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The night that changed my life (rewritten)	By : foxkitsune300 Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 4064 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 3
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~*~*~*~*Chapter 11~*~*~*~*
(The danger of knowing)
It had become dark by the time Iruka had finally left to return to his and Kakashi's rented room at the inn, and although he should have been sleeping peacefully Naruto was left wide awake staring out the window towards the moonless sky.
One night down, and one to go, by two more mornings lights he would have to make a decision, he would have to inform the Kyuubi if he was to keep the spawn of his once friend, or allow it to be killed before it even had a chance to truly live.
He continued to stare, suddenly missing Konoha more then before. As much as he loved Sunagakure, as much as he would on any other day be over joyed to stay this long in Suna before, he suddenly missed all his friends, his teammates, even Tsunade was terribly missed
/Its been almost three months since you were taken from there kit... Of course you miss them all/ he heard the tired voice of the Kyuubi from within her cage, he allowed himself to sigh tiredly closing his eyes, he knew talking to her would only be a waste of time, her chakra was being used against her will to allow the child to grow within Naruto's body. She was tired, she wouldn't be much of a conversation holder.
Naruto turned his attention towards the window once again, he needed someone to talk to, someone to help him figure out what he was going to do.
Naruto hurriedly closed his eyes hearing the door to his room creak open, he heard the foot steps of someone approaching, and felt the hand upon his own rubbing the skin gently, and he laid there, in a false sleep, praying whom ever had decided to enter his room, didn't have any secret intentions of doing so
“Naruto?” He heard the faint voice flutter through his ear, the voice was familiar, but he hadn't heard anyone call his name before with such concern, worry, and love mixed together, he laid still, unsure why he was continuing to pretend his slumber
“Are you awake?” Again that voice kissed his ears, but he continued to lay still, his breathing even, he heard the relieved sigh from the other, and felt the others second hand upon his head, brushing his hair from his face
“I... Don't know what to say actually... I guess I could start with how I... How you....” Naruto continued to listen to the wording of the other man, listening to just how hard it was for him to communicate
“I was scared.... Scared to lose you to that turn coat Uchiha” Upon hearing the name Naruto's body flinched in fear, the other male caught the pained jolt and returned to rubbing Naruto's hand
“I was scared you left to go be with him.... I was scared you would never come back to Sunagakure, to me... I was scared you loved him.... Not me” Naruto continued to listen, his breathing lightened up more just to listen to the sounds of the familiar voice, trying to pinpoint exactly who it was without alerting them to his awakening
“It was wrong of me to think you would just betray Konoha, to just leave for no reason, if you loved him in any way... You would have tried to bring him back... Not leave with him... I apologize for doubting you, I'm happy you have returned, I'm happy you are safe now... And I promise... That Uchiha bastard will never touch you again... I promise you.. I will protect you...
I have feelings... These feelings I can't explain... That make me angry when I cannot see you.... That make me violent when you are in danger... That make my stomach turn when I hear you laugh... When you touch me... Hold me.... I don't like these feelings... Because I know you will never feel the same about me.... I knew the only way to get over them as fast as possible is to tell you about them.... Don't hate me for them... I cannot stand to loose you.... I cannot take the chance of letting you know about them.... So I confess to you... Like a coward in the night... Sneaking into your room every night to tell you over and over... I like you Naruto.... If not just like you... I may even love you” It was then he knew who was there. He waited until he heard the other leave before he opened his eyes, staring towards the door. He felt the sting of tears forming in the corners of his eyes, he felt the weight pressing down upon his chest as his heart began to race. Never in his years of knowing the Kazekage had he ever expected to hear Gaara speak so much. Never had he expected Gaara to admit any emotional feelings towards him
“Oh god...” I am not going to do anything until the third day kit... Talk to him first, tell him/ Naruto slapped his hands against his eyes, his hands shaking slightly as he fought to hold back the tears. He drew himself back into the cage of the Kyuubi, his hands gripping at the bars tightly
“No! You know how long it took to get Iruka to promise not to say anything?! I can't! I can't tell him! He'll hate me... He'll be sickened by me... Disgusted that I'm carrying that bastards baby”
“You don't know that kit”
“The hell I don't! He hates Sasuke possibly more then me right now!” Kyuubi's tail pushed against Naruto, pushing him away from the bars, her eyes darkened towards the blonde as she stepped closer
“No one can hate that scum more then you... He took your virginity! He raped you daily for two months! He made you his bitch, he forced you to enjoy it, he humiliated you, he spilled his seed inside of you, he has broken us!” Naruto watched as the fox's anger began to boil over, her heckles rose upon her back, her eyes narrowed dangerously thin, her tail twitched violently from side to side
“He broke... 'us'?” Her eyes widened in shock, her body slumped back as her eyes darted from side to side
“I meant you... He has broken you...”
“You meant it.. But you said 'us'... Exactly what has he done to you?” She laid herself against the floor, her eyes refusing to meet his own
“Memories kit.... Memories I wish to forget about...” He felt sudden shame wash over him, watching as the fox twitched her tail in front of her face, trying to amuse herself, Or trying not to relive the past
“Please kit... Just talk to the red haired one... Talk to him and let him know what is happening... He can help you with this decision better then I can....” He stared towards her, before sighing softly and pulling himself to his feet
“Thank you Kyuubi.... I haven't said it enough.... If I had to deal with this shit alone... It would have all ended with the mirror shard...”
“I know kit.... Now go” He returned her forced smile, and soon found himself back in his hospital room, he stared towards the window outside and sat himself upright on the bed, watching as the dark blue sky slowly began to lighten. He watched as the nurse entered the room, a platter of food for him
“Nurse... Could you tell Gaara I'd like to speak with him... W-when he is free that is...” Her eyes watched him in shock, shock he was awake at this early morning hour, or shock that he was even awake at all Naruto couldn't decide, but with a hurried nod she gave him his breakfast, and left the room as fast as her feet could take her.
He had barely eaten half of his food when the door opened, he watched as Gaara strolled into the room, and took a seat in the chair beside the bed
“Gaara... I need to talk to yo-” Gaara rose his hand, silencing Naruto from speaking before pointing to the platter of half eaten toast, eggs, what Naruto assumed was porridge
“Eat, then we will talk Naruto” So he continued to eat, slowly, and in silence as the Kazekage watched him, making sure he ate every last bite of the entire meal
“You need to keep your strength up as much as possible, your body still isn't healing as fast as it should”
“That's what I want to talk to you about.... Gaara.... I... I was awake last night” He didn't know why his confession made him blush so deeply, why it made his nose and cheeks feel as if he were on fire, Gaara's body stiffened slightly, before his teal green eyes turned up towards Naruto
“What... Do you mean?...”
“I heard you.... I know... How you feel towards me...” Gaara slowly arose from his seat, his head lowered enough to hide his eyes
“I have to go... I have a lot of paper work to do”
“Please wait.. I.... Gaara I didn't know you liked me like that.... I had no idea... I t-thought I was the only one who had feelings like that in our friendship... I'm happy you feel the same way about me... I'm so happy...” Gaara seated himself back onto the chair, staring towards Naruto with confused, yet excited eyes
“But... I don't think you will continue to have those feelings for me Gaara... And I want you to know I never meant for any of this... I never wanted my confession to you be this way....” he felt Gaara's hand caress his own hand again, similar to the night before touches
“Why do you think that?”
“I was raped by Sasuke... F-for two months.... He... He made me... Do things... I... I can't... I don't want to think about it.... I don't want to remember anymore...” Gaara sighed sadly towards Naruto, his hand pulling away from Naruto's hand, he began rubbing small circles on Naruto's back to calm him
“They made me ingest this... This spicy stuff... It burned my insides for weeks.... I... I thought it was just another form of torture.... To be humiliated... Raped.... Bleeding... And to burn from the inside out...” Gaara's hands continued to caress Naruto's back, trying to calm the now hyperventilating blonde upon the bed
“It hurt so bad.... B-but then I was freed.... Ero-sensei saved me... Kakashi too... I was so happy... But so scared... I'm so dirty.... Filthy...”
“No... You're not Naruto...None of this was under your control... You did nothing wrong...” Naruto's broken laugh startled Gaara, the Kazekage watched as the blonde began to cry again, the tears running freely down his cheeks
“It gets so much worse... I know why I'm not healing as fast as I should be....” Gaara's attention perked more as he watched the blonde
“Then tell me... We can fix it....”
“I.... I don't even know how to say this... Fuck... Fuck... FUCK!!” Naruto felt the hand return to his back, he felt his body begin to calm down at the lovingly touches he was given by the other, he felt his body begin to shake from nerves, his hands came to rest over his head
“F-forget it... Y-you have work t-to do... W-we can talk later” Gaara's hands stopped their caresses, he stared towards Naruto in shock before shaking his head
“No... You are more important right now... Tell me what is going on?” Naruto's hands pressed against his mouth tightly, fearing to tell Gaara.
He couldn't tell Gaara, much like he couldn't tell Iruka.
Naruto grabbed Gaara's hand, placing it upon his abdomen, he stared towards the red haired Kazekage, waiting for him to feel the flicker of chakra the foetus would give off.
Gaara stared towards Naruto, confused by the blonde's actions, it only took him a moment before he felt it, the light flicking of chakra against his finger tips.
He stared towards his hand in shock, and concern as again he felt the warm flicking, it was weak, it was barely noticeable unless one was really trying to find it
“That's...”
“M-my baby.... S-Sasuke's baby.... I-its why I can't heal... All Kyuubi's power is going to help it grow...” Naruto felt Gaara's hand pull away from his touch, he turned his attention towards the red haired Kazekage and watched as Gaara arose from his seat, his eyes wide before storming out of the room, leaving Naruto alone upon the bed.
Tears pooled down his cheeks as he stared towards the shut door to his room.
Naruto released a heart broken sob into his hands, his stomach began to turn and twist, his tears continued to flow.
He felt his breakfast rise from his stomach, he could do little more then hunch over the side of the bed before release his stomach of its contents
/I'm so sorry kit.... I didn't think he would react like that.../ He refused to answer Kyuubi, he stared towards his bed sheets, ignoring the nurse that made her way in to clean the mess he'd made.
He couldn't bring himself to breathe much less talk at this point
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The night that changed my life (rewritten)