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What Do You See?	By : Snowway32 Category: Naruto > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 2093 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Hey I have a new chapter for you guys; hope you enjoy! Get ready for a bombshell and a small cliffie. All will be explained eventually, I promise.

I hope you enjoy the twist, and new angle. For now; on to the chapter Duckies.
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"So Kitsune; why not fight me?" Naruto sighed heavily; this man was getting on his nerves. He had learned that Kisame was a bit too blood thirsty for his tastes. He pulled out a Flying Thunder God Kunai and spinned it around his middle finger; anger flashing in blue eyes. He was tired, agitated and running for such a long time alongside a -stick up the ass - Uchiha and a shark like man. Naruto knew that it would take some effort and forbidden techniques but he would eventually stand above this man and smirk at his shortcomings. Only to deflate; that would only make his situation worse than it was. He didn't want to endanger the lives of Jiraiya-sensei and Kakashi.

"Look fish-face; I'm agitated, pissed and exhausted. Do not tempt me because I can just as easily disappear back to Konoha in a single flash and you'll never find me again. I'm not fighting you because I know it will put my friends in more danger and I will never allow that. Although I can admire your immense blood lust - it rivals even Kyuubi's - I doubt you can face up against the Namikaze heir and the Kyuubi Jinchuuriki." Naruto said with a sigh. He really was so tired; he felt sick to his stomach because of everything that had happened to him. He wanted it to end and never look back to where Naruto knew he wasn't needed. With a simple flick of his wrist - Naruto launched the Kunai through the air and easily started to move towards the Flying Thunder God Kunai. Coming to a stop in front of Kisame; mere millimetres away from his blue nose and looking straight into beady black eyes. The Kunai he had thrown now held in his hand where he had caught it whilst it was still in the air.

"Leave him be." Even with those three simple words; Itachi's voice seemed to snap the tension between them. Easily taking command of the situation. Naruto nodded; Itachi was right. A mere wrong move could send him into a killing spree where he eliminated his two captors with little effort and a lot of pent up pain and rage. Naruto moved away from the imposing figure next to him before falling in step next to the rightful Uchiha heir. He was slightly satisfied with the fact that Kisame kept a faire distance away from him - clearly heading the words he had hissed a few seconds ago. It was however little consolation for the emotions that were making his heart heavy and creating the sensation that a large weight had settled on his chest and made difficult to breathe.

Naruto's shoulder's felt heavy with the weight of the pain and sorrow that now settled in his heart. Naruto knew that he was playing with fire yet he would still do it. Naruto could no longer stand to look at himself and know what he had done; knowing that he had made his sensei's worry about him. Even if it was justified; Naruto still felt as if he was a great burden to those two who he loved more than anything in the world around him.

Naruto felt guilty for leaving Jiraiya and Kakashi with little explanation and a proper goodbye before taking his life into his own hands. No; more like handing it over on a silver platter to Itachi and the Akatsuki organization. He already felt so tainted and dirty that Naruto had lost his will to live. His will of fire had been extinguished the moment he had been tainted and yet the small wick of a flame still burned in him and that was only for those two who had meant so much to him and shown him the smallest amount happiness in the drowning emotions that flitted through him.

Naruto had decided that it was time that he broke the seal that lay dormant within him; to finally become one with his father in a way they had always been meant to be. Naruto couldn't stop his thoughts from returning to his two senseis; would they be angry if he did it. No; he was merely giving them what they had craved their entire life. Giving them a chance to make right the failures they had lived through during their lives. The fact that they could not save Minato and be there for him when he needed it the most. Naruto would now become Minato; the person he should always have been in the first place. Somehow Naruto knew that this was the only way to save Konoha and stay out of their way at the same time; keep them from worrying for his well being.

Naruto was anything but stupid and he knew that the moment he was forced to fight with this dangerous organization that called itself the Akatsuki; Konoha would also automatically become a target because his love for the village and his precious people in it - it had become his greatest weakness. These were shinobi who had no qualms about doing anything to get their hands on the Kyuubi no Kitsune's power.

Naruto stumbled slightly; the image of a woman with long, fiery red hair smiled at him lovingly. The sensation of ghostly fingers brushing against cheek made Naruto's heart flutter in his chest just as it made the blood freeze in his veins...

'It's the destiny of all Jinchuuriki to get kidnapped at least once in their life; Minato yo.' Naruto froze was that his mother? It was the first time that Minato's memories spilled over in his mind whilst Naruto wasn't asleep. Naruto didn't notice but his breath hitched in his chest and it became suddenly difficult to breathe; his heart constricting in pain. That was his mother? She was absolutely beautiful and the aura she exuded was fierce but gentle at the same time; a perfect match to Minato's personality.

'She may have been Naruto; but I couldn't love her how I was supposed to. My heart belonged to someone else.' Naruto nodded; knowing very well of the illicit relationship Minato had shared with Fugaku even when both of them had commitments in other relationships. It was almost as if they could never be pulled apart.

'I know. I don't blame you Dad. Don't feel guilty; your emotions are making my head spin.' Naruto said softly; he had the sudden urge to cry but managed to only sniffle lightly. Hand wiping furiously at his eyes to wipe away at the tears that he knew was coming eventually.

"Ryo for your thoughts Naruto-kun?" Naruto scowled at his captor and sneered; showing sharp canines and scrunching his whisker like marks. The image he made was menacing and frightening at the same time. Just because Naruto had agreed to come along willingly didn't mean that he had to enjoy the company that they presented him with. Naruto sighed; blonde bangs covering sorrow filled blue eyes; was he really doing the right thing? He had been asking himself the same question for several hours now and he had yet to come up with a good enough answer.

"Shut it Uchiha! I don't want to talk to the person who murdered my beloved in cold blood." Naruto whispered brokenly; echoing his father's words out loud. The merge was becoming stronger and stronger and Naruto knew that one little push was all it would take. It was true; Naruto didn't feel like he existed anymore. Truth be told Naruto hadn't really existed since he had been brought into this world. He was simply the deviated twist of two souls of his father's reincarnated soul and his own soul; why not complete what had been meant to happen from the moment he was born?

"Impossible. I killed no one who was close to you." If Naruto had paid enough tension he would have found amusement in the slight flash of fear in dark eyes and the confusion that furrowed a perfectly sculpted eyebrow.

"Of course you did; Itachi. You killed Papa's lover; so you killed my lover too." Naruto said sadly; knowing that he was right. Naruto after all had several very erotic memories of the elder Uchiha and 'him' together. Naruto's cryptic response had earned him a raised eyebrow and a grunted 'Hn.'; not once did Naruto see the flash of pain in neither those eyes nor the guilt that swam in dark depths. If he had; Naruto would have known that Itachi was hiding something from the world that no one should ever know of. Naruto merely chuckled brokenly at Itachi's expression before blue eyes blinked closed in sadness and subtle remorse.

'I love you Dad.'

'I love you too Naruto; please think carefully about what you are going to do.' Naruto nodded; drawing deeper into himself as turmoiled emotions clouded his vision and broke his heart. His wounds were itching again and Naruto knew he was going to reopen the wounds that night; he needed release and pain from the past few days that had turned his usually sorrowful world upside down with many different emotions of guilt and pain.

Naruto just wanted to feel it again; that rush that reminded him he was still in control of something and that made the pain just a little easier to deal with. Naruto knew that his emotions were reaching a pinnacle that he could no longer control. No matter how much Naruto tried to remain indifferent to the current situation; fear was still plaguing his heart and making many doubts flit through his mind. Was he good enough to do this all by himself? What about Jiraiya and Kakashi? Would they also begin to hate him like the rest of all those he had come into contact with? Even Naruto knew that his relationship with Sasuke was now filled with hate; he had seen the darkness in those eyes - all of it directed at him.

Naruto was already shattered and yet, why was his heart still in so much turmoil and he wished every second Jiraiya-sensei and Kakashi-sensei could protect him from the cruelty of the world that seemed to follow him everywhere. He just wanted that tiny bit of reassurance that he was still loved by someone who wasn't merging with him.

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Kakashi gripped the insignificant deep red scroll in his hand; Jiraiya ahead of him as they followed Pakkun towards the scent that was familiar to his own nose. He felt his heart shattering as his mind kept playing the message Naruto had left him; Naruto had left Konoha with the very dangerous men who had no morals whatsoever and could be having their way with his Naruto. He could taste the blood that filled his mouth as he bit through his bottom lip; for once grateful for his mask. Naruto was in danger because they had stirred emotions in him and for once Kakashi wasn't sure if he should be angry at himself or those who had dared to infringe on his territory? Dealing with an emotional Naruto was never easy and then something just had to happen to his beloved that could possibly scar Naruto more...

'Kakashi; I'm sorry for what I have done. The pain I have placed upon you in hopes of gaining some love for myself. Only; Kakashi - I no longer know if I am Naruto or Minato; whether I ever existed in your heart in the first place. I can share this with you because I know there will be no judgement and yet I cannot help but wonder who you see when you look at me. I don't want to be Naruto anymore and yet I don't deserve to be Minato either; who am I then?

I know that I am Minato when I think of you because I know and I still love you just like I loved you when you were first put in my genin team. I won't try and bore you with details but in order for you to know that I am telling the truth; I'll tell you something that only you and I would know. That only Minato and you shared.

It was midwinter; twenty three years ago exactly that Sakumo committed suicide. I can remember that sorrowful night exactly as it happened because it breaks me every time I think about it. You coming to me - still covered in blood and crying your heart out in my lap. You were so broken; broken just like me...

How you had found me and Fugaku that night I would never know; but it was also after that night that I never underestimated the keen sense of smell you inherited from the Sakumo and the Hatake Clan; almost a blood line limit. That night you were merely fourteen; still so young. Yet how you still managed to seduce both me and Fugaku I can only guess. After that night; you - Kashi-koi - had carved a place for yourself in my and Fugaku's hearts and never left. How many nights did we spend in the throes of passion and learned all of our deepest secrets; an awkward collection of broken pieces and yet we never fit together better.

Kakashi I feel like I'm Naruto when I completely break in your arms; feeling small and vulnerable just I was as a young child. Only for you will I display the vulnerability that I have been trying so hard to hide from the eyes of the world. How can I ever forget the kindness you have shown me that night when I caught a fever for the first time? It was that single kiss that opened my heart for you and yet; as I now stare at this blank piece of paper. I still wonder if I deserve everything you have given me. Every touch of hope; comfort and love. Is this what I really deserve? Somehow my traumatized mind cannot accept that. I cannot be fixed anymore; my mind is so scattered and my heart is in a million pieces.

I won't ask you to come and look for me after this Kakashi. There is no need. I am protecting you and Jiraiya as I protected Konoha fourteen years ago. Fate had always been cruel in my life. Making every step I take much harder and filled with dark emotions and yet a single light of hope was given to me in the form of you and Jiraiya. If I were to be granted one wish by you; it would be that you promised to still love me even if I perish in this mission. I have gone willingly with the Akatsuki members, Hoshigaki Kisame and Uchiha Itachi.

If you're reading between the lines; Kashi-Koi you should know that this is a cry for help and understanding. But please; since I know I can't persuade you from not following me I am begging you to be careful. Even with my past experiences; I have never felt so helpless in my entire life.

I'll say this once; I'm not sure how long I have left but I know that no matter if I perish, you and Jiraiya-sensei will be on my mind when I take my last dying breath.

Keep safe Kashi-koi; keep safe and be careful.

Captive of your heart and soul

Namikaze Chibi-Minato.'

Looking at Jiraiya now; Kakashi knew that Naruto had written just as an emotionally charged scroll for the Sannin as he had for him. What Kakashi hadn't understood though was the effects that Chibi-Minato was having on him. He had thought that he had long ago cut off his heart from the world. When Minato-sensei had died it had left him broken and alone to face the world that was cruel and unpredictable. Sometimes Kakashi could stop the anger at that from spreading through his body but that had faded the moment that Naruto had entered into his life again.

Kakashi gave a bitter chuckle; Naruto. His Naruto was in danger and here he was worrying over his past? Life could really be fucked up sometimes. Urgency in his heart made itself known and Kakashi doubled his speed; no words passed between him and Jiraiya. There was no need; they both knew the gravity of the situation and the concern flowing between them was enough to make his Raikiri crackle without an ounce of chakra or chakra nature manipulation. So much was the tension, regret and guilt that resonated off of one another's sadness.

"Kakashi! His scent is strong and close by." Kakashi nodded; his eye scanning the area. What puzzled him was the fact that he could feel the touch of three powerful chakra - one definitely belonging to Naruto but the other was heavy with power. He was cautious; knowing that those two missing Nin were strong enough to sense him too easily. Hell; he used to be the ANBU captain of one of them not so long ago.

"No. It's too dangerous." Jiraiya's words dragged Kakashi back from racing those last few kilometres to reach Naruto; something in Jiraiya's voice told Kakashi that there was also the possibility of a trap. Kakashi nodded; calling back his pack and dropping to the ground. The moon was peaking high in the sky as it approached close to midnight. When Jiraiya landed next to him; a hand on his shoulder in a calm and comforting manner.

"My intelligence suggests that Akatsuki head quarters are in Amegakura which is four days away with travel. It's still too close to Konoha to steal Naruto away from them. We will not engage in a fight with them; it's too dangerous for Naruto. We need to keep them distracted whilst we take Naruto back to Konoha; when we get back we need to start travelling. He cannot stay where he is vulnerable." Kakashi nodded; shoulders slumping the sudden tiredness that washed over him.

"We'll be going then Boss; be careful." Kakashi nodded, waving a dismissive hand just as several puffs of smoke indicated the departure of his pack.

"They're pretty useful." Kakashi chuckled; sinking to the forest floor against the bark of a tree. Wrapping his arms lazily around his raised leg; staring at Jiraiya with an amused eye. Giving a eye curving smile generously.

"The same goes for the toads." Jiraiya snorted at that statement.

"They have the worst attitudes ever; it can sometimes be like dealing with a pissed off Uchiha for several days at a time."

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"Jiraiya; formalities aside. This situation is very dire. I don't have a problem with getting Naruto back silently but what worries me is the possibility that Itachi may not take too well to the theft of their Jinchuuriki. What're are we going to do?" Kakashi could see Jiraiya give a sigh; dark eyes flashing dangerously as killing intent brushed up against his skin and made the hair at the back of his head raise in goose bumps. Jiraiya was intimidating and dangerous even when he was goofing off but now; as the tension and guilt was thick in the air the usually quirky Sannin swapped his outgoing personality for one that rivalled the intensity of Fugaku. Not an easy feat to accomplish at all.

"Kakashi; first we need to separate Naruto from imminent danger; after that we need to leave Konoha completely. It's too dangerous for him to be near that place and Tsunade had already agreed to allow him a three year training trip to obtain his Jounin rank in other countries. It is a failsafe to keep him in our sights as we watch for the possibility of him causing more harm to himself. He also needs to learn to control Kyuubi and as I'm sure you also have things that you need to teach your student that is the best option we have." Kakashi nodded; that seemed to make sense to him; if that would serve to separate Naruto from Konoha then it was all the better that both of them would accompany Naruto on a journey to finding his confidence against and eliminating his doubts and insecurity.

"I'm not going to lie to you Kakashi. It's going to be hell but for Naruto I know I would go to hell and back to give him the affection and love that had been withheld from him his entire life. It's a lot of touches we have to make up for..." Kakashi chuckled; that had sounded so wrong but so right. Kakashi was prepared for anything that involved Naruto and his Chibi-Minato.

"I've got first watch; Jiraiya-sensei. Get some sleep; I need to feel for Naruto's chakra as well. Try and reassure him that we're close without giving our position away."

"You figure out a way to do that Hatake-sama and I'll grant you a kiss and I may just turn into a prince. You never know." Kakashi chuckled the sudden gravity of the situation shimmering a bit in the humorous mood; only both shinobi knew very well that nothing had really changed. Every minute Naruto spent with those monsters could be his last; it made for tense smiled and desperate attempts to get to their student and beloved Naruto.

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'Naruto? What am I going to do with you?' Naruto purred; sitting between Minato's legs in his mindscape. To Itachi and Kisame it would look like he was merely sleeping but Naruto was sitting with his father; basking in his warmth before he opened that damned door. Fingers that carded through his hair was washing calm over Naruto in waves; if it was one thing he would miss it would be these little conversations that he could have with Minato.

'Dad, will you ever forgive me?' Naruto asked brokenly; tears shimmering in blue eyes just as a matching set of tear filled blue met with his. A thumb tenderly brushing away the tears that gathered at the corner of his eyes.

'What's there to forgive Naruto?' Naruto himself couldn't come up with an answer to that question but he just knew that he wanted to be forgiven for something. Something, for still being alive, for killing Minato, for not being able to accept the love he was so freely given...

'Hush Naruto; it'll be alright. Kakashi and Jiraiya are already close; keep holding onto that love. Don't hesitate in keeping that love.' Naruto nodded before finally raising; grabbing onto Minato's hand and pulling, carefully walking through the water logged passageways. His heart stuttering slightly; knowing that what he was about to do was going to have a profound change on his life and yet Naruto would not hesitate.

'Will it hurt?' Naruto asked softly as they came to a stop before the large imposing double door.

'I don't know Naruto but are you sure you want this?' Naruto nodded.

'I'm sure; I want this more than anything in the world.' Minato nodded; fingers curling around Naruto's smaller hand that laid on the wooden door in a show of support.

'I love you Tou-chan.'

'I love you too my Naru-chan.' For some inexplicable reason felt tears drip from his eyes as if his heart was drowned in sorrow; with determination Naruto gave a push. Dark blue light nearly blinding him as warmth spread over his entire form; it was a soft, gentle and loving caress and then the pain came. Chakra changing, physically features altering and his soul splitting in two before merging completely. Naruto knew he must have been screaming in his grief; but it meant that it was finally done. The pain was too much too understand, to comprehend and to feel anything that happened around him...

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Blue eyes shot open; slitted and blonde hair now reaching his thighs. Minato felt confused; he knew he was Naruto as Naruto was him but what he didn't anticipate was for him to completely absorb Naruto's soul. He was now in Naruto's body but that wasn't true either; he was still in his fourteen year old body...

Whisker like marks were gone and his nose felt sharper and his hair? What the hell had happened there? It had been as if he hadn't cut it the last fourteen years; that's right he hadn't. He was supposed to be locked inside of Naruto and yet nowhere did he feel a touch of his son's chakra.

Minato blinked a few times to clear his vision; cringing when he felt two pairs of eyes on him. His hand settled over his stomach; Kyuubi's seal responding to his chakra and touch as he shut out the world around him. Minato sighed; how many times would things go wrong for him and Naruto? Really did they possess a sigh on their backs that read 'Fate; please Fuck me over!'

He really swore that was exactly what Kami had planned for them...

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Thanks for reading; hope you enjoy and for now. We'll learn a lot more about Minato's past and his own fears and insecurities. As for our favourite Naru-chan; he's swapped places with Minato for now, not sure how Kashi and Jiraiya will take it but we'll see. Until next time my lovely Duckies.

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