowed it to happen. It seemed almost as though he was watching it happen to someone else; like he was floating above and watching this baby being killed in front of someone else. He had no emotional ties to the child, the man having the baby ripped from his body, nor the man that was inflicting the pain.

He looked on with mild interest. How long would this last before the dark haired man grew bored and left? Why wasn't the black sun setting? The grass moved in such a pretty pattern when the wind blew just so, why couldn't the men stop and enjoy it?

He sighed and resigned himself to his fate of watching these two people fight until the end of time. He was able to sense time, three days had passed, which meant it had been days since he was first brought to this place. Would someone be coming to take him away from this bloody show or was this truly his destiny?

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Once again, on the fifth day, the imaginary world was extracted, Naruto was back in his body again, he was hungry. Someone was yelling at the dark haired man in front of him, something about intruders. Naruto couldn't bring himself to be concerned. Oh, there was some food next to him. Had food always tasted this bad? Like liquid protein?

The men got up and left, slamming the large metal door and locking it behind himself. Naruto inspected his body once again, thinner again, but none the worse for wear, "Ne! How long before I can go home? I'd very much like to be able to go outside, I don't like the dark much." He walked to the door of his cell and knocked.

There was a sudden movement outside, like someone had jumped back from the door, "Naruto?! Are you in there?"

"I'm Naruto." The voice was strangely familiar.

"Stand back, I'm going to open the door."

"Yessir!" The blond moved back to his sitting place, next to his empty bowl of food. He looked down curiously at where he knew it was, when was he going to be fed again? The explosion behind him surprised him and he turned around to see a masked figure run in through the door. He had hair the same as the man who had been torturing his body, and a white flack vest on. How curious, he was wearing a bird mask. "Can I go home now?"

"Hai Naruto, we're bringing you home. Akatsuki escaped again, but we've managed to get you back... I've managed to get you back..." The man removed his mask and stepped towards Naruto.

"You!" The blond took a step back, "You killed my family!!" He pointed an accusatory finger at Sasuke.

"What are you talking about? We were going to build a family, you were kidnapped by Itachi... Oh Naruto... What have they done to you?"

Another masked figure appeared in the doorway, "C'mon Uchiha! We have to get out of here!"

"One second!!" Sasuke replaced his mask and stepped towards the blond, "I'm sorry." He delivered a quick punch to Naruto's gut, effectively knocking the boy out.

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